"Mom you need to go back if i dont have that chap stick im going to have such a bad day and when i come home im going to be so mad at you i wont talk to you for a whole year please please please-"

" fine fine we'll go back stop whining "

If it werent for the smile on my moms face I would have been really angery she told me I was whining. she makes a U turn a heads back home. I run inside grab my chap stick then get back into the car.

"Are you happy now"

I smile"yes ,yes I am "

"Your such a baby I cant belive you get anything you want by begging and I cant belive mom actally gives it to you "

"shut up your just mad because im the baby of the house "

"no your not im older than you my one minute so just calm down with that-

" BRAKE BRAKE HIT THE BRAKE -" My dad yells.

But its to late we already got hit, now we hit the tree and we flipp over and over and over again.

I wake up in the hospital Im alone at first then a nurse comes in she doesnt see im awake yet. She looks at the monitor and smiles. She looks at me next and her smile grows bigger. I try to smile back but i realize it hurts when i do. The smile leaves her face. I try to talk but then i cant because i dont know where my voicec is. She finally speaks.

"Hello my name is susan. Do you know your name? "

as much as it hurts i try to say my name."Bella"

but it comes out scrathy and weird. I cant explain maby like when you haven't talked in smiles and calls calls the doctor in.

" Hello Bella my name is Dr. Herman. but feel free to call me Dr. H. or Dr. victor whatever works for you ." He smiles.

I smile even though it hurts then he asks me all these questions about my health and my surroundings like do you know where you are? and do you know what year you were born?. just alot of questions like that but when he finally finishes I ask him the one question iv'e been dying to ask .

"Where are my parents and brother"his face falls alittle bit but i can see hes tring to hid it and the next words out of his mouth were unpredictable.

"Um your brother is getting something to eat in the cafateria but" there is relief but i know theres more because he hasn't said anything about my parents.

"but um your parents didnt make it through the crash Im sorry.'

i couldnt breath as so much talk but I tried anyways.'thank you"

After those words I broke down and cried I dont know for how long but its like everything I did wrong to my parents , every fight we had. every unkind word and every time I said I hate them when they wouldn't let me go out and everything bad came out all at once and it over took me I dont know what happend but I saw everything very clear its like someone opend a window in a dark room I could see everything and the worst part was I couldn't even say Im sorry or Im an idiot or even Im sorry I am an idiot but the one thing that was most clear was that it was my fault that they were dead. If I had just kept my mouth shut about that stupid chap stick then they would have still been alive . Somewhere in the middle of my breakdown my brother walks in and hugs me but I cant feel the hug emotionly I only feel greif. I dont talk full sentences I only say two very simple words over and over again and I cant stop." Im sorry...Im sorry... Im sorry..."Eventually I calm down just a bit to hear what my brother wants to tell me and that was not worse but also hard what he said

"bella, um I dont think the doctor told you this but you've been in a comma for about 1 week mom and dads cremation was yesterday, you missed it but I wanted to wait but the doctors said that he didn't know when you were going to wake up so..."he trailed off next words were out of anger."YOU COULDNT WAIT FOE ME WHATS THE MATTER WITH YOU!IM YOUR SISTER AND YOU COULD WAIT BECAUSE THE DOCTOR SAID SO! YOUR SUCH A PUSHOVER I SWEAR TO GOD..."

"look im sorry that you weren't exactly "in good condition" to go to that place but you have to understand that is not my fault-"it was almost a whisper but I cut him off anyways with a yell.

"NOT YOUR FAULT ARE YOU TING TO SAY THAT ITS MY FAULT THAT THEY'RE DEAD..." he looked at me like I slapped him in the face or something he was just about to continue but i started before he could.

"you know what never mind just get out'

"what no im not going to just get out you-'

"GET OUT, GET OUT NOW!" i shook violently i just need time but i was just so angry i couldn't tell him nicely. It hurt so bad that i dont think im ever going to live throught this.

i think tomarrow is just goimg to be worst because he did leave.