Always Outside Looking In
Deus Ex Procella
Summary: This scene is from the POV of Momoko a few years into the girls high school life. Miyako and Kaoru have gotten together and this is Momoko's reaction after coming to grips with her friends' relationship. Kaomiya pairing.
Every day I walk to school, alone but never by myself.
They're always with me, always by my side. Despite everything we've been through they've never abandoned me. My two best friends, my two only friends in the world. The only people who've ever believed in me, ever put their faith in me. The only two people I still believe in, the only people I can put my faith in. They have always been there for me, my companions and allies when we've faced the worst enemies the world has ever known. I love them. They mean the world to me, more—I know—than I could ever mean to them.
She was the first real friend I ever made. She's the perfect version of the feminine aspect that has ever been, and probably the greatest example of God's tenderness that there ever will be. Boys flock to her, crawling and scraping to hold her hand. Girls admire her for her fashion sense and the gentleness she exudes. She's the picture of popularity and yet somehow manages to avoid falling into the trap of popularity. Somehow, some way she's still my friend. We learned to fly together and we learned to laugh together. I love her more than my own sister.
When we met, we fought to prove who was better. From the beginning I'd never had a hope of winning. She's a mystery…the ideal boy wrapped in the body of a girl. She never had a lack of girls willing to court her even knowing that she wasn't of the opposite gender. She's strong and athletic never failing to make us proud of her. Boys envy her talent and admire her fierce spirit, the very things that bring girls to her like sheep to a shepherd. I owe her my life and can never thank her enough for her friendship.
Now they're together, and now they represent everything love was ever meant to be. After all the heartache and false loves I've known in my life, they inspired in me again the strength to believe in true love. When I see them together, I can only smile and stare, knowing how rude it must seem. They never say anything, but I can see in their eyes. They've never been happier. No one else knows, and I wasn't meant to. It's clear as day, though, in the soft touches and gentle smiles, that they don't need me in their world anymore.
So every morning I walk to school, alone but never by myself. I see them and smile, knowing that my destiny is to always be outside, looking in to their perfect world.