My first attempt at writing something like this so I hope it's good! I have checked through for mistakes but there may still be some so I'm sorry. Any comments would be appreciated and I have the next few chapters ready to post if I have enough reviews. Thanks!

Somewhere after The Big Bang but before America, and im going to try to tie in the whole 'Amy is River's mum' scenario somewhere down the line but i had started this before that had been revealed and i love this pairing too much to not carry it on :)

AMYS POV

Amy woke, unable to yet open her eyes, with a feeling of intense pain echoing throughout her body. She felt like she would have screamed from the feeling if it wasn't for the pure lack of any strength and the strong arm positioned around her body holding her upright. The arm was unfamiliar to her, yet it was both protective and so comforting that she felt no need to pull against it. This decision was also encouraged by the thought that if she did she would probably collapse to the floor from the weight of her own body. Then she started to hear murmurs from nearby slowly coming into focus, the soft hum of the Tardis' engine, the voice of the magical man she had dreamt of throughout her whole childhood. However what she heard coming from this brilliant mans mouth was not at all what she was expecting and she tried extremely hard to fight against the pull to fall back unconscious as to try to make sense of what was being said.

"I know how you feel about her" The doctor said, almost in the way of a lullaby which threatened to send her back to sleep. Just then she felt a hand caressing her head, the fingers entwined through the hair, in such a loving way that she would have thought it was Rory if she didn't remember that they had dropped him off home roughly a week ago to look after his mother, who had suddenly fell very ill. When Amy had come back round to thinking about what the doctor had said, silence was still hanging over the Tardis. It was very clear from the way that he had commented that he hoped that the other person would at least respond however this is not what happened, so obviously he felt the need to push the issue further as he always did.

"She's very happy now you know? She has Rory, she's married, I've even heard them talking sometimes about having-" And the Doctor was cut off very suddenly by a voice that Amy could never forget, yet another one that she had dreamt of before but in a very different way to that of the Doctor. However this time the voice wasn't teasing and cheeky like usual, it was strained and filled with what seemed to Amy like the same amount of pain that she was feeling throughout her body at that time.

"OKAY! You can stop now doctor" River snapped and Amy felt the body beneath her tense up and go rigid yet after a few seconds it released again and River sighed. "I know she's happy, that is all I have ever wanted for her, I have told you that a million times. What else do you want me to say, doctor?" Amy felt eyes looking down upon her.

"When I was in the Pandorica, I got to see parts of Amy's life, I assume it was all that time energy pouring into her head throughout the whole of her childhood, it can do terrible things. However I saw a bit further than I should have done, well than is right I suppose. I saw part of her future, and what, well I guess it was your past, after Amy lost Rory. I saw what you two shared, the way you looked at her, the way your world revolved around her." His voice faded away although he didn't need to say anymore although after a minute he continued in hushed tones which Amy had to strain to hear. "And I see how you still look at her. How you hurt when you see her and Rory together but you have to remember that she has him back now and that past is gone".

"What are you trying to say then doctor? That I should stop caring about her, forget all of that time that we were together and how much we did? That I should stop spending time with her? What do you want from me?" River was almost shouting by now and her usual composure had gone away immediately, which Amy admitted to herself, scared her a little. Amy knew enough about River to know that when she cares about something a lot she throws herself into it, and this was certainly one of those times.

"I didn't mean to…" The Doctor trailed off. "I just hate to see you hurt and I want you to be able to move on. You have to remember that she doesn't really know you yet; you are just another person to her and that she is with Rory now and she loves him-"

"So I can't love her then, is that what you are saying?" But as soon as she had said it, Amy knew that she regretted letting her guard down that much, something she hardly ever did, as her body suddenly went rigid. Amy felt her heart rate suddenly increase from this revelation and her breath catch in her throat which she was sure that River could most probably feel through the hold she had on her body. However River continued, stopping the doctor before he could say anything to help her.

"Now then, being as she has nearly died today because YOU weren't looking after her and is showing no signs of regaining consciousness any time soon then I'm going to go an lie her on her bed so she can be comfortable and try to recover. Is that okay with you or would you prefer to do it being as I am 'no one' to her anymore?" Amy could hear the tears that she was forcing back coming through in her voice and she felt nothing but guilt for not seeing any of this sooner. Sure she had noticed odd glances but she had but that down to River being her usual flirty self which she was with everyone. At that moment, River lifted Amy up into her deceivingly strong arms and felt the warmth of her body press closer to her, making Amy able to feel the quiet whimpers coming from River as she turned away from the Doctor. She cursed him in her mind for making River feel that way, she hated hearing her upset and he really didn't need to push her as far as he did, he just doesn't know when to stop sometimes. But then the thought suddenly came back to her, River loved her, or still does, however whichever way it was, she feared she would not be able to look at in the same light anymore, yet no sooner was she thinking of this, she was slipping back into unconsciousness again.

RIVERS POV

As River gathered Amy up into her arms swiftly, needing to get away from the Doctor and that conversation as quickly as possible. She felt heat rush to her cheeks making her feel glad that she had turned when she did so the doctor wouldn't be able to see the embarrassment at her admission. Once she had walked out of the main control room she slowed her pace from her previous haste at trying to escape the gaze of the Doctor, and then she felt the warmth of the redhead in her arms pressing against her body. She used all of her will not to look down into the beautiful face that she knew she would find there because although it broke her heart, she knew what the doctor was trying to say was true. Amy wasn't hers anymore, well she never really was, and she was happy now and isn't that what you always want for the person that you…. No she couldn't face that again, never again, she had to let her go because that was the right thing to do.

She walked for what seemed like ages, lost in her own thoughts, fighting against what she wanted with what was right, and although all of the corridors of the Tardis looked the same River knew the exact route to Amy's room from the many times she had visited there in this life and especially the last. Then she finally reached it, the bright blue door, which was because both she and the Tardis knew that this was her favourite colour, with her name carved alongside Rory's in the middle. Rivers heart dropped right out of her chest at the sight of this, suddenly bringing her back into reality once again, but determined to enjoy these moments with her past love, she pushed straight through the door into the room beyond it.

Right in the middle of the room was the large double bed, something River remembered but quickly tried to push out of her mind, and she walked straight to the side of it, laying Amy down from her arms and onto the covers. For the first time since she was in the console room, she looked at the face in front of her and she swear she heard her heart break just at little bit more while looking at the pure beauty of the person who used to be everything in her life and what she would have to leave behind. River laid her out with the utmost care not to leave her uncomfortable and then she reached over to the chair in the corner of the room and grabbed the purple blanket which sat there unused. This had been a gift from her to Amy last time she had seen her, from the planet she had visited with them, and when Amy asked why she tried to say that it was a colour of joy for the people of the planet. River had always been a good liar, even when she really did not want to be or when her emotions betrayed her, which when it came to her situation with Amy, she needed to be.

She walked back over to where Amy lay on the bed, looking peaceful and goddess-like, and laid the blanket of her favourite colour over her to keep her warm while she rested, at which point the redhead stirred slightly and put her grasp around it, clenching her hand. River smiled, a real smile for the first time in ages before it was swiftly lost as she bent over and kissed Amy on the forehead, hovering there for slightly longer than normal and as she pulled back she could feel the tears building in her eyes. She fought them back, River Song does not cry, and she wiped her eyes clear.

"Goodbye my love" she managed to whisper and then in an instant she had turned and was leaving through the door for the last time.