Chapter One: Being A Sister To My Crush.
I smiled softly as I waved goodbye towards Natsu, watching as he happily glided and swiftly dodged the large amount of people coming his way, blocking his path, blocking his destination, his objective, his current and everlasting light.
The pain of watching him kiss and enjoy his life with his currently new girlfriend was painful, the girl who was his childhood crush, his dream girl, his everything, the pain of watching it all was hidden behind the smile of a girl who loved him with all her heart, and even after years of trying to forget these feelings had failed. It was hidden behind the smile of a girl who would forever be thought of as his sister.
No matter how hard I had tried, I would end up falling yet again and again, I would fall for his kindness, his playful yet caring nature, and I would simply tell myself that it was okay, that someday, maybe not now, but someday, he would see me as someone who was 'girlfriend' material, I would tell myself that he wouldn't hurt me, he would take my feelings in to account, that he was trust worthy, that he actually Loved me to some extent, that he loved me to a stage that 'I was more than a friend', and in some sort of sick way, I was important to him, I was more than just a friend.
No, I am more than just a friend, he said it himself, he told me he loved me, he told me he cherished me, and no one could replace me, he told me that he had a soft spot for me and only me, a spot in his heart that nobody could replace.
A spot where only his sister could take.
The tears I had shed that day, the pain, the emptiness I felt, the small amount of hope that I had left was crushed by the one person who I looked up to, everything that I held dear to me just simply disappeared, my image of this world was destroyed. The world that I loved, the glorious world that I held dear to me contained colourful rainbows, butterflies and a charming prince that would bring a bright smile to my pale face, everything had colour, everything had life, and there wasn't anything that could bring me down.
The world that I have now, this pathetic world holds only a charming prince with a girlfriend, small disgusting insects, rainbows that hold no colours, nothing but black and white stands before me, when I wake till I sleep it's the same.
Everything changed from a bright world where I would smile because I wanted to, and now, I smile not because I want to, but because I don't want to trouble him.
I thought seeing the world I loved being destroyed would change my feelings, I thought it would teach me to keep my mouth shut, it would teach me not to fall like an idiot.
I was wrong, it hadn't taught me anything, my world fell apart, but my feelings stayed the same, nothing has changed.
My world fell apart, losing its colours, and as my world fell, his only grew, gaining more admirable and pleasant colours, leaving me to darkness.