Where My Armour Ends

by Gemma Cane

My heart refused to accept it. But no matter how much I wished it were different, he was really gone. Wishing doesn't bring back the dead. Drabble, written for the Drabble Competition - Pair that character! on WCFC.

Entry for Week 4 of the Drabble Competition

Word Count (minus A/Ns): 367

Ever since I was very young I had always enjoyed the company of solitude. I enjoyed the silence and the time to think. I enjoyed being able to distance myself from the people and the world around me, being able to just be alone and not have to worry about anything else. Often, I did it to hide away. When I was alone, I didn't need to worry about appearances, or about what other people thought of me. When I was alone, I could let it all go. I could finally feel the pain that begged to be released.

And what horrendous pain it was. It washed over me like a black wave, filling my lungs, squeezing the breath out of me.

My heart refused to accept it. But no matter how much I wished it were different, he was really gone. Wishing doesn't bring back the dead.

Only now did I realise what he had meant to me.

He had always been there for me, no matter how I tried to push him away. But now that he's gone, all I wanted was to be able to pull him closer.

He had always reached out to catch me, no matter how many times I found myself falling. How I wished I could still grab hold of his steady hand.

He had always been there to comfort me when I most needed it, no matter how cold I had been to him. Now I would give anything to be able to feel his arms around me one more time, to cry into him like I would never stop, to let go of everything I held inside. I longed to hear his gently soothing voice in my ear, to feel his strong heart beating against mine.

Now that he's gone, all I have is emptiness. He filled a hole in my heart I had spent my life trying to ignore. He had opened my eyes to what life could really be. I had tried so hard to keep everything inside of myself, but he had shown me that I didn't have to.

Nabu had shown me where my armour ends . . . and where my skin begins.

A/N: Hello again! So this is my entry for week 4. There are three of us this week, myself, PhoenixxKnight221 and ShadeofLight, so go and check their drabbles out once they're posted! I believe that Phoenix has two drabbles for you all this week, so be sure that you check 'em all out, okay? Okay. Thanks for dropping by guys and I hope you enjoyed the read!
Gemma Cane xx