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Chapter 1: Rising

Screaming. Pain. Burning.

There was no escape from it, not ever. The air so thick with the stench of blood you could almost taste it, mixing with the smell of burning sulphur.

Amongst the screams there were the screeches of delight and glee, demons so twisted and distorted by their time here that they thought nothing of hacking at a screaming and pleading human soul. They rejoiced in the pain they caused, greedy to unleash the fury from their own imprisonment.

Alone, in a dark corner of hell, I listened to all this. And I silently wept in despair. Decades of pain and fear, unrelenting agony that just never seemed to fade.

The offer I got at the end of every new day in hell, which was probably only a few hours topside I thought in despair, I was offered the same deal; you come off the rack if you torture those in your place. I could never say yes, could never allow myself to actually bring such pain onto other souls. The demons told me it felt good, to be without pain. But I couldn't remember a time when I hadn't been in unspeakable agony. I could never, ever stomach the idea of accepting their offer.

But god I wanted to.

Suddenly, I felt like something was pulling me forwards, propelling me from my place on the rack. I stared at my hands, stunned that I was free, and lifted my battered and bruised head upwards. My eyes widened at what I saw and I heard several screams of delight from around me.

A hell's gate was open.

I stared for a few moments, not quite believing what I was seeing, when I felt and saw other demons and spirits pushing last me to get to the door. Without even thinking, I pulled myself to my feet and scrambled forwards, towards the light of the hell's gate.

There were dozens of spirits and demons all trying to get out of the gate but I couldn't let myself be deterred; I had to get out. I couldn't stay here. I punched a demon viscously on my right and she fell to the ground. I saw her drop a knife and I scrambled to grab it before anyone else could. I was going to need it.

I punched, stabbed and downright clawed my way through the others who were trying to get past me, face a stony set of determination. My arms were becoming more bloody from the knife and face cut from the attacks of the others. In my heart of hearts, I was sorry that I had to be this way. But if I spent one more day down here, I was going to break. And I couldn't let myself do that. I couldn't be what these monsters had allowed themselves to become.

I was nearly at the gate and I felt both desperation and hope rise in me knowing that I was so close, SO close, to freedom.

With a last push, I forced myself out of the gate.

I'm not quite sure what happened during the transition of pushing through the gate to falling onto the soft grass of the devils gate, but I didn't care. I laid there for a few seconds before curling my hot, blistered hands into the cool grass on the ground under me. It was the most beautiful and wonderful feeling I will ever experience.

I just absorbed the moment for a few seconds, hardly daring to believe that I was out. It could just be another sick illusion that the demons had painted for me. But as I pressed my face into the cool grass and curled my fingers into the dirt, I realised that it was all real. I shut my eyes and exhaled shakily, finally relaxing.

"Hey, you all right?"

I tensed suddenly and looked up sharply. I was staring up at a very tall man with longish brown hair. He looked a little wary and though it felt bizarre and odd, considering I'd barely said a coherent word for the longest time, I spoke, albeit hoarsely. "Yeah... I'm good." At his continued look I sighed, too tired to want to speak. "I'm not a demon."

Sam thought for a moment and really looked at me before he relaxed slightly. "I can tell." I raised a brow in confusion, albeit curious, and inquired. "How?" He shifted a little uncomfortably but said nothing.

Realising I wasn't going to get an answer out of him, I inhaled deeply, taking in the fresh air greedily and exhaled a little shakily. I realised that I was still holding the knife and I threw it to the side, rolling onto my back and putting a bloody forearm to my forehead and resting it there. I stared upwards, gazing at the stars, and revelled for the first time at how beautiful the night was.

"Hey, watch where you're throwing that knife sweetheart!"

I stilled at the voice, feeling panic rise in me despite the lighthearted tone it was spoken with. I knew that voice anywhere. 'No, no, no, no, no!' I screamed inwardly, feeling a cold sweat forming on my brow. 'He got out, why would he be anywhere near a devils gate?!' Feeling my body numb in shock, I slowly turned my head to face he voice. My breath caught in my throat, stopping me from screaming.

Dean Winchester.

Looking into his eyes, those agonisingly familiar dead eyes, I felt my heart thud harder in my chest. He seemed to notice my reaction and frowned, making to take a step forwards.

Before I could control myself, I let out a frightened half scream and scrambled backwards. I couldn't look away.

Dean and the other man stopped, casting each other looks of complete bewilderment. Dean looked back to me and looked at me searchingly. Suddenly he froze and paled, mouth opening slightly in shock. "No...No, no, no..."

The other man sent his brother a worried look and came over to me a little with his arms raised. "We're not going to hurt you," he spoke soothingly, but it didn't work in the slightest. I cast my scared eyes to his and he paused, face scrunching in a puzzled manner.

He looked back at the still frozen man. "Dean...who is she?" Dean seemed not to hear him and continued to stare at me in shock and... Fear?

