-Darkness, that is all I ever see-
She sat alone on the balcony, looking over the sprawling grounds in front of her. It was nighttime, the stars blinking brightly in the sky, the moon only a small sliver. She shivered slightly, not really cold, but because of her state of mind. The outside may not be cold, but everything on the inside was. It had been many of years since she had felt warmth, joy, happiness. She looked around her nonchalantly, wondering where her 'dear husband was at the moment.
-Why do I bother? It isn't like he cares anymore. Always the Dark Lord this, the Dark Lord that.-
At first, it hadn't bothered her. She too, had once followed the orders of their beloved Lord, but now things were different. The stakes were different, the outcome was fated to be different. They were on a losing side, and she -hated- to lose. She knew all that was going to result was death, and a lot of it. She wanted to pull out of it, she wanted her entire family out, but her husband was so clueless. He had no idea that this was going to end in disaster.
-And now he has gotten my only son involved-
Looking up at the sky, she blinked, the image of the stars blurred by something that she had not done in years. She raised her hand to her face, wiping the stray tears off her cheek. Even her face had felt cold. Everything that she had worked so hard for was falling apart and now she was too. "It's not fair," she whispered into the night. She ran a hand through her wavy, blonde hair, wondering if she was making the right decision.
-I must be firm and follow through. This is something I should have done when it all began again-
She stood up from her chair, walking over to the ledge of the balcony. She leaned over, looking again at the sprawling grounds. She would miss this the most. The ability to walk around those grounds freely, the stars in the sky. She will miss this much, but she knew that this was better for her. She couldn't stay in a place where she was confined in action and word. She took one last look around, then turned, walking back into her grand room. Grabbing her things, she turned down the lights and walked out on the life that she knew.
-It really is over-
Walking down the stairs, she took one last opportunity to run her hands over the banister, feeling the elegant sculpting, enjoying the coolness under her fingertips. Her breath echoed as she continued to head slowly towards the huge doors, the ones that signaled her freedom, her escape from this world. She took everything in as she grasped the door handle firmly in her hand. Closing her eyes, she took it all in and pulled the huge door open, bathing in the moonlight that shined above her. She closed the door, sealing her fate. -Goodbye my love. I am sorry to see it end like this. Goodbye my son. I wish you wouldn't have turned out so like him. Goodbye the old Narcissa Malfoy, say hello to the new one-
She sat alone on the balcony, looking over the sprawling grounds in front of her. It was nighttime, the stars blinking brightly in the sky, the moon only a small sliver. She shivered slightly, not really cold, but because of her state of mind. The outside may not be cold, but everything on the inside was. It had been many of years since she had felt warmth, joy, happiness. She looked around her nonchalantly, wondering where her 'dear husband was at the moment.
-Why do I bother? It isn't like he cares anymore. Always the Dark Lord this, the Dark Lord that.-
At first, it hadn't bothered her. She too, had once followed the orders of their beloved Lord, but now things were different. The stakes were different, the outcome was fated to be different. They were on a losing side, and she -hated- to lose. She knew all that was going to result was death, and a lot of it. She wanted to pull out of it, she wanted her entire family out, but her husband was so clueless. He had no idea that this was going to end in disaster.
-And now he has gotten my only son involved-
Looking up at the sky, she blinked, the image of the stars blurred by something that she had not done in years. She raised her hand to her face, wiping the stray tears off her cheek. Even her face had felt cold. Everything that she had worked so hard for was falling apart and now she was too. "It's not fair," she whispered into the night. She ran a hand through her wavy, blonde hair, wondering if she was making the right decision.
-I must be firm and follow through. This is something I should have done when it all began again-
She stood up from her chair, walking over to the ledge of the balcony. She leaned over, looking again at the sprawling grounds. She would miss this the most. The ability to walk around those grounds freely, the stars in the sky. She will miss this much, but she knew that this was better for her. She couldn't stay in a place where she was confined in action and word. She took one last look around, then turned, walking back into her grand room. Grabbing her things, she turned down the lights and walked out on the life that she knew.
-It really is over-
Walking down the stairs, she took one last opportunity to run her hands over the banister, feeling the elegant sculpting, enjoying the coolness under her fingertips. Her breath echoed as she continued to head slowly towards the huge doors, the ones that signaled her freedom, her escape from this world. She took everything in as she grasped the door handle firmly in her hand. Closing her eyes, she took it all in and pulled the huge door open, bathing in the moonlight that shined above her. She closed the door, sealing her fate. -Goodbye my love. I am sorry to see it end like this. Goodbye my son. I wish you wouldn't have turned out so like him. Goodbye the old Narcissa Malfoy, say hello to the new one-