Hey, guys. I'm back with a new story, yay! This is dedicated to Shiranai Atsune whose request triggered everything.
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Pain. Fear. Wish of revenge. She was feeling all these. And yet, what could she do now? What should she do now? Nothing. She wanted to run, she wanted to scream but she was too pained to do anything else excepting breathing and staring. Tears started to fall in rivers from her blue eyes, obscuring her vision. She sobbed and cried out in pain. She wanted to take his place, she wanted herself to be the dead one, not the man she had been in love with since their childhood.
And then... a blinding red light.
She wiped her tears away and looked at the source of light.
The light dimmed, revealing a red floating ring.
She was now freaked off. Her heart was pounding fast. She wanted to run but her legs would not allow her. It was as if something was keeping her in that spot.
"Aya of Vorga..." The ring spoke up. "...you have great rage in your heart. We know your pain. Join us and you will get your revenge on the ones who did this."
She slowly lifted her right hand, accepting her new fate, her new life. Rage swept through her, making her yell in pain. Her eyes glowled a bloody red as the energy of the Embodiment of Rage took its place within her. She let out a pained cry and knelt down. New clothing appeared on her as she panted, trying to get rid of the burning sensation from her throat. Her uniform was formed by a black tank top, red fingerless gloves, balck knee-lenght shorts and red battle-type boots, everything having red armor-like pieces over. Her hair was falling over her shoulders, its silver color contrasting with the dark hues of her new uniform. "Welcome to the Red Lantern Corps." The ring spoke again.
Panting, the young woman got up. She held her thobbing head in her hands, violently cursing her life. Her gaze wandered to the dead body of her fiancé, killed mercilessly by... she didn't know who had killed her lover, but she would find out and she would make them pay. She couldn't stand that, she couldn't stand to leave the love of her life like that. With a sigh, Aya started to make the preparations for the funeral.
She knelt down next to the lifeless body of her fiancé and sobbed quietly. She gently pressed her lips against his cold lips, kissing him for one last time before making a step forward in her life. Or... is it a step backward?
"Aya?!" Knocks at the door from her quarters. His voice. He was a Volkregian, and he had been raised on Oa due to his war-torn planet. He had been inspired by the Green Lanterns and his will to protect the others and to not let his emotions cloud his judgement alongside his hope for a better life had brought him a green ring. He was one of the first Green Lanterns. Since his childhood, he had been taught about the Green Lantern Corps, high-tech techonology and many, many other things. Due to his capacity of memory and techonological skills, he had helped the Guardians to contruct the fastest ship ever: the Interceptor, in which she was now.
Aya's eyes cracked open. She gritted her teeth in annoyance and slowly sat up. She hated it when she was not allowed to rest, especially after a mission that had taken a lot out of her, like the one they had finished not three hours ago. After the mission, she had gone straight into her quarters and had meant to get some rest. Neither he nor she needed as much rest as their two others crewmates but she still wanted to conserve her energy for battles.
"Aya!"
She grimaced. What does he want from me now?, she thought. He was just as insistent as ever. But she found his attempts at trying to make her open up more in front of him really nice. Yet there were times like this when she just wished to be left alone but he was not the one to back away from trying to make her cease and talk to him. And yet, now she was annoyed.
"Aya!" More knocks. He was impatient. Annoying.
"You are able to wait." She responded and sighed. She got up from her bed... with much reluctance. It was not a comforting bed but she had had worse than an uncomfortable bunk on her home planet. Heck, she had even slept on cold ground so having a bed is a bless. A real bliss. More memories from her life back on Vorga came floating in. She hated it when that happend, which was a big part of the time.
Aya typed the password and the door opened with a hiss. Her eyes locked with his. Blue eyes stared into blue eyes for one long second before she opened her mouth and sighed.
"Razer." She muttered and crossed her arms over her chest.
"Aya." Razer said. "Is everything alright?"
She huffed. "Why would it not be?" She replied with her usual sarcasm. He didn't like it. He liked her best when she smiled, which didn't happen too often but when it did happen, her smile would light up a whole room. "I am locked into a ship with three Green Lanterns males, fighting evil. It can't be better than this, can it?"
Razer sighed and shook his head. He knew how stubborn she could be, he had dealed with each one of her emotional states excepting the lovingly one. "I thought you had moved past this aspect."
Aya's brow furrowed. "I did not. Now, please, may I get my well deserved rest?"
He sighed again and looked down at the glowing red ring from her finger. It was pulsating madly, enraging her with every low glow. "I apologize for my intrusion in your sleep stasis but I thought it was necessary. I heard you scream and the sensors of the ship showed me a great increase in your vitals."
