The softness of his skin was so unbearable. I couldn't help it. The only way I could escape was to end things with Edward. I couldn't lie to him. I couldn't make him hurt! I just wish that night had never happened! I wish Alice had not seen it happen and Edward had never read her thoughts absentmindedly. I wish I had never met the other golden eyed vampire. The one with all his emotions painted across his face. I wish my heart had seen through the fake emotion. I wish I had seen the twat he really was. I wish I would stop wishing for impossible things. I wish.

Chapter 1.

We meet

It all started when I was in the police station waiting for Charlie to finish work. And he strolled in with a cocky look across his stupid face. Of course at the time all I saw was utter beauty. He had ruffled black hair hanging randomly across his face and just reaching his broad shoulders. He was wearing a light blue pull over and beige trousers. But the most noticeable thing I saw was his golden eyes just like my husband Edward's. I don't know what made me do it but I stood, and of course I stumbled and almost fell. But what do you expect? I saw him look over obviously not the bit interested. I bent down to grasp my bag and again almost fell! I don't know why I kept falling. Ever since my change from human to vampire I had been incredibly graceful. He walked slowly over to the counter and started speaking softly to the small temp worker at the desk. I walked over slowly I didn't need to be closer to hear what he was saying but it was a habit I had accumulated since pretending to be normal and human.

" I want to report a case of vandalism." He spoke softly in a voice as soft as silk, and once again he reminded me of my husband Edward Cullen his voice reminded me of velvet.

" what happened sir?" the temp worker said in surprisingly low voice that didn't fit her small and dainty body.

"my house has had names, phrases and also graphic pictures drawn all over one of the walls and my door."

"ok, could you fill out this form and bring it up to the counter when your done please and could I also ask your name?" she replied

"erm, yes my name is Alexander Clarke." He said almost as low as a whisper. As if he were hiding something as if he were ashamed.

I'm not surprised!

"ok Mr Clarke, here you go and if you have any problems please ask." She smiled and I could tell she was blushing though at this point I could not see her.

He walked over to one of the hard plastic chairs next to the coffee table, leaflets about vandals, murder and a few Samaritans booklets scattered between the magazines. He started writing in a flowing motion that, again reminded me of Edward! He lifted his head slowly and looked up to me through his dark, thick eyelashes.

"excuse me." He said as he gestured for me to sit next to him, patting the chair whilst once again looking down at the paper in his hand.

"ok?" I said sounding odd and out of place.

I sat slowly and looked at him wishing he would look at me with those amazing eyes.

He whispered so low that I struggled to hear him, " Are you vampire?"

I smiled and laughed under my breath "very observant Mr Clarke"

"well seeing as I can confide in you, species to species, you know. Will you help me find the best place to hunt. I am vegetarian by the way I am assuming by your eyes you too are one?"

"yes once again very observant! And the best place is close to my family's home. I will show you but will you also come to meet my husband's father? He is very interested in other people of our kind" I smiled again hoping he would say yes wishing he would come so I could see him again.

"dang, married!" a thrill went through me as he said that

"well I guess so. I would be interested to meet him too." He smiled slowly making it into a grimace " I can always scrub the shite of my wall! We could go now if you like?"

"well sure of course. I just need to tell my human father to cancel our plans for dinner. I'm sure he wont care!"

"are you sure?" he says still in a whisper

"Yes, yes" I stood and strode over to the desk and made my presence aware to the dainty girl behind the counter.

"Excuse me, would you tell chief swan his daughter will have to cancel there plans a family emergency has come up that she just cannot avoid? Thank you" I smiled and walked away from the desk without giving the girl a chance to say yes.

We walked out into what should have been a cold night but to us just normal. We walked and we chatted and that is how it all began!

Chapter 2 meet the parents

As I drove down the small, quiet and winding roads of Forks. Nothing was said, until about half way there when he said,

"so your married then?"

"yes his name is Edward." I replied trying to sound cool and completely relaxed.

"what is he like?" he inquired

"well he is kinda rich and really friendly, I really hope you like him! And his parents, they are the people I live with not really his parent but that's our story" I smiled realising I had started to babble on.

"I'm sure I will like them and what is your story then?"

" well erm it's very complicated, Carlise and Esme are Edward's parents. Edward has a brother and a sister, Emmett and Alice. Emmett is married to Rosalie and Alice's mate is Jasper and I am Edward's mate. Was that really complicated? Sorry!"

"no I like the way you confuse me it's cute I like it!"

"thank you I guess!"

silence took over our slightly awkward convosation. We drove up the drive towards my confused family. Edwards face was a mixture of emotion, confusion, sadness, and happiness to see me.

Edward this is Alex Clarke he is a vampire he needs us to show him a good safe place to hunt. He is vegetarian too.

As I parked my car Alice skipped over to the car door and opened it before the car had fully stopped.

"why who is this Bells?" she smiled as she held out her hand to help me out of the car, not that I needed help.

"This is, Alex Clarke or would you rather us call you…"

"no Alex is fine! You must be Alice. Bella has told me a lot about you. Your mate is Jasper who must be you," he held his hand out to Jasper who shook his hand firmly. "This must be Carlise and Esme" once again he shook both of their hands, smiling a beautiful soft smile. "you must be Emmett and Rosalie and Edward" he shook Edward's hand without as much of a smile. But still a friendly look on his face. He ran him hands through his hair and smiled widely.

"so I hear you are looking for somewhere to hunt Alex, we will be able to help you in that area we think of our selves as kinda experts." Carlise made small talk smoothly and without fault.

Edward pulled on my arm lightly. I followed him as soon as he touched me. I looked up into his beautiful golden eyes he put his hands around my face cradling my face and staring into my eyes his face full of emotion. Usually I can read his face but the emotion this time it was very, very hard. The only emotion I could read was love; for me. It was then that I reached up on tip toes and kissed him softly and passionately he stood there and kissed me back his hands still cradling my face and at this point I thought he was the only one for me. Shame it didn't last, real shame.