Bella's POV
You left me.
And here I am.
Under the ferns.
On the damp grass.
I'm crying.
And now I see Sam Uley wrap his arms around me.
He brings me to Chrlie..
But thats not where I want to be.
I lye down on my bed.
And wrap my arms aound myself,
to hold myself together.
I'm numb, now, Edward.
I'm getting up every morning.
Trying to hide my misery from Charlie.
Going to school.
I'm treading water, Edward.
Just getting by.
Day by Day.
I can't forget.
I'm to afraid to remember.
And now I have Jake.
But he doesn't understand.
He wants someone who isn't whole.
He wants me to want him.
Why can't he see?
I'm not a whole person.
Not without you.
He doesn't understand it.
I can't make him see.
That I'm bearly treading water, now,
not really any better.
Only moving on.
Day by day.
Not letting them see.