Her eyes widen slightly, but only for a split second. "I was having a nightmare." She confessed and he could swear he heard her voice shaking.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked and reached his right hand for her, meaning to touch her shoulder.
She growled at him and slapped his hand away. "I thought I made it clear for you that I do not wish physical contact with any of you, Green Lantern!" She hissed at him and revealed her razor-like fangs in a snarl.
Oh, she was right! How many times had she not tried to avoid them after even an accidental bump? But he intended to correct this. "You are right, Aya, but this does not mean that you have to be like this. I only want to help you."
He heard her scoff. She raised an eyebrow at him and let her hands fall on each of her sides. "Help? What can you do to help me?!"
"I do not know but I think I might me able to find a solution for your... problem, to call it so."
Her eyes became red and her body was engulfed in red flames. "I am fine! I do not have any problems!" She hissed and clenched her fists, trying to calm herself down. Her nails were digging in the soft skin of her palms, almost making her bleed. The warm sensation of the flames around her was as comforting as the burning feeling present in her throat, which was at least, to say, not pleasant at all. "I request you to leave!"
"I will never leave you!" He said decisively.
She felt the rage taking over, controlling her, and she tried desperately to stop it from happening. "Listen to me, Razer! You know all too well what I am capable of while enraged! Leave! Now!"
He frowned and kept his usual demeanor. "I said I will never leave you!" He decided stubbornly.
She usually found it endearing how much he was near her, trying to break down the walls surrounding her, protecting her and and standing out for her even when she herself could not. She appreciated his friendship, his will to become her closest friend, but there were also times when she was annoyed by his stubborn attitude.
She gritted her teeth and looked at him straight in the eyes. She was surprised to see so much confidence in his gaze. "Please..." She whined. She couldn't keep her calm any more as he shook his head as a 'no'. "Go away before I have the chance to hurt you!" She said, closing her eyes. But he refused to leave. She opened her eyes again and the burning sensation from her throat returned. She took a deep breath but it was futile. Nothing could calm her now. "Razer, you have to go away before I completly lose all the control that left!"
"I refuse to leave you, Aya!"
She growled in both pain and anger and shot him with a powerful blast from her ring. Her eyes closed as she shot but fear and concern coursed through her. She didn't want to hurt him.
Her eyes cracked open, her heart pounding fast in her ears. Fortunately, he had predicted her movement and had created a shield to protect himself. As she noticed the green shield, she felt her rage growing.
Razer slowly lowered the shield and made it disappear. "Do you feet better?"
She clenched her fists again and created a whip construct. He didn't seem taken aback by her action, after over an year of living with her he was used to her hot-temper. But he also felt hurt. "No! And do you know why?!" She cried out, tears falling freely on her cheeks.
The only response he managed was a nod of his head. "Tell me." He demanded and stepped closer to her, going into her quarters.
She growled and made a few steps backward. "Because of you! Because of how you are acting around me! Because of your attemots at making me open up in front of you! Because of everything you always do!" She howled.
His expression changed.
She didn't seem to notice that. "Why are you so interested in me and my life?! Why are you trying to get to know me better?! WHY?" She cried out heatedly, surprising both him and herself. She had never raised her voice at him before. "Why are you constantly here? I only desire to be alone, to mourn the loss of my life, to be by myself!"
Razer sighed. "You are never really alone. You have us." He made a short pause before continuing: "You have me."
She couldn't take it anymore. Her judgement was faulty, her mind and feelings controlled by her inner rage. "I have no one! Nor do I want to have! I hate you all, I am here just because Hal Jordan took me as a prisoners and I saved you so many times just because you saved me too from death! But I DO NOT CARE! DO YOU HEAR ME?! I DO NOT CARE ABOUT ANY OF YOU, GREEN LANTERN!"
He flinshed at her agressivity. His brow furrowed. He did hate her state. "Then may I ask inquire on why you did not leave, even though you had this chance several times in the past?"
More tears found their way out on her cheeks as he added fire to the burning fire that was eating her from inside out. The flames surrounding her grew. Her eyes were totally red. Rage was controlling her. "BECAUSE NEITHER OF YOU WOULD HAVE ALLOWED ME TO LEAVE IF I HAD TRIED! YOU ARE SO CAUGHT IN YOUR MISSIONS TO SAVE A UN-CARING UNIVERSE, THAN NONE OF YOU, GREEN LANTERNS, OBSERVES WHEN ONE OF YOUR MEMBERS IS IN PAIN OR HURT!" She roared at him.
"Aya, I..."
"CUT IT OFF!" She shouted. The walls were practically vibrating from her voice. "STOP IT! Stop trying to fool me, Razer." She said, her voice almost a whisper now.
