Hey! It's my first time publishing a fic here! It's an oneshot, but I hope it's worth reading. If you have any suggestions or reviews, they're always welcome!
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto nor any of its characters!
After the mecha-me incident, Orochimaru disappeared completely… again.
My hopes aren't down. I'll manage. I'll find Sasuke… and bring him back to the village. Bring him back to me.. I have to. I need to!
Kakashi-sensei, Sakura-chan… they have all been helping me trying to find him.
It has been a tough journey though.
Some gave up, saying he would never come back—others simply don't give a damn—and then there's us, teams, that even if not close, are also trying to find him desperately.
I can't lose my hope. Never. He's… very important for me. For everyone that actually cares about him.
Team 7… hasn't been the same ever since he left Konoha. Team 7… - but mostly me.
It has been quite some time since I felt his touch—his lips on mine—since I've heard his voice…- it feels nostalgic.
How many years has it been now? It feels empty… sad.
I'm empty. I'm entirely empty and all that's left are the memories he left in me. But I can't give up…- I won't give up. Though this feeling that burns deep inside of me… this sadness… the way I'm so hurt that I can't even think straight… won't leave me alone.
I wonder… did he ever think of me when he left? Did he ever think he would leave such a strong mark in me, or did he want to hurt me since the very beginning?
Even if that was it, I couldn't accept it. That couldn't be true… could it? His words? His feelings?
I don't know.
I don't know… I don't know!
He was my happiness, my reason to live, I guess… but now? I'm completely empty. Smile? I hate faking it… but I have to. For the sake of the village.. I have to be strong, I can't break down. If I break down… everyone's going to go down with me. I mustn't do it… I really can't.
Everyday is a tough day for me. Everyone talks about him, everywhere, about how he used to be, about his behavior… about him- everything he was. I mean… almost everything. I mean… do I really know who he was for real? Or was he faking it?
I don't know.
I don't know once again..!
It has been so many years now. Will he ever come back? Will he ever come back… for me?
When my work's and daily training are finished, I instantly go home. I lock the door and close the curtains and window. My desire every time I'm at home… is to be alone. Completely alone..
I day-dream about things that could possibly have happened if he was still here. If he actually did come back to the village… to his home- I think… everything would be different. Everything would be better.
He has always loved his own pride. He has done everything to be well accepted, everyone envied him for his strength, for his strong personality. Though… why? Why would he leave the village? Why would he leave us? Me?
Did he really love me as he always said he did? Did I do something wrong..?
I don't know.
I don't freaking know!
Sasuke?! Can't my screams reach you?! Can't my desperate sobs every night, my desperate mind reach you for real?!
Where are you Sasuke?! Please come back! Please… please come back to me.. don't leave me all alone!
I'm so empty- I'm so desperate to find you… I need you! I need you so much Sasuke… I need you… can't my thoughts reach you..? Can't my heart reach you?!
It has been so many years now. I'm tired… my tears dried, as well as my heart. I have no voice to scream now. I have no purpose to live now… if you don't come back to me, then there's no purpose to live... to fight, to smile... there's just no purpose of doing such things... as living- without you there's no purpose...
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry…
I guess you've decided to leave me all alone… I won't argue about your decision.
I just… I'm sorry… for not being able to continue.
I'm sorry… Sasuke..