Nothing ever turns out as planned

RPOV

He broke my heart, my Russian god.

He will always love me, but could I fully trust him, drunken moroi.

He will always be there, but never love me, flame boy.

But what I want to know is why I fell so hard?

I knew I loved him, but then again, all of them were taken, flame boy with Lissa, Adrian with some moroi girl, and my Russian god with Tasha.

Why couldn't they just love me? I can get anyone but them, even though they all think I don't love them, but I do, a lot.

But who do I love the most? Who is my soul mate, do I have more then one, and why did I meet them all at one time?

Who do I love, and why do I love them so much?

Why did I fall so hard?

CPOV

I knew I did love her, but the question did she love me back? I knew Belikov broke her heart leaving to be with Tasha, and that was a stupid mistake, what about Ivashkov? He didn't leave, but that was the thing, he loved her, a lot but right now he is with some moroi girl, or is he? I heard her crying hen I walked past his door last night, maybe they broke up, and then that would mean he is after Rose.

I had to end it with Lissa, I just didn't love her, but I also knew getting the girl I wanted wouldn't be easy.

I picked up the phone and asked Lissa to come over here; she opened the door and stepped in, a huge smile plastered on her face.

"Yes Christian?" She came over and kissed me hard, but I didn't kiss her back.

She pulled back, a look of hurt on her face, "What's wrong?"

"Lissa I just think that…um…we should see other…um…people." I kept my head down, not making eye contact.

"Wait your breaking up with me?"

"Yeah, sorry Liss,"

Tears came to her eyes, and she buried her face into her hands and started to cry, running out of the room.

"Rose, you're going to kill me." I muttered into my pillow.

LPOV

I left the room crying, but just before I was out the door I heard Christian mumble something.

"Rose, you're going to kill me." He muttered into his pillow.

He was leaving me for my best friend? I'm sure that she wouldn't go out with him unless with my permission, and I wont give it too her! But if he did make her happy, maybe I would give her my permission, Rose rarely had time to be happy, she was always worrying about me, and when Dimitri left, she just fell apart.

APOV

That was it; I had ended it with Kayla. I just couldn't be with someone that I didn't love, I loved Rose, and I would have her or nothing. And that was where the problem started, because I knew that Christian loved her too, so I would most likely end up with nothing.

I heard a knock at my door, please let it be Rose, I opened it to only be disappointed, well sort of, Lissa stood there, crying.

"Lissa what's wrong?" I let her inside and she looked up at me, her tear stained face consuming my view, but my thoughts were still on Rose.

"Christian, he…he…dumped me!" She threw herself in my arms, tears flowing even more freely.

"Lissa, Lissa, calm down." I made her look me in the eyes, and that was when that happened, something I never wanted to happen, well at least with Lissa.

She kissed me, hard, I got pushed back against the wall, and tried to get her off me, but she was too strong, how could that be?

"Adrian," Someone whispered, I knew it wasn't Lissa, but it was no other then the angel that completed me, Rose.

I pushed Lissa off me and she fell to the ground, and started to cry even harder this time, I looked at Rose, a hurt expression on her face.

"Rose,"

"You used my full name,"

I smiled a small smile, afraid she wouldn't be amused.

She returned the smile, but a smaller sadder one, and her eyes still showed hurt, a single tear fell down her cheek.

I walked over to her; she wouldn't even step into my apartment, just stood there.

"Rose, I didn't kiss her, she kissed me, I swear." I pulled Rose into a hug, and she hugged me back. I kissed the top of her head and gently stroked her hair. "I love you Rose,"

"Adrian I-

"What is going on?" I heard a whisper at the door; I turned to see a very sad Christian and a very pissed Dimitri.

Rose brook away from me after she saw them, or was it just him, just the one who broke her heart, and said that he didn't love her anymore?

Dimitri glanced at Rose, as if to say he was sorry, and that he knew that he should never be forgiven to what he did for her, and for once I agreed with him, he shouldn't be forgiven, he she of never even come back here just to hurt Rose more than she already is.

DPOV

There she was, my Roza, then one who I was stupid enough to leave her, hurt and crying.

~flash back~

"Roza, I'm leaving."

Her eyes filled with hurt, but I knew she wouldn't cry, but in the end I also knew she would end up crying, shedding tears because of me, something I swore I would never do to her.

"How long will you be gone?" Why did she have to make this harder then it already was?

