Sorry
By Silver
1/2/09
Why?
Why does it hurt so freakin much?
I don't love you
You are like my sibling
But I'm going to miss you
Talking with you
Making jokes
Why does my heart feel like its breaking?
Shattering into pieces
God it hurts so bad
You misunderstood me
And it hurts to know
That you never trusted me
As much as I did you
You probably don't know how many chances
I gave to you cause I trusted you
Even when you were attacking me
I still forgave you
Even though you never said sorry
So you know what
I'll just put on a smile
And act like it's alright
When inside I'm breaking and crying
I can't believe I stayed here
For all of you
I think I did it because if I let go
Then you would think I'm weak and pathetic
And become jokes of the chat
Well not this time
I'll show you how it works
I'm not strong as I was
Losing you hurt
But know that I can make it hurt
Even more for you
I erased your number from my phone
I'll never answer you again
You were a life line
No more
I'll ignore you and pretend it's alright
Cause in the end
That's what counts right?
It doesn't matter that
You would prefer the lie
Over the truth
I'm sure that's what you want
Or the fact
That a simple action tore
My spirit
None of it matters now
It just means that I'm closer to breaking
Closer to falling off the cliff
Not that you would care
Not that you would cry
But I'm starting to hope
That I would just die
So thanks for the help
That one little push
It'll go downhill from here
And you'll never look
To see me fall
So I'm going to say this now
And not later
I'm sorry
If any of my friends from ifyouwas read this, know that i'm really sorry.
So go on make fun of me, take stabs at me cause now i feel no guilt.
I just thought you should know that.