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I won't go another day without you

Summary: At the age of 19, Sakura was raped by the same man who killed her boyfriend's, Syaoran Li, older sister due to power hungry of the Li Corp. Forced to live with her father; she leaves Syaoran not wanting to tell him the truth that she got raped left him to NYC. Syaoran thinking she cheated on him does not know goes into a rampage as he slowly discovers the blood that stained his family and his one true love. As Sakura and her father with her new born child, Liam Xiao Ai Kinomoto moves to China, will things blossom? Or will the killer follow slowly on her trail?

Characters: Syaoran Li x Sakura Kinomoto x Liam Xiao Ai

Eriol Hirigarzawa x Tomoyo Daidoji

Fujitaka Kinomoto

Touya Kinomoto x Kaho Mizuki

(add ons, my own)

Kazawara Reawarimi; Ex-husband of Femei Li, rapist of Sakura Kinomoto

Angel Matson x Reubon Studs

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Author's Notes : Please notice that there will be a few minor mistakes. There are a lot of language transitions, but I don't think you guys will notice because it is written out in English, but they do switch from Japanese, Chinese to English from time to time. Hope you guys enjoy! (:

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Chapter One

Sakura's P.O.V.

The distance between us was becoming eerie, and the sky was grey even though it was noon. Before it all, we would always sit on the hood of his car, hold each other's hands as the world kept spinning but today wasn't the day.

"I'm sorry"

"For what? For sleeping with some other man? I love you, I love you so damn much Sakura. Everything was for you. Everything was ABOUT YOU. What the hell did I do?"

"Nothing, -I don't know."

"Nothing? Then WHY? Why Sakura, tell me WHY?"

"I'm sorry." I looked down on the floor.

"Please, p-lease just leave."

I looked at his amber orbs one more time; sadden by the fact that this time, it was pain struck eyes and not gleaming with joy. I turned away, in regret, this time I had to keep on going.

'I have to do this' I told myself quietly as I placed my hands on the small bump.

I turned back one more time, only to be washed by the waves of tears as I saw him sitting on the concrete floor. I wanted to so much, just so so much, to run back in his loving arms and tell him what had happened, but I can't because this is not his child.

*Home*

"Sakura," I heard Touya say. His masculine voice soft yet masked, he knew what happened.

"I told him," I said as I cried. His arms wrapped around me as I soaked his white shirt, he quietly told me it would be ok, and in the end it would be better. Touya didn't want me to do it, he wanted me to tell Syaoran the truth, but I couldn't, I couldn't stare him straight in the eyes and tell him. Why would he want a child that is not his?

"No more crying ok? It's bad for you, just look at Kaho." His wife who was six months pregnant. I looked at him softly, knowing not to worry him anymore. I nodded at him and he led me upstairs, I took a deep breath as I entered my room only to see Kaho, a big bump on her stomach, knowing that would be me in a couple of months. I was already two months in term of my pregnancy.

"Hey," she said to me. I gave her a weak smile, "How did it go?"

"Better than I thought," I lied through my teeth, she knew.

"I have news for you," I looked at her intently, "He is back in jail. He murdered his girlfriend and pleads for insanity. They are putting him back into the insanity home, so you need not worry."

"Thank you Kaho, for everything you do even at your state of being." I said quietly.

"No, it's my pleasure. This little girl isn't stopping her mommy from justice, especially for you Sakura. And you know very well of that." I nodded once more not knowing what to say. She told me to sit beside her as she continues to fold my clothing in the suitcase. She stopped for a moment, to place her hands on my knees.

"You know," she started, "You have the choice to still let the baby go. It's was a mistake, the baby is not yours."

"No," I took a deep breath, "he or she is mine. Made from my very own blood as well. They did nothing and I don't want to hurt them as much as it hurts me. I want to see this baby grow up and smile and tell them they are a blessing to me as much as I am a blessing to everyone else. It may be a really huge mistake that this had happened, but I want to love it because it is mine."

Kaho nodded, not wanting to prolong the conversation as she knew that was my final say. This baby is mine, it is a part of me and I want to keep him or her. They may not grow up with a father, but I will do my best to make them happy. I know the feeling of not having a complete family, my mother died when I was the age of 3 but I grew up with loving family around me and this child of mine would grow up the same.

Going downstairs I realized that my bags were all packed, ready for me to go. Touya didn't want me to live in Japan any longer, afraid of things that could go wrong when they are not around me. He relocated me to where my father currently lives, New York City, New York. Fujitaka, my father, my loving father who works abroad and sends his love to me every week, teaches at University of New York of Archeology. I would have access to what I need there, says my father; he had already planned the rest of my life there, schooling and everything.

