Track: Rise Against - This is Letting Go

"And they lived happily ever after."
That's how her story ends.
That's the ending my "sister" gets.

Me? I don't get a "happily ever after." I guess it skipped me, or dear Andromeda kept it all for herself.
It isn't fair!
She ruined everything!
She had everything you could ever want!
"I'm tired of living without love!"
Bitch, please! What was that bond we sisters shared since birth? Acquaintanceship?
She destroyed it all! So why does she get "happily ever after" and I get a giant mess?
She doesn't have to face the consequences for what she's done! She ran off with that-that- that scum! They ran off without having to face the consequences.
BUT I DO!

After Andromeda ran away that day, my world was turned on its head.

I've been prepped for the day Andromeda graduates since Bella's early years of Hogwarts. As the last Black sister, I'm supposed to complete the legacy, to lead my house as my sisters have done. But now? Am I even going to be allowed into my own dormitory?

Everyone thinks I'm her! I'm either slightly crazy and evil like Bella, or a lying bloodtraitor like Andromeda. It's like everyone's waiting for me to show my true colors; to reveal which of them I'm really like.

I'm neither.
And now, I have to prove it.
I have to take back my place in this world.
Take back what my sister stole from under me.

Bella.

I've been worried about her for years.
But her out-there hatred of everything has always been more of an act.
Until Andromeda and that mudblood.
Now, her anger act has become her.
I've lost one sister. Now, I'm loosing the other.

She's so angry! Every little thing sets her off! Bella doesn't come around as much lately. The house hold too many memories of Andromeda, I guess. Good and bad. Any memory of our once-sister is painful.

Andromeda's betrayal has affected Bellatrix more than she'd ever admit. It's ruined her marriage. Although she and Rodolphus never loved each other, there was a faint glimmer of hope that things would work out because they respected each other. Now, they seem to have lost that, too. At least Bella has. She doesn't care for, nor respect Rodolphus in any way, shape or form. His blood status and reputation is the only thing she likes about him.
Bella calls all the shots in that house, for sure. Rodolphus is a prisoner in his own home. I've never seen either of them so unhappy.

No one talks about Andromeda.
Ever.
Doing so would earn you a sharp hex from mother or Bella and a good yelling from father. Father was never angry often. Now, he's a grumpy old man. He's always had a soft spot for his "Darling Daughters," now, he and Bellatrix fight, he wants Andromeda to drop dead, and he keeps glaring at me with scrutinizing eyes, wondering when I'm going to betray him.
I'M NOT ANDROMEDA!
For the love of Merlin!

My name is Narcissa Black, the one who got left with the mess that Andromeda made. And this is my Sixth Year of Hogwarts.

Track: P!nk - Who Knew

I'm afraid.
What are my housemates going to do? Everything's changed.
I had my sixth and seventh years laid out years ago. I'd be on top, calling the shots. Always know what was going on in our house. Now, do i even have friends?
I haven't been friends with the girls in my year since Bellatrix became the queen of the Slytherins in her day. When that happened, everyone instantly liked and respected Andromeda and I, and I began hanging out with the older kids a lot. The bitches in my year got jealous, and we were never friends after that. But it's never bothered me much, since I have my other friends. Now, I have no power or authority. The girls in my year can do whatever they want to me, and I'm not sure if anyone will stop them.
For the first time in my life, I'm not looking forward to school.

I swear I'm the only kid in the history of Hogwarts who has to go to the Hogwarts Express alone.
That's right.
ALONE.

No one goes alone! It's like, a rule that your parents MUST be there to see you off!
My parents have always gone, dressed in their finest, to see us girls off. I thought Bella would've come. I nearly begged her too! If she came, at least my housemates would be a bit scared of me? But Bella growled about going to training with her teacher.
"Teacher" as in Voldemort.
Awesome.
She gave me a hug before she left, and said- "It's your year. Everyone's waiting for you to betray us, but I know you won't Cissy. Show them all. I still believe in you."
It was the first time she's been... human, since Andromeda ran away.
And although I'm scared shitless of school right now, I know I can handle it. I just needed a new perspective.
It's time to turn on survival mode.
This is a war, and I'm going to win.

Hello, hello!
I'm back from the dead!
Say hello to Narcissa!
I've been so busy this summer! I have this week off, so expect a few chapters this week!
However, I'll be away for the next two weeks, so I wont be writing anything during that time.
In the mean time, enjoy!

xoxo IWishIWasAWeasley