A/N: Just popped into my head a couple nights ago and decided not to leave. The song is Empty Apartment by Yellowcard.
Disclaimer: I don't own it.
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Alex could not describe the way he felt. It was an absolutely horrible feeling. It was not at all the way he felt when he saw someone he loved die.
Call me out
You
stayed inside
Her name was Sabina. A lot of people wanted to call her Sabrina, but she always corrected them with a smile. There were a lot of things Alex liked about her. The way she laughed, how kind she was, how she would drink an energy drink and then fall asleep fifteen minutes later, how goddamned stubborn she was, how….how much he loved her.
Yeah, he said it. He freaking loved her.
One you love
Is
where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
They'd been together for god knows how long. At first it was friends, possibly something more, back when he was fourteen and she didn't seem to know anything about him. Then, the Damien Cray…thing happened. She knew about him. Contact lost for a while. Then, when he was fifteen they got back in touch. She moved back. Best friends forever, right?
That's what he thought, too.
I think
sometimes
You forget where the heart is
Then he was seventeen and she was eighteen. She left. Again. Almost a year without actually seeing each other because she was so stubborn about "staying in school to study, because I really don't want to get my grades down."
Bull. All of it.
Answer no to these
questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
He went to the same college as she did. They met up, and she was "so happy you're here I have so much to show you and so many people for you to meet! Oh, hey, Rusty!"
Rusty was her boyfriend of almost six months.
It's not me, you're
not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget
where the heart is
Rusty broke up with her a couple weeks later. Sabina stopped talking to Alex for a little bit.
He could guess
why. Take you away from that empty
apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if
ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
Eventually, she decided the friendship was worth more. They spent the summer together in Washington D.C., and it seemed to be the best summer of Alex's life.
One day after they were finished looking around at one of the art museums (neither of them could be bothered to remember which one…there was the National, International, Smithsonian, and several others. To confusing to keep track of), Sabina decided to explore the parts of Washington that weren't stops on the Tourmobile. Across the street was the International Spy Museum. They ignored that and went to the Postal Museum instead.
Waking up from this
nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all
what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And
how broken my heart is
A year passed. Sabina was a junior and had very high marks. Another year passed, and Sabina was graduating. Again. This time she didn't leave Alex behind.
Take you away from
that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
A year later, Alex graduated. He asked her out on a date. He made a list….of everything he loved about Sabina. And he was pretty sure she loved him, too.
It's okay to be
angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
Alex was taking her to a very nice Italian restaurant. The kind that expects you to sit down for a couple of hours and talk. Alex knew Sabina absolutely adored that kind of eatery, and he got ready in a frenzy, having one of the teenage girls that lived around him dress him up, because if he dressed himself "then this Sabina girl would have an eye attack or whatever it is."
When you get lonely
if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're
falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know
how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you
again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
God, he hurt. So bad. There he was at that Italian restaurant, all dressed up, with a list the list of reasons he loved Sabina so, so much in his hand. The hostess had handed him a note from "the girl who was in a very mad, err, what is this word? Frenzy? Yes. Mad frenzy to get in and out of here."
Take you away from
that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart
is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay
Alex's hands were shaking. He couldn't tell if it was rage or sadness.
It's okay
Alex, it read, I'm sorry. I can't do it. I love you, I really do, but we're just so different. You'll always be my best friend, you know that, right? You know so much about me that no one else would even bother finding out. I just…I love you Alex. But, see, I love him more.
It's okay
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Love it, hate it? I'm completely obsessive over the song lately.