"Forever Roza, I'm going to be Tasha's guardian,"

"No," She shook her backing away from me, eventually falling onto her bed.

"Roza, I'm so sorry,"

"Sorry for what? For making love with me and then leaving the next day? For running off with Tasha and then never coming back?" Tears ran down her face.

Everything, everything I have ever done and will do to you, for all the pain this is causing you, for everything. That was what I wanted to say, but I couldn't, I knew I couldn't, I was doing this for her, so she could move on, so she could be Lissa's guardian without distractions, so she could have a better life, without me.

"I don't love you anymore Roza," This was a lie, this was a huge lie, how could I go through with this? I did love her, more than imaginable, it hurt to be away for her for even a second, I couldn't do this, but I kept my guardian mask on.

"No, you're lying!"

I am, "No I'm not,"

"Please, I'm sorry for whatever I did, I'm sorry; I'm so sorry, don't leave me, please." She begged, she was on the floor crying, it took all that I had left to not to hold her and tell her it was all a big lie, and that I was that I was the one sorry, the one who should be sorry.

I bent down, I breathed in her scent, and "I'm sorry Roza,"

"No, I'm not your Roza anymore, I'm am Rose, and still then it is if-y. I'm Rosemarie, Rosemarie Hathaway."

I knew she most likely hated me now, I would hate my self, I do hate myself for doing this to her.

"Fine, but one thing, promise me that you will be careful, and move on."

She looked up at me; she believed that I really didn't love her, that I didn't want her anymore.

"I promise, and you can promise me one thing in return."

"I promise that you will never see me again, so you will never have to relieve this memory."

I kissed her forehead, making sure she didn't see my face, I took down my mask for a second, and a single tear dropped down my cheek, landing onto her head, into her soft hair. I breathed in her heavenly scent one last time, the last I would ever smell her, fell her, and see her.

I got up and walked to the gates. When I was about ¾ the way there, I knew she was running behind me. I slowly got in the car, and looked out the window, Rose slamming into the gate as it closed.

"I love you Rose," I whispered, even though I knew she couldn't hear me. More tears flowed down her cheeks, like she didn't believe it before, and someone would soon come out and scream got-cha! But life wasn't made that way, life rarely had a happy ending, and even when it did, it always ended badly somehow, like one of then dying young or something.

She shook the gates and soon gave up and dropped down, her back towards me, I could even hear her sobs from inside the car. Soon enough as I was driving away, Adrian came over and just held her, like I should be doing.

Why am I doing this Rose? Why do I love you so much?

~end of flash back~

Rose looked at me, all of the anger left me, it was her, it was my Roza.

I ran over and held her, no words being said, she hug me back, she just stood there, id dint blame her if she hated me, I would too.

"Dimitri," She whispered.

"I'm here Rose, I'm right here."

She pushed me away, she never has done that before, but she just did it.

RPOV

I pushed him away, taking only half of my will power to do it, he doesn't have all my heart anymore, and he has to share it with Christian and Adrian.

I felt arms wrap around me, I knew it wasn't Adrian because he was looking at the person with hatred, and so was Dimitri.

"Rose, its okay, come with me," I didn't move, I couldn't, it was all too much. "Have it that way Rose," He picked me up and carried me to his room, Christian carried me to his room.

He put me down on his bed, and I took in on what just happened, Dimitri was back, I couldn't help it now, I let the tears flow freely and Christian wrapped his warm arms around me, just holding me until I fell asleep.

CPOV

She fell asleep, I can't believe he had the nerve to even come back here, hurting Rose even more then she was already hurt. I remembered how it hurt us all too see her hurt when he left her, how she came crying into Lissa's room, the day I truly realized that I loved her, that I loved Rose.

~flash back~

The door opened and Rose came running into the room crying. Lissa immediately hugged Rose.

"What's wrong?"

"He…He…left me," She sobbed, he left her, as in Dimitri left her, her left her, he broke her heart. And it hurt her, but for some reason it hurt me too, but how, yes I cared for Rose, but like a sister, but now I loved her in a different way, a girl friend/boy friend kind of way.

Did I love her, I guess I did, I did, I didn't love Lissa anymore, and I love Rose.

~end of flash back~

I held her, she looked so peaceful sleeping. "I love you Rose, and I would never hurt you like he did, I promise. Please give me a chance."

I sat there the rest of the night, just holding her, until I fell to sleep.

So they all love her, what do you guys think? Should I continue?

~Naomi~