AN - I know 2 unfinished fics. They are finished in my head.. This was an itch I had to scratch.. Anyway don't own Greys yadda yadda..
She sat on the bed of the on call room, light off, head cradled in her hand. Just when she'd thought life couldn't get any crappier it did.
She stiffened as she heard the door spring open, someone move quickly inside, and firmly but gently close the door behind them, then slowly turn the lock as if trying to hide it's action.
She let out a sigh as she recognised the person tiptoeing towards the bunk beds.
"Hey" she whispered
"Shit" he exclaimed jumping in the air, looking fraught.
Despite her own inner turmoil she couldn't help but giggle at the sight before her as he jumped and flailed and finally settled.
"Fuck Mer, are you trying to kill me" he asked
"No" so giggled "well I may have wished you dead a few times in the last few weeks.. but trying to kill right now.. no".
He had the grace to look bashful as he lowered himself down onto the side of the bed beside her.
"Anyway, what are doing, are you hiding" she asked, as a thought dawned on her she grimaced "ohh.. are you hiding from me?" she added
"What, no, I mean, yes, hiding, but, no, not from you"
"Ok" she giggled
"Anyway, what are you doing here, sitting in the dark, are you hiding too?" Derek, took the best form of defense he always knew – attack.
"Yeah" she sighed, hiding" her light expression fading to a frown
"Ohhh" said Derek on a long breath out "oh from me?"
"No, not from you, not right now, mind you, I have been hiding, well, avoiding, you, and the pl.., I mean Rose, but no, in the Meredith Grey 'life is fucked' show, I have new, well new as in Seattle new, but recycled, as in you, know, time issues to hide from" she blurted
Derek paused as he rolled as much as her statement as he caught around in is head finally he admitted "Sorry, I'm out of Meredith-Freak practice, I missed most of that".
She sighed at looked up into his eyes, finding a depth of emotion rather than the impassiveness she had assumed, she sighed and shrugged "I said, yes I'm hiding, but no not from you"
"Oh, ok" he replied
"Ok"
They both sat in the semi dark looking at the far wall of the on-call room. Each lost in their own thoughts. They would have imagined when they sought refuge in this room that they would be lost in thoughts of the troubles and turmoils that led them here. Instead they were each playing their own technicolour, silent movie of trysts, and spats, and closeness all played out by them in this room or one just like it.
Just as Meredith was about to be tipped over into porny actions by the slow motion replays running in her head, she pulled back to the brink of now and reality.
"So who are you hiding from?" she asked, her voice slightly husky
His head moved sideways to look at her, and she could spot the telltale lust reflected in the corner of his eye "Oh, my Ex" he replied, clearing his throat.
She frowned and started to say "you said you weren't.."
"No, not you" he interjected
Her brain addled with the mess that had forced her to find refuge in this room in the first place, coupled with the nearness and Derekness of him, was still processing this as he asked "So who are you hiding from?"
"My Ex" she blurted, her mind still stuck a statement back
"Me" he queried
"No, no" she waved her hand
"George?" he asked
"WHAT?" she replied, that question occurring to her confused state as a complete non-sequitor. "Oh" she gasped as she realised what her was referring too" "Nooooooo" she grimaced
He wryly smirked at her reaction, then frowned "Oh, is Finn back" he asked.
"Who" she asked
"You know, Finn, Vet, Dead Wife, Plans.. Finn" he gestured with his hands for emphasis.
"Oh, no" she shook her head, lightly, with much less venom than her previous denial.
They sat silent for a few moments as both their troubled minds churned.
"Ahhh" Meredith finally exhaled "Addison's here?"
"Oh is she" Derek asked distractedly "why?"
" I don't know, why she is here, but why are you hiding from her, I thought you parted on ok terms?" Meredith asked exasperatedly.
Derek turned fully to look at Meredith as if her face held the answers to life, well at least to her random questions. "I'm not hiding from Addison" he finally offered
"Oh"
"Is she here?" he asked confusedly
Meredith looked up at him and his confuzzled expression "not that I know of, unless you are hiding from her".
"Oh so, no, no Addy" he replied
"Ok" she answered as they continued to stare into each other's eyes, their overwhelming chemistry tugging them to lean into each other. As their lips neared, Meredith snapped back.
"Is an old college flame visiting you too?" she queried in a high-pitched voice
"what, no" he replied, "oh, so your ex is a college ex?" he asked
She nodded and waved her hand absently in agreement as she tried to solve his puzzle rather than work on her own problems. The likely explanation started to dawn on her and she tried hard to stifle feelings of joy and hope as she searched her mind for alternatives.
Meanwhile Derek finally noticed that Meredith was fighting a similar battle to his own of 'name that ex'.. After a few moments of silence they both blurted out
"So, you broke up with Rose?
"So, I broke up with Rose!"
"Oh, ok" she smiled as she absorbed this fact
"Ok" he smirked as he absorbed her smile
The continued to smile and smirk at each other and that chemistry tug pulled hard as they leaned in closer.
Derek raised his hand to cup her chin. Then paused mid air an pulled his head back
"What Ex.. I thought you'd "never done this before"" he air quoted.
AN - So I keep trying to think of non cheesy ways this can be fixed on TV.. cause all the good post 4.11 fanfics have way more dialogue & thought process explanation than we'd ever get in a whole season of merder... so I keep imaging scenes that migt be on TV & go from there (hence the shrinks waitng room (which yes I will update) & this..).
Anyway, my other issue is this, I can only write when I'm tipsy & I've been on a get fit campaign which led to not much alcohol.. so I dried up... lol.. so will try & conquer my fear of writing sober.. if you review enough ;-)