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Chapter 1

Gale Hawthorne. The first time I had ever laid eyes on him, I wanted him. I wanted to be with him. I wanted to be wrapped up in his arms. I wanted to have his lips against mine. I wanted to lie down next to him and have him wrap his arms around me and hold me tight against his warm body whenever I got cold. But he only had eyes for one person: Katniss Everdeen.

Of course. Katniss Everdeen, the girl on fire. Of course he loves her. Everyone loves and respects her. Like he'd ever fall for a bitchy victor from District 7 who throws axes at peoples faces. I see the way he looks at her. I watch how his grey eyes light up whenever he sees her. If only he'd look at me that way. I wish. Not even in my wildest dreams, would Gale Hawthorne fall for Johanna Mason.

I messed up that day when I was with Katniss and he walked into the room so to I was just being the bitch that I am to hide my feelings. Crap. I can't even stand being in the same room as him. He makes my heart go really fast. He makes me get butterflies. I didn't want him to see how red my cheeks had gotten after I was being my usual bitchy self, so I left the room as fast as I could.

But now Gale and Katniss and their little 'army' are leaving to rescue her boyfriend, the breadboy in two days. Since half of the country is rebelling against the Capitol and there are Peacekeepers everywhere, they have to travel underground. They were taking a shitload of weapons so I assumed that there would be a lot of trouble and people were going to die and I just couldn't shake the fact that it wasn't safe for them. I thought about Gale. What if he died? The thought was unbearable.

I needed to see him before they left. One day, I did one of the silliest things I could think of. I saw him walking across the underground halls and I caught up with him. "Hey, Gale! What are you doing out here all by yourself?" I asked casually.

"I think the question is, what are you doing wandering around by yourself?"

"Oh, I just decided to get out and explore this place a little," I tried smiling at him and he smiled back at me. I looked at his gorgeous grey eyes, and then… Without thinking, I kissed him full on the lips. Then I realised he was kissing me back. I rest my hands on his chest and he held me on my waist. He put his hand on my neck and entwined his fingers in my hair.

Soon we were in my room and kissing on my bed and he was on top of me. I tugged at his shirt and he raised his upper body to pull it off. We continued to make out and his hands made its way under my top. I straightened my arms to let him remove it from my body. I was wearing my créme coloured bra. He went back to kissing me and then he shifted to my neck and then he was kissing me on my collarbones and from my collarbones he buried his face in my perky breasts, he moved on to stomach and just when he was about to pull of my pants, he stopped. "I can't."

Shit.He stood up and looked at at me lying on the bed. "I'm sorry, Johanna. But, you know I love Katniss."

I just stared him. Why was he doing this? Did he not understand that I wanted him? I wanted him badly. I mean, fuck Katniss. It's not like she's going to take him over breadboy, now is she? He began putting his shirt back on and then I had to react. "Don't go. Please."

He stopped and then he just looked at me. He looked almost as if he felt sorry for me.

"I want you. Badly. Please don't leave."

"I'm… I'm sorry Johanna. You're great and all, but I love Katniss. I always did."

He was about to leave until I half-shouted at him, "And she loves you right? That's what she's got you thinking? You deserve better Gale. In the end she's just going to leave you heart-broken and she's going to run off with breadboy and be all 'Sorry but it's always been him' and you'll probably just be 'It's life' right?"

Gale frowned. I just couldn't stand to think if Katniss ran off with Peeta and left Gale in the dust. It just wasn't right. "I'm sorry" was all he said, and then he left.

So I was left alone. Sitting on my bed feeling like an idiot at how I kissed him out of the blue. That was the last time I'd seen him because I didn't go to see them off when they left. I was too upset at him for being so blind at his love for Katniss.