This is an old fic written of the thoughts I had when reading the older chapters of Bleach. I'm quite sure it's not like this for real, but I don't care :D
I hope you like it~
Broken
It had already been a year since he had left from Seireitei.
Nowadays people knew him as a heartless betrayer.
Of course, it is true that he betrayed them, but he had a good reason to do it.
A reason he can't tell anyone.
He is always smiling that creepy smile of his,
just to hide the fact that he's actually suffering just as much as the old friends he left behind.
They weren't the only ones who were near their breaking point.
Besides, they still had each other. He had nothing.
He had left behind all his good friends and gone with those two greedy idiots.
He would go back if he could, but he can't. He had a reason to stay.
And he wasn't wanted back anyway.
If he went back there, he would probably just be killed or something like that.
After all, he was the one who chose to leave.
He knew he'd be suffering, and he knew it wouldn't take long for him to break.
But that's something the others couldn't understand, because of his everyday act.
When he said goodbye to his childhood friend,
he kept his eyes closed so he didn't need to see her cry because of him.
They both were near their breaking points at that time.
Now they hide their real feelings behind those smiles.
They both know that the next time they meet, they'll be enemies.
They also know that at that time, they will probably have to kill each other.
At that day, they may both break, since they can't fight each other face to face again.
As we know, people can get damaged and may even break, but some people just won't show it.
Everything he does or says is just an act to hide the damage he got from losing the most precious thing in his life.
That thing is his childhood friend, whom he will never get back.
He manages to survive by not speaking or thinking about it.
But he can't keep on doing that for long. He knows that.
Just when he thought he'd gotten over it, the thoughts came to him again.
The fact that he wouldn't get anything back anymore, no matter what he did.
That's when he finally broke.
He couldn't keep smiling anymore.
And that's why the whole Las Noches hears a scream, which they all recognise to be his.
The smiling mask finally broke.
The end :D