ROMANO P.O.V!

As I sit here in my bed I look up and see Antonios' ever smiling face creased with worry,

"Oh please! Don't give me that look you culo!" I practically yell at him, "i'll be fine! so what if i'm dying? you don't have to be such a drama queen!"

"Lovino" Antonio says, "Do you even hear yourself right now?! You! are! dying! This is kind of a big deal! stop acting so nonchalant, there's still so many more things that we need to do!" Antonio says while running his hands through his hair

"Maybe still things that you want to do... I just wanted to have a good life, and you know what?you gave me that." I say as tears well in my eyes, "oh mannaggia! you're making me get upset you jerk! I didn't want this! i wasn't even going to tell you anything! The last thing I want is to be sad before I die, I just want to talk to you and act like this is a normal day... please?" I ask

Antonio looks at me "... I don't know, I just wanted to make today great for you. This is the last day i get to spend with you... ever! he sobs "I don't know what to do! I don't think i could get along without you! Besides, you should still have at least fifty years left! I mean, unknown illness my ass!"

At his unusually harsh words I can feel my heartbeat speed up and my breathing get shallow, "oh god" I think, "he's right. this is it, I'm going to be gone forever! No more time anywhere but in the ground, or maybe who knows where in the afterlife if there even is one. And eventually no one i know will even be alive and there will be no one alive who even remembers me. And-"

My thoughts are cut short by Antonio shaking me trying to get my attention " Lov, Lov! babe snap out of it!" Only after i feel his grounding grip on my shoulders do i realize that i have been openly shaking and sobbing with my head in my hands, "Lov, I'm sorry. I-I didn't mean for this to happen." he says once again brushing his hair out of his eyes, " I just need you to know that this isn't something that you can act like isn't happening. You don't accept things when they matter the most"

"I'd apologize if I thought I was in the wrong but i'm not" I said as a headache pounded, "OW!" Antonio suddenly sits up and looks at me

"are you okay?" he says studying my eyes "should I get you a advil? or some water? "

"Yeah i'm fine, I just need you to... go get me another pillow from your room" I said knowing full well that i'm not going to be fine, but i still smile as he hesitantly leaves the room. I take a deep breath, "this is it" I think as I close my eyes for the last time. As I slip into unconsciousness I hear Antonio's foot steps pound down the hallway and then everything fades away.

SPAIN P.O.V.

"Lov?" I call bringing him his stuff, "Oh my God!" I say as I drop the stuff I got for him as i see his seemingly lifeless body, I run over to him "Lov?! Lovino! wake up!" I say and start shaking his body "please! Oh God! Lovino? Wake up" I sob "p-please, wake up... please?" he doesn't wake up, I didn't really think he would .

time skip!

I have stopped leaving the house, it's been 3 months and still no improvement in my life. I used to visit Lov's grave every week and now i'm just trying to move on. I can't do it anymore, I can't keep doing this, ignoring everyone, never eating and not being able to even function. It's time. I sent a text to Francis and Gilbert apologizing for ignoring them and not even letting them know i'm alive. I also sent a text to Feliciano telling him not to forget about me and to bury me next to his brother when i'm gone. I gather my things together and take out the gun I had finally acquired after a long time. As I lift the gun to my temple I think about whether or not I really want to do this.

*BANG! BANG! BANG!* My thoughts are interrupted by Ludwig banging on the door

"Antonio! Open this door!" Ludwig yells

I just look at the door and say nothing

"Antonio? please just open the door buon amico!" Feliciano pleads " Don't do anything that you might regret, just let us in!"

Gilbert and Francis whisper behind the door

"Look" Gilbert says "please just open the door"

"Oui! Let us in!" Francis says through the crack in the side of the door

"I'm sorry..." I say "I can't let you in, not now, i've come too far to quit"

"Amico! Don't do this! Just open the door!" Feliciano says jiggling the doorknob

"I'm sorry..." I whisper putting my finger on the trigger "I really am" I take a deep breath then pull the trigger.

R.I.P.

Antonio (spain) Lovino (romano)

died of gun shot died of illness

you will be missed

p.s. you can recommend characters that are next to die (wow that sounds terrible)