note/ I was bored and sitting on the computor when this just came to me, i literally wrote it down in half an hour it was just pouring out lol. I dont know if its as good is hoped but il let you decide =)
The days are the same, always
Monotonous streams of hours and weeks
Of lessons already learnt, people you know too much about
Their voices jarring and rude in your head
Will it ever stop
These petulant children with problems brought by their own doing
Why won't they learn
But it is not for you to tell them or to preach
You must blend in, pretend to be one of them
Live a life that is not your and never will be
For the sake of your family
You put yourself through this, this daily greyness and stodginess of high school
And you never expected that this would happen
That your life will be twisted inside out
But
It does
There is a new girl
You see her in the crude loudness of some schoolboys mind
And though his fantasies are shaping her into something she is not, placing her in positions too disgusting to comprehend
You can tell that she is beautiful
All soft skin and chocolate tendrils
And eyes you can drown in
You are intrigued
But you don't know why
Biology
The acidic sent of chemicals
The squeak of chairs and rustling paper
The drip of a tap
Dull, boring, already done
When the door clicks open
And reveals the soft curved silhouette of...
You reach for her name from a neighbours mind
Bella
Bella, she stands in the doorway like a frightened mouse
Eyes wide, trembling, shy
As she hugs her books to her chest as if it where protection
And you reach out again
You want to know what makes her so scared, as if the class where a sea of sharks
and she the baby seal
But you cannot get a grasp on it, there is just blankness, nothing
Why
Puzzled, confused
Why?
She moves inside the room
Timidly slow
That is when a breeze tickles her hair
Wafts over to you
And you are
Gone
Fire, burn, THRIST
It chokes you, scratches at your throat with poker hot fingers
Hunger, blood, fire
Her scent fills your nostrils icy and intense and you WANT her
You want to bleed her dry
To feel her running through your veins
pumping through you muscles and ligaments
feeding, nourishing the
GOD you almost feel it
Monster, demon
You can't
You know you can't
You family
Safe
Keep them safe, protect them
Secret
You
Must not give in
Hold on to the desk with tensed hands
Feel it crumble slightly in your fingers
Stop
Do not breathe
She is coming towards you, shimmering like a fairy in your vision
Do not breathe
She sits beside you, her eyes flash with hurt
Her fingers flutter nervously
Do not breathe
She is so still
For a human, why does she not move?
You can feel her heat, oh god her heat
And her smell
It consumes you
And you are gone
There is a monster now
he is writhing and grasping
And planning, plotting
And he wants nothing more than to tear his teeth into this girls flesh
You are powerless
You are weak
And this is just too much
So you lean over and whisper in the pink curl of her ear
'Come'
As you rise, without another word
And leave the room
You know she will follow
And you know what you will do
But you cannot stop
You don't listen to the pitiful excuse she offers the teacher
Your body is burning, waiting for her to come out
And when she does
You grab her small warm hand in yours and pull her after you
Into the grounds, gulping in fresh air as if it where water
But it does not help
It makes it worse, clearer
But you can smell her
And the fragrant notes are bell clear
Freesia, honey, warm bed sheets
What are you doing?
You pull her faster behind you
'Where are we going' she gasps
To fast, to fast
You don't answer
You don't want to
All you can think about is blood and bone
Into the forest
That leafy green canopy,natures on hiding place
Enchanted, fairytale
And you are the wolf
You can go no further, her scent so condensed in the thick wet air
Of the trees
You push her against the trunk
And she stares up at you with eyes so innocent and as deep as the woods you are in
She is beautiful
She is pure
You want to touch her
So you do
You trace her peachy cheek with your finger
Satiny smooth
And the sweetest pink blush blossoms under your hands
And you know now what desire is
It is a red hot rush, surging through you
tIngling from your head to your groin
You have never experienced this
Didn't even know you could
She doesn't say anything
She seems frozen, rooted to the spot by your gaze
And she looks at you under her eyelashes, sticky black spiderwebs
Her lips slightly parted, glistening and lush
You touch them
Feel them wet and burning through your finger tips
Bella, her name tastes like honey in your mouth
Bella, bell-la
She is confused and trembling
but she doesn't try to run away
she knows she is in danger, she can sense it some how
but she is caught tight in the web of your spell
She asks your name
And you tell her
Edward, you like the way she says you name
Like its a secret she has to whisper
Her palm comes up against your face
And her warmth slices through you
sweet breath flutters across your face
Feeds the flame
And you minds is saying no, your body is screaming
Now, Now!
You are too far gone
And you don't recognise yourself anymore
You push against her, pinning her to the tree
Cup her pale neck
Feel her pulse beating
No she cries
No
But you push harder
Leaning towards her exposed jugular
This is it
This is it...
Edward
She sighs
As your teeth break through skin
That satisfying tear, the parting of membrane
Until you reach her soul
And it is heaven and hell at the same time
Sweet, spice, burn and pleasure
Warm bubbling juices
You think of hot summer days, daisy's swaying in the breeze
A mothers touch, a Childs laugh
Wildflowers, birds and bees and hot dusty earth
And it runs through you veins like a river
It is beauty
And pain
Love
Tenderness
It is everything
And you can't get enough
As you draw and draw on her life
She slumps against you, wetting your shirt with tears and blood
But you do not stop
Do not notice
You drink until she is empty
And dry as a cornhusk
Until the world around you is a colourful mess, a melted oil painting
Until you see no more
The cracking cry of a bird somewhere up in the sky rouses you
Brings you back to earth
And you find yourself again
Standing on moist soil
With her in your arms
Limp as a ragdoll
Pale as the moon
Dead, dead
Edward
What have you done?
The voice comes from behind you
Alice
Her small face is tensed and contorted with grief
As she trips gently behind you and looks at the girl lying in your arms
Oh Edward
She says and her voice has a note of deep sorrow in it
You didn't see, you didn't look, oh why
She babbles
'Alice, alike I'm so sorry oh, god, what...
Don't you know, she asks don't you understand
And she pushes on you
A vision so strong, so powerful
It breaks you in two
Bella, she dances in front of you
You see a meadow; she is lying next to you stroking your eyelids
You see yourself, holding her against you, whispering your love in her ear
A kiss
A caress of silken skin
A ring
She is in a white dress and she laughs as she twirls in your arms
A blushing bride
A heat soaked honeymoon house
Skin on skin, warm and wet and slippery
Salt and sand and love
And then it changes
The meadow again
And she is running with you
Reflecting the sun, glittering like diamonds
Both
One
Together
What have you done?
A scream rips from your throat
And you drop to the ground, shadow over her body
Stroke her hair back from her white skull
No, no
Her eyes are staring and cold
But her lips are still so red
And you think
Death, that hath suck'd the honey of thy breath, Hath had no power yet upon thy beauty:
You kiss them and they are still warm
You close your eyes
Pretend she is alive
This woman, your love, your wife
And now she has gone
That angel, so pure
She has taken all of you with her
And it is your fault
All
Your
Fault
What have you done!