What do I have left. I feel so, so alone. Nothing matters but her. I should give up. There's nothing I can do. She is a fantasy nothing more. But she is what kept me going. False. It's my fault. My luck is negative infinity. But still I live to find a way. Maybe an android. No. Maybe a hologram. No. What is it I can't find it the one thing that will make her real. I am, forever alone.