Something in my heart is telling me something isn't right here.

I don't believe.

I don't want to feel.

I do not want to touch anyone or anything, this world killed her, these people killed her, she was perfect already- why did they do this to her?

My love for her was a strong as a roaring fire, stronger than a mountain, more than there are stars in the sky.

There where stars in her eyes, so many, yet so few could see them, they felt like she was threat rather than a gift – I saw her as a gift,

she would never grumble, she was so selfless.

I never saw it coming, one moment I'm picking out a ring- the next I'm begging her to wake up; there are no words, no expressions to describe the emptiness and lack of emotion I have, I've never felt numb like this before –I will never feel again.

I'm numb to all people, to all emotions attempted

Should I kill myself also?

No.

I'd just be putting others through this same grieving process, that wouldn't be fair

So I'll await my death- but suffer aloud, I'll be the grumpiest mope you'll ever meet

Does it really hurt so much? What people will say? Do? If you're in that position I guess you just want them to stop taunting you just leave you alone.

I guess when it hurts to live; it's a gift to die.

I'm the only one who even loves her now, people only see her as weak, couldn't handle the heat.

I'll sit here- I'll await my time, I'll grow old with her, just like doves do for their mates, I'll never leave her side, I will always be here.

Till death – after death I'll never part.

I'll lullaby 'I do' to you, I'll picture myself giving you kisses, I'll hold the baby with you – she'll be just as beautiful as you.

I'll be as loyal as a dove, who sits and waits to die with his love.

* Ps. I never asked for glowing reviews, and no Lol- I didn't make that clear, nor did I imply that everyone who doesn't leave me a good review is a troll, I simply said trolling would be deleted:) I understand some may not like it but if you read the past review you'd see it was very rude, I do care about my grammar- sorry it's not as 'colorful' as others- maybe it will be when I get to college *yes- I'm young* I just use words I use, and since this is for fun and not a contest I don't make everything perfect, my replies where no where near rude,

I just started out- I'm still growing just hold on and maybe I'll fit peoples taste! :) :) Happy last days of spring!*