This is my very first fan fiction. No, i am most definitely NOT using this as an excuse. It is awful because i am an awful writer! Please enjoy.
REALIZATION.
Brendan used to have so much control over Steven. Steven would do anything Brendan wants if Brendan gave the word. But not anymore. Now Brendan is on his own. Left to his own thoughts. Silence overpowering him, his heart breaking. He is lying in his own bed, Steven's scent lingering where he used to lie. Now Brendan sleeps alone, and he hates it.
Brendan used to watch the fear in Steven's eyes, and wonder why it was there. He never meant to intentionally hurt Steven. Steven just needed to learn to shut up sometimes. He let his mouth run away with him, and then Brendan has to shut him up.
But now Steven has gone, and Brendan knows there is something missing from him. He can't explain it. It is as if someone has torn away something from the left side of his chest. But Brendan tried to ignore it. He refuses to admit that Steven means everything to him. He refuses to admit that Steven is as important to him as his right arm. Just like he refuses to admit that Steven is a mirror image of Brendan when he was younger.
Things were better now, aren't they? Steven is better off with Noah or somebody who will treat him right. And Brendan is better off alone. Because Brendan aced like he was the king when with Steven. Which is partly true, because to Brendan, Steven is his world. But who would ever want to be king, when your world hates you? When your world knows that while Brendan is in charge there will never be an honest word.
But all that was when Brendan ruled the world. Now he doesn't, because Steven left him. So now Brendan knows he needs to be honest, to be truthful. To let Steven know he loves him. And then to leave Steven. Because that is what's best for Steven, whether or not he see that.
Yes! You guessed it! This is indeed a song-fic. This is very heavily based on a certain song. Can anyone guess what that it? Please leave a comment. All welcome. Criticism wanted, but a few compliments would be nice too! Thank you!