Might Never Be the Same

Chapter One

Ruthie sat in her English class staring out the window. She was daydreaming yet again. She couldn't get his eyes and his smile out of her head. He was the ideal guy, but she doubted that he would ever feel the same. He'd said so many times that he thought of her as a sister. She doubted that he would want to get into any "incestuous".

"Ruthie," Eliza whispered, "class is over."

Ruthie got up. She walked out to her locker. She saw Martin waiting for her.

"Do you need a ride?"

"Um, sure."

"Cool. I'll wait for you outside."

Ruthie smiled as he walked away. How could she be around him without expressing her feelings? She didn't want to ruin their friendship, so she decided she'd just keep hiding her feelings.

Michelle came running over to Ruthie. "Can you hook me up with Martin? He's so hot. I've got like the hugest crush on him. I know you're his best friend, so can you help me now?"

"I'm sorry, but I don't think so. It's only been a couple of weeks since Meredith broke up with him. I doubt he's ready for a serious relationship."

"Oh, okay."

Ruthie had just lied, but it was a plausible lie. Still, it was a lie. Martin was probably perfectly ready for a new girlfriend. Ruthie just wanted to be that girl.

She headed out to Martin's car where he was standing, arms crossed and smiling as he waited for her. He looked like some dream guy. In a way, he was a dream guy. He was Ruthie's dream guy.

Ruthie smiled as she got in the car.

"Good day today?" he asked her.

"What?"

"You're smiling like you had something good happen."

"Oh. Well, it was just a normal day."

"What happened?"

"I had 2 tests and some homework assigned."

"And you're smiling?"

"I'm just happy."

"You're strange, Ruthie."

"What'd you do today?"

"Same as you."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

Ruthie wanted to say something cool. All she could come up with was asking him to come over and stay awhile at her house.

"I'd love to, but I've got a lot of homework."

"Oh, okay. You just said you had homework. I just assumed that you might have a little time."

"I really wish I could."

Ruthie was quiet for a minute. She was thinking. She wanted to spend more time with Martin, but she didn't want to seem suspicious.

They finally arrived at her house. Without thinking about it, when Martin turned to say goodbye, she kissed him.