I'll Just Say Goodnight

I love Royai… The only thing is… I suck at happily ever afters…

Music : "Say Goodnight" by The Click Five

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I'll Just Say Goodnight

-Riza Hawkeye-

It's been 10 months since Mustang sat on the Fuhrer's desk. He's running this country so smoothly and he's also lifted the Fraternization Law. However, his Miniskirt Law wasn't successful.

The Ishballans had their place in the country, everyone is at peace and we're all working under him.

Fullmetal has gone home to Resembool with his now-human brother and is to be wed to Winry.

Havoc's finally married, Fuery's dating Sciezka, Falman's a dad, and Breda is in a relationship.

Me, I'm still with Black Hayate. The Fuhrer and I have been closer since he ruled but I'm afraid it's just too much.

I find no more relevance to my existence in the Military. My goal has been fulfilled. I was to push him to the top, and here he is now. The peaceful months are proof enough that he can handle all these by himself. He needs me no more. He's happy with the girl he married, the lady, who's lucky enough to hold Fuhrer Mustang in her arms, lucky enough to bear his child, to be his one and only love.

All of those years we've spent together… It meant something to me. It meant something very important, something that kept me going through those years of helping him out. Unfortunately, it was something I over read.

He was worried about me, he held me in his arms when I was injured, he said some pretty funny and romantic things without realizing it, he cared about me. I couldn't tell him I loved him then coz' it was against the rules.

I hate thinking like a woman, I got hurt coz' I thought those were signs that he loved me back. Yeah, he did, as a friend.

The day I find out he was getting married, I shattered into pieces but his smile, his voice, his presence, his happiness prevented me from running away.

On the wedding day, I wanted to object but the sparkle in his eye forced me to behave like the soldier I am.

Working for more than a decade with him, falling in love with him ever since we met, and watching him every single day is killing me slowly. So I decided, it's time to end all this and live again.

I'm 32 and I can handle myself well… It's time to walk away from something I can never have.

So today, I enter the Fuhrer's office only to see Roy Mustang sleeping on the couch in his office.

His right arm covering his eyes, his left dangling on the edge of the couch, fingers slightly touching the floor, his feet rested on the arm of the chair. He looked so peaceful.

I left my resignation letter on his table and approached him. It was the last time I'm ever gonna allow myself to come this close to him. I smelled his scent, sweet scent of Roy.

The scent I'll never smell again. He groaned, removed his arm from his face, fluttered his eyes open.

"Hey Hawkeye…" he yawned.

I smiled at him. Goodbye isn't really something I could tell him that moment without bursting into tears.

I closed my eyes holding those tears back, still held that smile in place. I swallowed hard and hid my voice that's about to crack.

"Just wanted to say… goodnight…" I uttered.

"Yeah, it's already 9pm… I gotta get going too…" he stood up and picked up his jacket from the edge of the couch and stretched out.

"I'll go ahead…" I managed to say.

"Let me come with you…" he told me as he yawned one last time. He stood right behind me and followed me out.

Once we were going to separate he smiled at me and said "Goodnight General!"

I turned back, forced a smile and immediately looked away when I felt my eyes sting.

I walked back home, greeted by Black Hayate.

I sat on the couch with my dog on my lap as tears silently flowed.

"What do you say Black Hayate? Dublith, Drachma, Xing, Resembool, Aquroya? As long as it's far far far away from this place…" I asked my dog , wiping my tears.

He looked at me as if he understood how I felt, he licked my face and I sobbed.

I hugged him and said goodnight.

A week later, we traveled to my hometown and that's where my journey to find who I am began.

The title barely had anything to do with the fic but it's cute… R&R please!!!!