Disclaimer: I don't own Zim. No, and I never will.
This is a very sad song fic about Dib and Gaz's mother. Just read. Yeah, I know that A Thousand Miles is suposed to be sung about a boyfriend, but I thought and thought, and it does fit the mood for this story.
Everyone was quiet at dinner. It was the most depressing day of the year.
The day of her death. Although it was one of the only days that Dad was home for dinner, we didn't talk like crazy like we usually did when Dad was home.
Often times we'd lift our heads up from our dinner to glance at each other. We still didn't talk. We didn't want to stir bad memories up.
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
The thought of me and Gaz, four and two, hearing of her death made me sad. Gaz was way too young not to have a mother. Raised by just a father. It was no wonder all she did was threaten me.
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
I squeezed my eyes shut to hold back some tears as I thought of my father. As he answered the phone in his normal cheerful voice. All of the sudden it went cold. His eyes grew dimmer. He cluched the phone as if hanging on for dear life.
And I need you
And I miss you
But now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
Tonight
"I understand." he said very quietly. And he looked at me and Gaz with such pitty. He barely had to explain anything before we understood. I tried to hold back everything, and Gaz raced into my father's arms.
"She's not! She can't be..." Gaz sobbed.
Dad just nodded solemnly, and said "Sweetie, I'm sorry. She's..."
Gaz sobbed even louder 'fore Dad could even finish his sentence.
Though it's times like these
When I think of you
I wonder if you ever think of me
With everything so wrong
And I don't belong
I'm living in your procious memory
With her failing health, it shouldn't have surprised anyone. We all knew she had heart problems. Even Gaz knew it, and she was just two. But it broke my heart. How could she be gone? She'd always been there for me, but now she wasn't...it was like a terrible nightmare. One that I wouldn't wake up from, only to have her comfort me, and tell me everything would be fine. That's all I wanted. For everything to be fine.
'Cause I'll need you
And I'll miss you
But now I wonder
If I would fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
Tonight
Even at dinner I wanted everything to be fine. Maybe if she were still there it'd be fine. Maybe she'd be able to help me expose Zim. She always seemed to be there for me, no matter how dark and scary everything seemed.
And I
I
Don't want to let you know
I
I don't need your memories
I
I don't want to let this go
I
I don't...
But then I thought of something. She'd never want us to be miserable. It was none of our faults she died. It wasn't her fault she died. It just happened...
Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Then I began to think even more. I looked at my sister and my dad. Both were on the verge of crying. Why? She passed away, but she had a great life. After all, death is a part of life, isn't it?
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
I stood up and said what had been on my mind almost throughout the whole dinner.
"We should be celebrating her life, instead of mourning her...her death!"
I must have surprised Dad and Gaz. But then I realized I was crying. It was the first time since her death that I cried. I'd promised for Gaz and Dad's sake I'd never cry again...
And I still miss you
And I still need you
But now I wonder...
Dad held back tears more than he'd ever in his life. Not once had I'd seen him cry. Not once. Gaz was crying too. She hadn't ever cried since the incident.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
We visited her grave today. We plan to every year. We hadn't since her funeral, but we did today. Dad wasn't reluctant, like he was to go to her funeral. He couldn't bare to look at her cold face all those years ago.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
I don't remember what he last words to me were. I remeber they were sweet, and still remeber the sound of her voice when she said them. Maybe she was aware she was going to die soon, but she didn't tell me, Gaz, or Dad. Maybe it was just better that way...
If I could just hold you
Tonight...
This is a very sad song fic about Dib and Gaz's mother. Just read. Yeah, I know that A Thousand Miles is suposed to be sung about a boyfriend, but I thought and thought, and it does fit the mood for this story.
Everyone was quiet at dinner. It was the most depressing day of the year.
The day of her death. Although it was one of the only days that Dad was home for dinner, we didn't talk like crazy like we usually did when Dad was home.
Often times we'd lift our heads up from our dinner to glance at each other. We still didn't talk. We didn't want to stir bad memories up.
Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
The thought of me and Gaz, four and two, hearing of her death made me sad. Gaz was way too young not to have a mother. Raised by just a father. It was no wonder all she did was threaten me.
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
I squeezed my eyes shut to hold back some tears as I thought of my father. As he answered the phone in his normal cheerful voice. All of the sudden it went cold. His eyes grew dimmer. He cluched the phone as if hanging on for dear life.
And I need you
And I miss you
But now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
Tonight
"I understand." he said very quietly. And he looked at me and Gaz with such pitty. He barely had to explain anything before we understood. I tried to hold back everything, and Gaz raced into my father's arms.
"She's not! She can't be..." Gaz sobbed.
Dad just nodded solemnly, and said "Sweetie, I'm sorry. She's..."
Gaz sobbed even louder 'fore Dad could even finish his sentence.
Though it's times like these
When I think of you
I wonder if you ever think of me
With everything so wrong
And I don't belong
I'm living in your procious memory
With her failing health, it shouldn't have surprised anyone. We all knew she had heart problems. Even Gaz knew it, and she was just two. But it broke my heart. How could she be gone? She'd always been there for me, but now she wasn't...it was like a terrible nightmare. One that I wouldn't wake up from, only to have her comfort me, and tell me everything would be fine. That's all I wanted. For everything to be fine.
'Cause I'll need you
And I'll miss you
But now I wonder
If I would fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
Tonight
Even at dinner I wanted everything to be fine. Maybe if she were still there it'd be fine. Maybe she'd be able to help me expose Zim. She always seemed to be there for me, no matter how dark and scary everything seemed.
And I
I
Don't want to let you know
I
I don't need your memories
I
I don't want to let this go
I
I don't...
But then I thought of something. She'd never want us to be miserable. It was none of our faults she died. It wasn't her fault she died. It just happened...
Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Then I began to think even more. I looked at my sister and my dad. Both were on the verge of crying. Why? She passed away, but she had a great life. After all, death is a part of life, isn't it?
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
I stood up and said what had been on my mind almost throughout the whole dinner.
"We should be celebrating her life, instead of mourning her...her death!"
I must have surprised Dad and Gaz. But then I realized I was crying. It was the first time since her death that I cried. I'd promised for Gaz and Dad's sake I'd never cry again...
And I still miss you
And I still need you
But now I wonder...
Dad held back tears more than he'd ever in his life. Not once had I'd seen him cry. Not once. Gaz was crying too. She hadn't ever cried since the incident.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
We visited her grave today. We plan to every year. We hadn't since her funeral, but we did today. Dad wasn't reluctant, like he was to go to her funeral. He couldn't bare to look at her cold face all those years ago.
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you
I don't remember what he last words to me were. I remeber they were sweet, and still remeber the sound of her voice when she said them. Maybe she was aware she was going to die soon, but she didn't tell me, Gaz, or Dad. Maybe it was just better that way...
If I could just hold you
Tonight...