Sara couldn't take it anymore. It's not that she didn't
love her job, she did, she had just seen and been
through too much. She wasn't sleeping. Sara was
thankfull that Gil was on a different shift so that
he didn't know she couldn't sleep. She rested when
he was home with her, but she didn't sleep. She
never slept anymore. Sara could fool them all, even
Gill, she knows him better than anyone ever has
and she knew how to fool him. He thought she was
ok, he thought she was working through it all, but
she wasn't. She didn't want to admit that her time
under the car and wandering in the desert changed her.
It had. Forever.
Sara was always an emotional person, that wasn't new.
She loved her work, lived for her work, and now she
only wanted to live. She hated the crime and the death.
She just couldn't take another murder, or rape. It's
just too much.
She was exposed when she was taken. She was proud of
her wonderful and fulfilling relationship with Gil Grissom,
and eventually wanted to tell the world about it, but at
their own time, at their own pace. Natalie took even that
away from them. They were out, and exposed and after
she got out of the hospital, they had to deal with their
friends and coworkers, and Ecklie.
Not only did Sara have to deal with her broken arm, her
cuts, bruises and her heat stroke, she had to deal with
people. People busting into her privacy and she hated it.
No one knew that she and Gill bought a house. No one knew
that they had a dog, Hank. No one knew that they were
seriously thinking of getting married. No one knew that
they were totally in love and in a very committed relationship.
Well, they do now.
Sara didn't like everyone knowing what was going on, so when
Gill suggested that they get married, and she said yes, they didn't
tell a soul. They went out that evening and got married quietly.
They didn't wear their rings at work and they didn't plan to- at
least for a while. So, when Sara couldn't take any of it anymore,
it made matters worse that she had told Gil the night before that
she was pregnant.
She had rushed out of an interrogation room when Gil caught up
to her. He said he was worried about...she cut him off. No,
no one was going to know right now and there was no way she
was going to stay here anymore. She had to get out of the lab.
She had to go home. She went and got in her car and drove
home. After Gil got back into his office, he found a note from
his wife.
The note read:
Gil,
I am not happy. I am tired of death and crime. After my father
died, I put all my time into death and crime. Now I can't. I won't
do it anymore. I can't. I love you dearly, and hope you will
understand.
I want to spend the rest of my life living quietly with you, my
love, and our child. I may do something someday, maybe not.
I will be waiting for you after your shift.
I am sorry, I hope you are not disappointed in me.
Love always,
Sara
Gil left work early and went home. He found Sara asleep on the sofa.
She slept for the first time in months. She was even smiling in her
sleep.
Peaceful at last.