"Dean!" Dean started and flashed a quick look at his brother. He licked his lips a little and swallowed heavily before speaking with difficulty, voice strained. "She was... In hell. With me." I felt my lip tremble a little. I couldn't even express in words how afraid I was right then.

Sam's eyes lifted a little in understanding. "So... You saw each other there?" I let out a short, unamused snort that ended up sounding more like a sob than a scoff. "You could say that." Sam narrowed his eyes and looked to his brother. Dean sent him a long look and then Sam's eyes widened in horror and understanding. "Oh... Fuck." Dean glanced at me before lowering his head in shame.

I slowly stood to my feet, physically shaking as I tried to fight the urge to run away, as far as I possibly could. They'd just follow me unless I justified myself and I really, really didn't want that. Just being in Deans presence made me feel like I was being crushed. "Well- uh-" I let out a small choked sound. "I kinda just- I kinda just clawed my way out of hell so if it's," I swallowed as I looked at Dean before looking away just as quickly, wringing my bloody and scarred hands together. "If it's all the same to you, I'll just be on my way." I turned quickly, intending to just run in any direction, when a voice stopped me.

"Wait! Please, just... Just hold on a second."

I had already turned away so I just faced the woodland area before me with trembling hands and a wobbling lip. I didn't want to face him. I couldn't; it was too soon. "What?" I whispered brokenly, lowering my head. "What do you want?" Dean didn't speak for several moments and just when I thought he wouldn't say anything, he spoke quietly.

"I'm sorry." His voice cracked a little. I felt my body still in surprise; that was the last thing I had expected his to say. But then, when I thought I should have felt anger, I felt nothing. Just a dead, empty feeling that consumed my heart and soul, leaving me numb.

I turned slowly, trying not to let the tears make my voice waver. I shook my head slowly, tears slipping down my cheeks. "Don't you say that," I spoke hoarsely, voice struggling to stay straight. "Don't you dare-" I stopped talking then, a small sob working it's way past my lips as an aching pain blossomed in my chest.

Agony. The realisation that hell wasn't going to just fade away overnight; I was out, but I knew that hell would never truly leave me. Things weren't going to be okay, not right away. Heck- I doubted that I was going to be alright EVER. But I would have to try. Or pretend; I could hide the broken soul, bury it so deeply that I'd barely feel it.

But not today. I wouldn't be strong enough to do that for a very, very long time.

I shut my eyes tightly, inhaling shakily as I composed myself. I opened them again and saw that Dean's eyes were shining uncharacteristically, his jaw tight as he reigned in his emotions. His fists were clenched tightly, white and shaking a little as he breathed to steady himself.

I tried to sound as calm as possible in response, the throb in my chest becoming stronger and rising to the surface. "I had to live through decades of torture," I spoke quietly. "Years of pain at YOUR hands. But you know what? That's okay, " Dean's head snapped up to me, eyes shocked. I couldn't hold his gaze though and I looked away, memories of darker times at the forefront of my mind. "I can't judge you for giving in, not when I wanted to so badly myself. And the things they did to you..."

My voice shook for the first time. I shook my head, swallowing. But my voice took on a more steely tone now. "But what I don't condone is the fact that you liked it." I shook my head slowly. "You enjoyed every single moment of it. And for that, I'm not prepared to accept your apology." Dean nodded, face tight in an attempt to keep himself together. I continued anyway, needing to get everything off my chest. I needed some form of closure from one of the only sources topside I would ever get.

"I know who you are and what you do and I know the type of person you are; what you did down in hell was not you. I understand that," I transferred my gaze to Sam even though I wasn't addressing him. "You're a good person really. And now that you're with your brother, I think you'll be the same person again."

I looked to Dean and forced a small smile, but the effect was lost through the tears that I poured down my cheeks. "Goodbye Dean. I hope," I let out a cracked laugh. "God, I pray, for both our sanities, that we never see each other again. I don't think I'd be able to take it and neither would you." I gave one last look to my tormentor and then nodded at Sam who clearly didn't know how to deal with the situation.

"What's your name?" He asked quietly, looking into my eyes. I had to look away, almost physically pained to see the innocence and clearness in his eyes; the clarity and belief in the world that neither myself or Dean possessed anymore.

I sniffed and had to swallow deeply before what I said was audible. "Maia Garland," I whispered, though it was almost deafening in the silence of the clearing.

I couldn't take anymore of this; the mere presence of Dean in the clearing was eating away at me, driving me insane. "Goodbye." I turned and started running in the opposite direction, crying more heavily now that I was away.

I didn't stop running. I tumbled over logs, scraped my arms on tree branches repeatedly and still I didn't stop running. I couldn't. I just wanted to put as much distance between me and the hell's gate and Dean as I possibly could. They say you can't run from your past.

Well fucking watch me.