Six Months Left

by Klaine on Broadway

Blaine develops a disease that allows him with six months with his memory and life. As his days begin to count down he decides to write letters to his friends and family expressing his final emotions.

1. Letter One Kurt

Kurt,

The doctors say what I have is like Alzheimer. They can't explain what's going on in my body. It's like a word nobody can say or a sock they can't find. All they know is I only have, at most, six months to live. I'm not scared of dying though, I'm scared of the effects this disease will have. Soon I will begin to forget simple things like how to put on a bow tie or even what my address is. It will only continue to get worse until I forget how to breathe. My doctor gave me pills for depression, but I threw them away. Pills will not fix anything. My doctor also recommended that I go to weekly counseling sessions, but I refuse to go.

I hate myself for knowing that one-day Kurt, one-day, I will forget you and everything that has happened with you. I'm scared of that, and I know you are too. I can hear you crying in the other room, and I know you're trying to silence your sobs so I can't hear. I don't like hearing you cry, and I wish I could go in there and hold you and tell you everything will be okay, but I don't know if I could bring myself to look at your tear-stained face. Kurt, I love you more than anything in this world and I need you to remember that. All I wanted to do was spend the rest of my life loving you. I will always love you. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I regret a lot of things. My biggest regret is cheating on you. I thought by sleeping with someone else would make me happier, from being so far away from you, but it only made me sadder. I was going to fly to New York and see you in two weeks but my stupid mind got the best of me. You are so much better than me, but for some reason you chose to take me back after it all happened. Why? Why did you take me back? I wasn't worth the heartache. Another regret of mine is not spending enough time with you. Kurt, you always have these events that you would invite me to, but I would say no for the dumbest reasons. Even when were in our apartment I could hear you watching Les Misérable I could have easily joined you and sang along to our favorite songs, but no I had to be the piece of shit that I am and ignore it. You deserve to be happy Kurt.

If I were brave I could tell you this person. I would tell you everything. From beginning to end. The whole story of how I feel, but it's not that easy, is it ever that easy?

- Blaine