Chapter 1 consequence

BPOV

I'm drowning in tears.

I'm breathing in pain.

Im welcoming in hate.

I'm basking in anger.

Im completely not me.

I wish for a time machine.

I wish for all this back to normal.

I wish for my security blanket back.

I wish for me back. And completeness.

You ask why Im like this?

Lets start at the beginning.

I was turning 17 that day. Mom, Dad, and my brother were going to take me to my fathers restaurant, it was five star. But first lets get to know the Swans. My wonderful mother, Renee Swan, she looked like me in every way but with green eyes. She was a fashion designer she also had new stuff and would let me be the first to wear it and see how many compliments I would get with the piece. She was famous but never put her work before our family. He line was LaBella in Italian for The beautiful. I miss her. My father, Charlie Swan, owned a five star restaurant. He was an amazing cook. He was my protector. The best father. I miss him. And my brother, Alexander Swan, my twin. He was older but by a minute. He IS my best friend. He was my warmth, my light in the surrounding dark, without him Im lost. I miss him. I miss them all so much. Lets skip the situation and move to the consiquence: they are dead. Six feet under in Forks cemetery where Im living with my aunt Christy and Uncle Johnathan. I hate it here,its not that I dont like my aunt and uncle its just that I dont want to be here under this circumstance.

I need to go talk to Alexander. No I dont see spirits I want to go to the cemetery.

"Christy, Im going out, is that okay?" I asked my aunt.

"Yeah it is. Come back whenever." She responded.

Christy and Johnathan are young, I dont have any boundaries. We live in rainy forks. Their house is three stories. They dont have any pets or kids running around, its pretty peaceful. They go out every-night and I feel more alone if its even possible. I walked to the cemetery in a hurry. I only have been here a week and I know the Town well. Tomorrow is the first day of school, well for me. Im finally here.

I walked over to my mom and dads grave stone and kissed the top of them.

"Hey mom and dad i love you."

Then I walked over to Alexanders grave.

"Hey Ally, I need to talk to someone. I feel so lost. Im so angry, Why does god hate me so much to take you away from me? I cry all the time. And I dont want to fucking cry anymore! I broke every single vase in out home and Phexiox. And you know Renee always decorating. Ally, Why did you leave? I need you. They doctors said you didnt feel any pain, and I know why. I felt all your pain. All of it. I guess its twin stuff. And I feel so much pain, your gone. I wish I could be with you. Its so hard to belive your six feet under me. I thought you would have been here with me burying Mom and Dad but nope Im all alone. Im just going to stay here for a while." I went to his grave and laid down and wrapped my arms around his stone.

"Mom, dad, Alexander Im still pissed your gone but Ill forgive you." With that I drifted in dream world.

I jerked upright screaming. I felt eyes on me and I looked around. I saw golden eyes glowing in the dark. WTF?

"Whos there?" I asked.

No answer.

I closed my eyes and looked again, they are gone.

"Alexander Im going crazy aren't I?"

"Great. Now I hear voices. Ally I love you, Im going home before I harm myself." I kissed his grave and walked out of Forks cemetery. I looked at my watch, mmm its only 1 am. 6 hours till school.