Title: With All the Love I Have, Annie
Word Count: 521
Genre: Romance/Tragedy
Rating: T
Warnings: Spoilers for "Mockingjay", mentions of death, attempted suicide, and depression
Characters: Annie Cresta, Finnick Odair
Pairing: Finnie Odesta
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My Finnick,
Our little boy is eight now. He's just like you-whenever I take him swimming, it's like I'm watching you. He's a natural. When he turns fourteen, I'm going to have to give him your old trident. Not that he'll ever need it. Just so that he'll always have a piece of you with him. And he has your eyes. Your beautiful, sea-green eyes. My god, I miss your eyes. Did I ever tell you how much I loved your eyes? Did I ever tell you how beautiful you were? Because you were. You were gorgeous. There were so many things, Finn. So many things I wanted to say and do. I wanted to offer you something normal in your life. But I didn't get the chance. After they came back without you, I damn near took my own life. What would be the point in living a life without you? After all, you were the only reason I had lived as long as I had. But then I remembered the little piece of you that I had growing inside me. I couldn't possibly take my own life after that. I know you gave yourself up so that he could live in a better, safer world. So how could I? Katniss found me then. Sobbing on the floor and clutching my stomach, a rope tied like a noose laying on the floor next to me. She's really helped me these past eight years or so. She and Peeta finally got married. They come around pretty often. Oh! And they have two kids! A little girl who's a few years younger than our boy, and a little boy who's two years younger than her. Our boy simply adores them. He'd be lost without his playmates. It's so sweet, watching them play together. I wish you could see. Johanna comes around sometimes, too. She still hasn't found anyone, but I think she's happy. She misses you, too. So do Katniss and Peeta. Hell, I think everyone who ever met you misses you.
It never does get any easier. It's not like how they say-you don't ever move on. I'm not mad at you, though. Please, Finn, don't ever believe that I was mad at you for doing what you did. I never was and I never will be. It's funny, though. It's been a few years shy of a decade, and I still haven't used the "d-word". With the way I talk about it, you'd think that you were travelling. But I know you're not coming back. So I just have to wait until the day that I can come to you. The day that I'll feel your arms wrapped around me again, the day that I'll see your gorgeous eyes looking at me again, the day that I'll be able to touch your sea-softened hair again. That will be the day, Finn. I promised our little merman that I would take him swimming, so I have to go now. I'm always thinking about you. Just save me a spot next to you in heaven.
With all the love I have,
Annie
A/N: I actually have no idea where this came from. All I can really say is that I cried my heart out writing this. This seriously hurt to write, but once I had the first few sentences, I had to finish it. I keep their children unnamed because that's how it is in the books, and I kind of disregarded any sense of time that we have during the epilogue and just made it whenever. Don't count on me ever posting another Finnie fic ever again though, because it is my highest OTP, and I value it too much to even READ fanfiction of it, let alone WRITE it. This just came to me, and it will never happen again. Well, I hope you all enjoyed, I hope I gave you all some tears, and that's goodbye from me
~Midnite