LoveDeathMusic Chapter 1: Because Of You, a digimon fanfic

I don't own Digimon or Matt or Tai. I also don't own "Because of you." by Kelly Clarkson or any other song I may you in here!

Now on with the story!

Matt stood on stage waiting for the concert to begin. He inhaled and exhaled deep breaths as he tried to stay calm. 'It's just a concert.' he thought 'only millions of people will be watching. There's no reason for me to be nervous.' A huge knot was gathering in his stomach and it was bringing friends. He held his breath as the curtains slowly drew back. It was time for the music. The crowd was screaming bloody murder. Most of them were rabid fangirls so that would explain a lot. But even through the mob of crazy fangirls he could see his best friend. They had been best friends for as long as either of them could remember. He smiled at Tai. Tai was always there for Matt and Matt was always there for Tai. They were inseparable. But things started to change when Matt's career in music took a huge turn and was doing great. Recently he was offered a record deal and now...his own concert. Tai, on the other hand, was given an amazing position at the local high school. He was the English teacher. Tai had always loved literature his whole life and had dreamed of being an English teacher. He was now living his dream. Though he wasn't the only one. Matt was also living his dream. Musician was always the path Matt wanted to follow. And now he was happily skipping down that path. He heard the soft piano melody start signaling it was almost time for him to start singing. One last look at Tai. Matt smile at his best friend who smiled back as Matt started to sing.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

The more he sang the more relaxed he seemed to get. The crowd had finally silenced and was listening in awe as the blonde continued to sing.

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid

He really loved the song he was singing. It was one of his favorites. He had wrote it along time ago when Tai and him went their separate ways. So in a way you could say that Tai was his inspiration for it. But he didn't even dare to tell his friend that. He didn't want it to ruin their friendship. Even if that wasn't how things would turn out Matt was so afraid, so convinced, that it would.

I lose my way. And it's not too long before you point it out. I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes. I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh every day of my life. My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with

For a long period of time he was stuck on that part of the song. Nothing had really happened so he had no inspiration. Then one day he was sitting on his bed trying to think of an ending. He had probably been sitting there for a couple hours when his phone rang. It was his best friend, Tai, no surprise there. Maybe it was time that he told Tai how he felt. For the longest time he felt more than friendship for him.

But Tai had not called just to talk. He actually called to announce that he was engaged and to be married. Matt was crushed but none the less happy for his best friend. Even if it meant misery for himself. If Tai was happy he was happy. Matt stood right by his best friend, as the best man, at his wedding. It killed him inside as they said their vows. "Are there any objections to why these two should not be wed?" But Matt kept his mouth shut. Once again he didn't want to ruin the perfect life Tai was starting.

I watched you die I heard you cry Every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry In the middle of the night For the same damn thing

Matt was even there when Tai's wife lay in bed dying of cancer. Everyday that Tai was there so was Matt. He was there after it all happened and Tai felt like dying himself. But somehow he pulled through it all with his best friend's help.

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid Because of you Because of you

He looked out at the crowd cheering, whistling, screaming his name. It felt good to hear and see all of that but it was even better to express his feelings. His gaze fell upon Tai who wore a smile so big you never could've guess he was hurting inside. The curtains were pulled across the stage as he waved once again to his adoring fans and the one person he ever loved.