"Every one say's we can't be together Seifer. That It just won't work, and with our history who's to say there not right?" His words were hollow, and barely above a whisper. He said them, but didn't mean them. I knew exactly how he felt. Everyone made it so fucking hard for us, as if it wasn't hard enough. Even my best friends, the one's who had been with me didn't understand it.
"Who cares what they say, were different now then we were then." I pleaded with him, something I never did. It was just so demeaning. To think that now I would show weakness to him. But it's only to him, it was always to him. He's... different. He looked up at me, my eyes locking with his chocolate orbs.
"Run away with me..?" The words were out before I could stop them. I knew he would never agree to it.
"Seifer I-I..." He looked back down again. My heart fell even farther down into my chest. I'm not sure how much longer I can deal with this. I want to be his everything, want him to rely solely on me. I could give him everything he needs and more, why can't people see that?
"Do you really need them? You don't need those lamers, chickenwuss." I don't know why I was trying to reason with him. It did nothing but hurt us both even more.
"Seifer you know I can't- I just..." He tried to explain something he really didn't need to. I understood perfectly. Even those his friends didn't except me, they still excepted Hayner. He couldn't just leave them, and in all honesty I just couldn't up and leave Rai and Fuu either. My head fell and I just stared at the ground.
"I-I gotta go..." He said in that whispery tone he uses just before he cries. Something that maybe only I and Roxas pick up on. I couldn't believe that he might just walk away from me. I just fucking opened my self up like that and he was just going to walk away. I'm never that open, that vulnerable, but I couldn't be mad at him. I know that he's feeling just as shaken up as I am about this.
"Stay with me. Just stay with me even if only tonight." I caught up to him and hugged him from behind. "I promise that everything will be okay, just don't walk away." I kissed his neck gently and saw a tear run down his cheek.
"It's just so damn hard, even my best friend just doesn't get it!" He was trying to keep the tears at bay, his throat tight as he held on tightly to me.
"I know..." A bitter laugh escaped my lips as I turned him around in my arms.
"And I want you to know that, no matter what anyone else says, that I just want to be with you. You alright with that chickenwuss?" I wiped a tear from his eye and kissed him atop the head. My hands kneaded knots out of his shoulders and I felt him smile against me.
"Yeah, I think I'm okay with that." He hugged me tightly and I kissed him to get the last feeling of tears out of his system. I grabbed his hand and started to lead him home. Even though, to me, home was anywhere Hayner was. It really didn't matter what everyone else said. What matter's is that he wants me, and I want him more then anything.
even if our relationship is totally screwed up and doesn't make any sense to anyone else. At least it makes some sense to us. It all just comes down to the fact that I just want to be in love with him, and that's that.