Hi there! This is a fanfic that I've had written for a while, but I had never posted it. It's my first fic that is written as a journal with flashbacks. It is harder to write than it sounds…I hope you guys like it! I don't mind constructive criticism but please don't be rude. Oh and this is loosely based off the song "She Ain't You' by Chris Brown. I think, I wrote it so long ago that I don't remember…lol. Oh, and its technically canon, since Draco is with Astoria, but under Dramione since he wishes he was still with Hermione.

Disclaimer: Don't own Harry Potter characters…

January 1, 2004-Dear Journal,

Its New Year's Day today, and Astoria is insisting on dragging me to a bunch of boring parties thrown by her friends. As if this day isn't already horrible, but now I'll have to sit and smile and listen to a bunch of airheaded, blonde bimbos talking about plastic surgery and the latest gossip about who's with who and who wants to be. Just the thought makes me long for that incredible New Year's Day three years ago. I was with Hermione then, it was our first and turns out only New Year Day. Man, I miss her…

FLASHBACK:

Draco had been feeling out of sorts all day, and thought maybe visiting Hermione would take his mind off things. Apparating to her flat, he knocked on the door and let himself in when he heard say. Walking in, he found Hermione perched precariously on a ladder trying to hang a banner that said 'Happy Millennium!'.

"Babe, please be careful," Draco said, walking over to hold the ladder, "Remember Halloween?"

"That was only because Seamus was drunk and knocked into the ladder, it had nothing to do with me," Hermione replied matter-of-factly as she finished. Turning to stand more securely, she slipped and landed in an unceremonious heap on top of Draco.

"Ugh, you may look like a pixie, but you weigh more than a ton of bricks," Draco grunted, as he maneuvered from under Hermione and held a hand out to help her up.

"Well, it's not my fault you just happened to be in the way, now is it dear?"

Chuckling, Draco snagged her hips and pulled her to him, "Well I guess we'll both live, now can I have a get well kiss?"

Hermione kissed him sweetly, but pulled away before he could take it further, "I have things to do…"

"Aw, but I was just getting started," Draco teased, trying to capture Hermione's lips again, which she deftly avoided, causing the blonde to pout, "Aren't I more important than 'things'?"

"Of course, but I need to get these things done by tonight," Hermione replied primly.

Grabbing her around the waist before she could escape, Draco nuzzled her neck, before kissing his way up to her ear and whispering, "Can't it wait?"

Shivering, Hermione turned and wrapped her arms around him and whispered back, "Of course it can wait, I have more important things to do."

END FLASHBACK

There won't be a New Year's like that again, I lost the one person who could make me feel like that. I wish I could turn back the clock, but sadly, I'm stuck with the choices I've made. But I know the feelings I had with her can never be replaced, she was my one and only. But enough feeling sorry for myself, Astoria is calling.

I hope you guys liked it. Review! Please? 0_0 *puppy dog eyes*