"My attempts are not to fool you. I am just trying to be friendly towards you."
"WHY?" She howled. She lifted her right hand and whipped him across his left arm.
He hissed in pain. He was used to physical pain but what had hurt him the most was her courage to hit him. He locked his gaze with hers. She was glaring fiercy at him, fury obvious in her eyes.
"I DO NOT NEED YOU! I DO NOT NEED ANY OF YOU! ALL I NEED IS TO BE BY MYSELF!" She shouted.
Razer sighed. He knew when she didn't want him around. Even though he wanted to stay, he tried to gain his courage to leave. He was starting to turn around but her angered voice stopped him from making any movements:
"You are a coward! I always knew that in the end you were going to leave me too." She said in a whisper that made his heart skip a beat. "As I predicted, you do not care about me." She choked out, her voice shaking a little.
She had sounded so hurt. He hated it when she was pained. So he looked back at her. "Aya..." He started. But instead of the warm expression he was hoping to see, he saw a dark one. She was playing with him.
She whipped him again, this time twice as hard.
He growled at her and revealed his shard teeth in a snarl. He had had enough. His ring glowed as he created a sword construct. They charged at each other, ready to strike.
Strike first and strike fast, Aya thought. Do not allow your opponent to have the chance to take you down!
He was, however, faster than she was. He launched an attact in her direction, taking her by surprise. Fortunately for Aya, her uniform protected her from a cut in her arm. Unfortunately for Razer, attacking her only meant to make her angrier. Well, if that was even possible.
With an animal-like growl, Aya herself created a sword construct and charged towards Razer. He had been so surprised by the sound she had made that he almost didn't see her coming. Their swords met and made red and green sparkles in the dark-lit room. They both squinted and pulled back. Both of them were breathing heavily, small sweat drobs on their foreheads.
"I do not care about you?" Razer hissed. "At least I do not attack my own crewmates every time I am angry!"
She didn't answer. Instead, she chose to make the sword dissipate and shot a powerful beam of light in his direction. He created a shield construct and tried to protect himself but Aya's rage was at so high levels, that the shield cracked and sent him into the door. Shaking his head, Razer looked at her straight in the eye.
"You should choose your words wisely. You are here just because you wanted revenge. You wouldn't have been here, had Hal Jordan not started this mission."
Aya's nostrils flared.
"What I am trying to say is that you are the one who does not care about us or about our missions. You never did! All you want is still revenge, and it will ever be."
Her eyes started tearing up. "This is not the truth!"
He scoffed. He had never scoffed before. At least not in her presence. "Like I would ever believe that!" He said.
"You know what, maybe you are right! Maybe I do not care, and believe me when I say this, I do hate the fact that I have to stand you and everything you do!" She bit back. She blinked back her tears as she regained her lost composture.
He growled but said nothing.
She grinned, knowing she had hit a nerve. Yet she felt unsatisfied, hollow. Sad.
"Trust me, Aya, it's not like I do like you! I do not. Actually, you can say that I despise you and what you do." He snapped at her.
She felt a twinge in her chest cavity when he said that.
"You never attempt at being friendly, all you do is to mourn and lament, to be sarcastic with us and question everything!"
She remained quiet.
"I do not know why I am even attempting." He sighed and the next time he spoke it was said with determination: "You are a lost cause!"
Her heart was broken. "I AM NOT A LOST CAUSE! ARE YOU THIS BLIND? I HATE YOU, RAZER! I HATE ALL OF YOU! I ALWAYS HAVE AND I ALWAHS WILL!" She yelled.
He turned around and typed the password. The door opened with a hiss and he got out, leaving a stunned Aya behind.
As the door slid closed, Aya let out a pained cry and shot a powerful beam of energy into a wall. She was indded grateful that the walls from their personal quarters were soundproof.
Hurt filled her eyes and her brow furrowed. It did hurt her that Razer had acted that way with her. But, of course, that was something she wouldn't share with him. She knew that after all he will come back to her and apologize for the harsh words he had said. It was just a matter of time. Was it not?
And yet... he had seemed to be very serious, he had been more than mad, he had been indeed furious, in a way she had never seen him. Tears welled in her eyes as she considered the thought that he would never be himself near her.
This time, she didn't stop her tears from falling. It did hurt her what had happened but she didn't know how to react. It was as if everything was upside down. She wanted him to forgive her but her vanity wouldn't let her.
Yet her heart dictated her something else.
But she chose not to go to him.
She had already lost anything. Why would it matter if she lost him too... right?
Don't worry, there will be more.
I hope you like it.
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