Chapter 1 The Bad Girl.
I've always been a bad girl. And no, its not because i come from a bad home, not because my parents are controlling. I'm a bad girl because i want to be. Or, at least i thought i did until i met him. When i not around him i'm the bad girl I've always been. But when i'm with him, I'm a shy, and nervous school girl. I don't know myself when i'm around him, but i don't care. Though there's one problem: I have a crush on him, and i can't manage two words when i'm around him. If i was my normal bad girl self around him, i'd do more than confess my attraction. I'd kiss him against a wall. I'd crush myself to him in every way humanly possibly. But instead, i'm tongue tied. When i see him, my pulse quickens, when i sense him, i get goose bumps on my arms, when i see his face, i want to kiss him. But in the state he has me in, i won't even be able to have a conversation with him. And the worse part is, i don't know if he feels the same. It drives me crazy constantly. Sometimes i think i have a good a chance as any other girl in the school of winning his heart, other times i think i don't have a snowball chance in hell.
But we're hardly friends, much less a couple. He could have anyone. Why would he choose me? Why should i stand out over the millions of girls in school. Why should he even give me the time of day? These are the thoughts that constantly go through my head from the time i wake up, until the time i go to sleep. I never imagined I'd feel this way about anyone. I see boys as a way of fun. But i see him as the reason for living. I would give anything just to be able to have a conversation with him where i didn't sound like i was choking. So yeah, this is my life.