"Ready?" I heard Touya say. I nodded. I walked slowly to over crevices of the house, the one house my mother build with her very own hands with her father, my grandfather. I heard weeping from Kaho, and the tears slowly trailed from my eyes as well. I went to my mother's picture on the dinner table, touched it one more time and said my sweet goodbye, only to this house, only to this land but never to her soul for she is always around me. I turned around and faced Kaho giving her my hug, for I will see her soon or maybe in a couple of years.

"Tell me the gender ok? Keep in touch, we will skype every month to see how you are doing. Eat well, no sweets and spices only fruits and vegetable don't let father keep you on your toes because soon you will be unable to walk." I nodded at all these little notes she's given me as she hugged me.

As I left the door, I look at the pale yellow paint of it as it was fading. My home, this home will not be my home for long as my new journey awaits me.

"Are you sure you don't want to say goodbye to every?"

"I'm sure," I whispered quietly. I knew I couldn't face Tomoyo, knowing she will make me stay and she would postpone any of her fashion runways just to keep me ok and sane and well nourished. I didn't want to be such a burden on anyone's shoulder. I know I was being careless, but this was the best, the only best and I know they will understand in the long run. I couldn't say my goodbye either, because there wasn't a good in this good bye, I had to leave for me and this child to be safe. I would be lucky enough to see them in the future, but lucky was already stripped away from me the day I was raped. My life, my integrity, my body and most important who I was, was stripped away, stolen.

As Touya drove and I saw Kaho waving slowly behind us I started to realize what I was leaving. The discrete memories started to crawl slowly into my heart and it ached. Not wanting to cry anymore I sucked all the pain in, realizing that this is how it will be and I will not dwell on it. It wasn't too late to go back to his arms, and I knew that very well as the memories flooded my mind of him.

Syaoran Xiao Lang Li. His amber orbs. Chestnut hair. Masculine personality. Stoic face. Heart of an angel. Mind of a stone. Everything about him I would miss, but I hope that he truly find's who would fill his heart with happiness and not regret. I started crying at the back, Touya giving my sad glimpse but he knew to keep driving on to the airport. I gave one last cry, and emptied my heart of our memories, knowing I would have to make new ones without him.

Reaching the airport, my hand shakes as I grabbed my suitcase. Touya gave me one last hugged and whispered for me to be strong as mother will always be with me, to guide me and to give me the strength I need. I smiled and was nourished by his love.

"I will miss you," I said.

"Me too," he said, "take care of yourself."

"You too, visit soon." I said. He nodded and I left to my gate. He watched me leave and soon enough, the new journey was waiting for me with open arms.

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Syaoran's P.O.V.

I saw her walking towards me, but I knew the feeling between us was wrong. I went in for a hug but she disregarded it and took a deep breath.

"I'm leaving you."

"What?" I said, flabbergasted.

"I can't be with you anymore."

"What, why?"

"I'm sorry."

"Sak, you're lying right? Tell me you are lying." My heart was pounding. I didn't want to say goodbye to her, I love her so much, more than anything in this world.

"I'm so sorry," she was staring at the ground, her voice cracked.

"Look at me," I told her, my voice rising, "Look at me and tell me there isn't another man."

She raised her face but slowly her face drooped, and I knew instantly that there was another man.

"Who is it? Why? Why Sakura?" My blood boiled.

"I'm sorry,"

"Sorry doesn't cut it, just tell me you don't love him. We can work this out," I wanted to bargain for her love again.

"No, Syao—Li." She called me by my last name and my heart sank.

"You slept with him didn't you?" I started assuming all these things in my head that could go wrong, even though I knew that she wouldn't ever do it, until she didn't answer.

"I'm sorry." I was furious; I punched the concrete wall next to me, feeling a crack. She stood there, unspoken, shaken by what just happened.

"For what? For sleeping with some other man? I love you, I love you so damn much Sakura. Everything was for you. Everything was ABOUT YOU. What the hell did I do?" I told her; not caring if I sounded angry, I just wanted her to know that I love her and that she was everything to me.

"Nothing, -I don't know."

"Nothing? Then WHY? Why Sakura, tell me WHY?"

"I'm sorry." I looked down on the floor.

"Please, p-lease just leave." At the back of my mind, I wanted nothing more but her embrace; I didn't want her to leave but my heart cried out in pain. She looked at me one more time, I saw her emerald orbs shake in agony, but as of right now I wanted nothing of her presence. As she walked away, I sat on the cold concrete, gathering my thoughts of what I have done to hurt her in the past few months.

