'Bite My Tongue' – You Me At Six

Pokeshipping

I hate to break it to you but
You're just a lonely star
I try to bring you down but
A level isn't good enough

This was the first of a long line of arguments between the two of us. Misty had always been hot headed, egotistical, proud and stubborn. I was struggling to figure out how I'd survived all of these years. The girl drove me crazy and nowadays it seemed that all we ever did was scream in each other's faces. Now I'm no expert in relationships but I'm pretty sure that wasn't healthy.

"Just admit you're wrong and we can forget any of this ever happened." I swear the minute I said that I could feel the heat radiate from her! But I wasn't about back down, it wasn't often that this happened but today I knew it had and there was no way she was going to take this away from me- I was Mew-Damned right!

You always do as you please
So I'm going to follow suit

In the past anytime I was wrong she would torment me to no end until I had admitted that I was wrong. But not tonight. No, tonight she pays for all those years. On Ho-Oh's life I swear I was right!

And take a seat
And watch you fall apart

I looked as the tears began to fall, by now our faces were inches away from one another with her finger jabbing me in the chest. Nope the waterworks won't work; I will win even if it was only this once. The tears didn't seem to stop but my anger had taken hold and I was not going to lose, I was right, for Arceus's sake I was right!

'Cause in the end
What are you without me?

The girl that had always been so independent had changed over the past two years that we'd dated. She was more reliant, on me, my career. I guess it was just strange for me, it was all new. This 'new Misty' caused a lot of arguments between the two of us like right now. It seemed as though she really would be nothing without me.

I slow this down 'cause I know that you can't keep up

At the minute my brain wasn't even registering what I was saying, I was just allowing all the words to flow. She seemed confused but quickly jumped back to defend herself.

Oh maybe I, maybe I was wrong from the start

Maybe this was a mistake. I should just leave. It's not like it's worth staying here anymore. All we ever do is argue. The only thing I can't understand is why she's the only person that can make me angry me like this! Every single thing I seem to do is never good enough! Plus she never she never evens listens to me! I went upstairs and pulled out my suitcase.

I might be proud, but at least I'm proud of something
You've taken pride in becoming nothing

The past couple of years she had basically given up her dreams. As if they were nothing. I looked back at the girl I loved and realise I don't even recognise the woman that she's become. The anger within me grows and I start shouting more words at the stranger currently taking the clothes I put into my suitcase out.

You keep me on the edge of my seat

Right now she's pulling my arm away so that we can 'talk'. Yeah right, we both know what that means.. She cups my chin and tries to get me to look her in the eyes but I can't seem to do it. I can't even bring myself to look at my own girlfriend! Now I know that's not healthy. I start grabbing as many clothes as I can and stuffing them into my suitcase.

I bite my tongue so you don't hear me
I wanna hate every part of you with me
I can't hate the ones who made me

You keep me on the edge of my seat
I bite my tongue so you don't hear me
I wanna hate every part of you with me
I can't hate the ones who made me

I honestly do want to hate this girl behind me, trying to talk some sense into me. But I just can't. If it weren't for her I would not be the current Pokémon Master! She pushed me hard to reach my goal. She taught me about type advantage. She deflated my ego so that I never got too cocky and assumed that I could handle anything.

I'm married to the music
For better or for worse
You say that I'm privileged but
My gift is my curse

My dream only seems to have pushed us apart, making her more reliant on me. I can't handle the pressure she puts on me. It's as if I can only have one; my dream career or my dream girl. After all these years of hard work there's no way I'm just going to give it up.

I can't recall the last time
Someone asked me how I was
Last I checked I was a fucking wreck
I called for help and no one showed up
I sit in the dirt

You keep me on the edge of my seat
I bite my tongue so you don't hear me
I wanna hate every part of you with me
I can't hate the ones who made me

You keep me on the edge of my seat
I bite my tongue so you don't hear me
I wanna hate every part of you with me
I can't hate the ones who made me

I look at you and zip up my suitcase prepared to leave for good. I turn and she shuts the bedroom door in a last attempt to make me stay. I roll my eyes and walk over to the door, turning the door handle when I hear you shout. "It was Her who's done this. Why am I not good enough Ash?"

Just forget what you've learned
Just forget what you've heard
The truth just confirmed

I've told you over and over again to ignore what the newspapers said. They always did assume too much. I start to get angry and push the door open violently pushing you to the floor. I should be ashamed, I should be mad at myself for practically pushing you to the floor with my hands- but I'm not.

I can't bare the sight of you anymore.

I just look at you, crying on the floor, on your knees. I can't even look at you as I lug my suitcase down the stairs.

You've become what I hate
Sold yourself for a bit of fame
Now that the wolves have closed the door
You wanna drag me down some more
Fuck you
Fuck you

I can't keep pretending like this isn't affecting me. Just last week I had to cancel an interview because of her paranoia. She's bringing me down and I just can't let you do that too all my hard work.

You keep me on the edge of my seat
I bite my tongue so you don't hear me
I wanna hate every part of you with me
I can't hate the ones who made me

You keep me on the edge of my seat
I bite my tongue so you don't hear me
I wanna hate every part of you with me
I can't hate the ones who made me

You run downstairs and into the living room slamming the door in my face. I can't help but sneak one last look. She's curled up on the couch in a fetal position. Crying. My angers finally died down and I can feel my heart start to break at the sounds of her heart felt sobs. On the coffee table next to her is the magazine that sparked this week's argument, on the cover a picture of me hugging my old friend Iris, the headlines "Pokémon Master's New Sweetheart?" written bold. I looked back over to the redhead still crying her eyes out and my hand automatically dropped my bags.

So maybe she isn't just someone who made me. I love her. I honestly do! With all my heart. Sure our relationship wasn't perfect. And it damn well wasn't healthy but I couldn't help it, my feet walked in her direction and my arms cradled her petite body. In an attempt to comfort her I planted a kiss on her forehead and felt her shuffle so that she was crying into my shoulder. Eventually the tears died down and everything became silent. I lifted her head and noted that she'd fallen asleep. I sighed and picked her into my arms. It wasn't hard for me to carry her up the stairs and place her courteously onto our bed, she was so light. I lied down so that I was staring directly at her. My face smiled, was it awful that I preferred her like this? I chuckled and felt her stir in her sleep. My fingers pushed her hair from her beautiful face and I swear that I saw her smile.

I know I was right; there was no doubt in my mind. I know that she's the reason that I've gotten so far in my career. I know that sometimes I'll have to make some sacrifices in my career for her. But most of all I know that I love her and our relationship will work out. The truth is I would never leave her, it's impossible. No matter how many times I get to that door with my packed suitcase. I could never pass onto the borderline of freedom, because that's not what I want.

Pikachu jumped onto the bed finally finding it safe enough to come from his hiding place and I felt my life was complete. All I wanted was on this bed. "I'll never leave you Mist." And with that I fell into a carefree sleep.