Serenity

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh or Godsmack's song "Serenity." (And don't flame me if I got the lyrics wrong, ok?)

WARNING: Big heapin' spoilers alert!

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What have I done?! Yugi's soul is gone, and it's all my fault!

As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
and feel the wind pass through my body
I'm the one in your soul
reflecting the light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child

"Pharaoh, I know you're still pretty broken up about Yugi . . . but you can't go on like this forever!"

Tea's words mean nothing to me . . . me, the pharaoh who could have caused the destruction of Egypt 5,000 years ago!

It's serenity
in a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Why?! Why in God's name did I use that evil card!? Yugi knew it was evil, he tried to warn me . . . but . . . I was to full of myself to pay attention . . . and Yugi paid for my mistake with his soul!

Yugi . . . you brave little fool . . . why did you sacrifice your own soul for mine, after all I've done? I'm nothing but a monster . . . an evil being that puts my own needs in front of others . . .

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when its cold
Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

I turn to face a mirror, and turn away again. After that horrible duel, I suddenly can't bear to see my face in a mirror. Why can't I look? Am I afraid of what I'll see? A hideous monster with cold violet eyes set into an emotionless face?

I pull out my deck, and then let the cards slip out of my hand and onto the floor. I don't deserve my . . . no . . . Yugi's . . . grandfather's deck. The monsters are no longer my friends.

Once upon a time they were innocent beings with pure souls, but now my greed and ambition corrupted them into horrible, malevolent creatures.

Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you

I have no choice. I must run far, far away, to where no one will ever find me. That way, I won't hurt anyone anymore. As I head towards the door, Rebecca stops me.

No matter wrong or right
and every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child

"Yugi? Where are you going?"

I fight back the urge to cry. She still believes I'm Yugi . . . ah, the innocence of youth . . .

"I'm going away," I tell her and the others. "And I'm never coming back."

"What!? Why?!"

"Yugi's gone because of me, and if I stay here, someone else may get hurt."

"But Pharaoh . . ." I raise my hand to silence Joey's protest.

It's serenity
in a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

"I'm leaving, and that's all there is to it." I say, as I head towards the door again.

Suddenly, Joey grabs me by the shoulder, and slams me against the wall.

"Now listen here, dammnit! Yugi wouldn't like to see you beat yourself up over him, so get over yourself, and start acting like normal person!"

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when its cold
Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

My eyes widen at the forcefulness in his voice, but I pull his hand away and say, "That's just it. I'm not a normal person. I'm just the soul of an ancient Egyptian pharaoh with a guilty conscience."

As I head out the door, I see Tristan starting to get up, but Duke puts a hand on his shoulder, saying,

"Let him go, he just needs a little time to himself."

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when its cold
Why do we dream when I thought mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

Outside, I walk over to the edge of the trailer and lean against its cold metal side.

I stand there, watching the sky as it changes from a gentle blue to a fierce mix of yellow, red, orange, and purple. Yugi loved watching sunsets . . . I just wish he was here with me now . . . but he's not . . . and I'm the one to blame . . .

I need serenity

I need serenity

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So . . . how was that? A little messed up, I know, but I really wanted to do an angsty fic from Yami's POV during these recent events.

So please read and review, and if I get any flames/negative reviews, I'll just forward them to Dartz and his evil cronies.

(Smirks evilly)