Sitting down I realized that about two months ago, was our 4 year anniversary. I remember being angry at her because she couldn't make it because she was at a cheerleading regional, I became rash and said that I was of nothing of importance to her. It was rainy that night, dark and the moon above our head. She screamed at me, telling me that this was her last cheer leading competition and apologized for not being able to be there, she told me she loved me but I disregarded all of her comments.

I remember the tears that were falling from her eyes, tears that should never be there in the first place because I was so angry for no reason. She told me to stop the car, and she proceeded to get out. I told her to get back in, but she kept walking and I got so angry I left her on the streets. I didn't bother to call her if she got home safely that night, didn't bother with anything at all.

The next morning her eyes were red, as if she was crying all night. It was mid July, but she wore long sleeves, I thought that maybe she was catching a fever. I held her close as she cried, and I apologized for my wrong doing. I didn't think that maybe because of that, we had broken up today, but I feel as if something went terribly wrong but I couldn't put my hands to it. My body shaked in agony, as I felt tears falling. I didn't know what was becoming of me, but my head melted into a deep pit wondering what really happened, and how could I get her back. I slowly got up and casted my face to be stoic. I was already late for my duty patrol and I felt the vibrating of my phone, knowing it was Eriol calling me where I was because I was late. Quickly I got into my car and drove to the police station, ready to explain to my chief why I was going to be late.

Everything about that day felt like my whole life was drained away from me. I didn't realize anything until I looked up at the sky, seeing an airplane pass me by. At that exact moment, my heart fell, it bursted into pieces and I did not know why.

"Eriol," I said, "cover me."

"Where you going bro`?" he asked me cautiously.

"I have to go find Sakura."

"She's probably at school with Tomoyo, chill."

"Just cover me alright? If chief checks, just tell him something."

"Chief is going to kill me, and then he is going to hunt you down Li." He barked at me.

"Thanks man," I patted him on his shoulder, grabbed my holster and my jacket and ran for my car.

Something was wrong. I felt like she left, she was gone. I didn't want to think of the worse, so I drove as fast as I could to her house. Upon the doors I made myself look presentable. I was about to knock on the door when her brother Touya appeared.

"What do you want?" He snarled. He and I were never fond of each other.

"Where is Sakura?" I asked, keeping my temper down.

"Left," he said, "leave her the hell alone."

"Where. Is. She?" I asked once more.

"Gone." He said, as he shoved me aside, closing the door behind him.

"Tell me, I want to make things right." I told him, my voice lowered. He turned around and looked at me.

"Make things right? Everything for her is hell. She cried her eyes out. You shouldn't have left her. Bastard!" he yelled at me, grabbing my collar.

"Me?" I was furious as I grabbed his wrist taking it off of my collar, "She left me, what the hell are you talking about."

"Oh, this time she did. But you shouldn't had ever left her by herself before, now LEAVE. Just because you are a cop doesn't mean I can't beat the crap out of you." He yelled once more. I got off the lawn, not wanting my badge to get taken away. I went back in my car to go to her college, hoping that she was there. I had not the slightest clue of what her brother was talking about.

Driving to Tokyo University, I saw Tomoyo at the front entrance worry casting her face.

"Li!" she screamed my name.

"Daidoji, where is Sakura?" I asked.

"I was going to ask you that!" She said.

"You mean, -"

"No I haven't seen her all day, she usually never misses school. She told me she would be here."

"What?"

"What happened?" She asked me curious.

"N-nothing. I'm leaving." At that exact moment, I knew she really left. I just drove home, not wanting to do anything with today, hoping that maybe tomorrow I would wake up and this would all be a dream. I wanted to wake up and hear her sweet, melodic voice telling me good morning, and to have a good day.

It wasn't until the next day that it wasn't a dream, and I finally realized that she really was gone.

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Author's Notes:

Oh my gahhhhh, first chapter done. (: I'm kind of proud and I am very much enjoying this plot that I had made along the way. If you guys are confused ): I am very much sorry. Please just message me or review on my silly mistakes. I wrote this all in one night, lol. _ sorry, I just wanted to so much share it! But please continue to support me.

Next Week updates coming up (: here is a little summary of what's happening next.

Sakura finally made it to New York City safely, living with her father as she continues to finish her class and take on her English course. Time is fast forward to her finally having her son, and Syaoran is moving back to China after hearing that the man who killed his sister escaped from the insanity house and to China. Sakura on the other hand is a full time dancer at Julliard and is enjoying every bit of it. Her father tells her unexpected news that they are leaving to China in the next couple of days due to the fact that University of New York is transferring him as an international teacher to University of Hong Kong. What will happen next? Stay Tuned! Please DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW!