-1A/N: In answer to another challenge from A Hotter Kiss A Better Touch. Basic challenge was "angst, slash, no happy ending." That last bit is the complete opposite of what I normally do, so this ending might just suck a whole bunch. I guess you'll be the judge of that reader. It is very shor to keep myself from going mad so just get over it haha The song is "End of the Road" from Boyz II Men.
You
know we belong together We
belong together Said we'd be
forever I can't sleep at night
without holding you tight Chorus: I
know you really love me, Maybe
I'll forgive you, hmm You love me again like you
loved me before Chorus (spoken) I'm not about to go out and
cheat on you all night (lonely) This time instead just come to my
bed
I have no time for you to be playing
With
my heart like this
You'll be mine forever baby, you just see
And you that I'm right
Why do you play with
my head,
Why do you play with my mind?
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave
me
And never say good-bye?
Each time I try I just break down and
cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinnin' around
and around
Although we've come to the end of the
road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to
me, I belong to you
Come to the end of the road
Still I can't
let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you
You just don't realize
You've
never been there before
It's only your first time
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy
together
Forever, you and I
This time I want you to love me much more
This
time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me,
don't let me down
I'm
here for you
All those times of night when you just hurt me
And
just run out with that other fella
Baby I knew about it, I just
didn't care
You just don't understand how much I love you do
you?
I'm here for you
Just like you did baby but that's all
right
Hey, I love you anyway
And I'm still gonna be here for
you 'till my dying day baby
Right now, I'm just in so much
pain baby
Coz you just won't come back to me
Will you? just
come back to me
Yes baby my heart is
lonely
(lonely)
My heart hurts baby
(lonely)
Yes I feel
pain too
Baby please
And baby just don't let me go
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It happens the same way every night. The MacManus twins' hands slide over each others' warm skin beneath cool sheets. They touch and kiss and sweat and scream in the darkness of their apartment. But then afterwards, when skin began to cool and the air quieted around them, Connor would pretend to sleep and listen as his brother slipped out of their bed and dressed before heading for the door.
Tonight, Connor can't take it any more. He's sat by and not questioned it when night after night Murphy would leave for a few hours and come home just before dawn. This time, Connor waits until he's sure Murphy's well enough ahead of him before getting up and dressing quickly before following after.
It's dark and quiet outside and Connor has to walk quite a few yards behind his brother to keep the darker twin from knowing he's being followed. The trip on foot is a long one and Connor marvels that Murphy does this every night. But what the end of the journey reveals makes Connor's stomach coil in pain and jealousy. And this makes the walk home seem even longer, especially when it starts to rain on the way. But Connor appreciates the rain because it hides the tears starting to run down his face.
When the light MacManus twin reaches home, he peels his wet clothes off and hides them beneath other dirty clothes on the floor. Crawling into bed, Connor tries to pretend what he saw didn't happen. Maybe it was all a bad dream and soon he'd wake up to find Murphy snuggled up behind him. But there's really no denying it. Following his brother, his lover to the end of a dark road told him everything he needed to know. Seeing Murphy in the arms of someone else, especially another man, especially another Irishman fresh off the boat that they'd only so recently met at the local pub, is enough to make Connor want to scream in rage and agony.
But he can't really blame Murphy, the newcomer is exciting and vibrant and Murphy loses focus on things quite easily. So he forgives his brother because he loves him and can't bare the thought of just giving him up like that. He won't say a word, even when Murphy comes in again just before dawn, dripping wet from the rain and smelling of another man before crawling into bed. Connor lets his dark twin wrap arms around him and pretends to still be asleep because it just isn't right to be without them there. Murphy snuggles in close as if nothing was amiss, and Connor vows that he'll do his best from now on to prove to his twin that they belong together only, with no one else between. He just refuses to say it's the end of the road yet.
A/N: That's right, it sucks. And I just had to throw in that cheesy last line. (face palm) sigh…