A/N: Loads of recent updates?? I don't know why I'm just in a stucky mood so I might update a lot more

I bite the edges of my fingers, pacing the hospital waiting room. Goddammit Stevie, you need to be more careful. I can't keep dealing with this. A doctor stepped into the waiting room and my attention darted to them, "Mr. Barnes? You can go and see Mr. Rogers now." She leads me to Steve's room and I take a deep breath, before stepping in. I see Steve, my best friend, the man I fell in love with (even though he doesn't know that), lay there on a hospital, connected to all of these wires, his uneven breaths being the only sound in the room apart from the heart monitor.

Until I start crying.

Shit.

Sobs escape my lips and tears flood down my face rapidly. I pull up a chair beside his hospital bed, taking one of his limp hands in my own shaking hand, "Stevie? Stevie, I don't know if you can hear me right now, but-but I need you to wake up," My eyes shut, tears rolling down my face as I take a shuddering breath, "I need you to wake up for me Stevie, I need you..." I sob again, crying.

After a few hours, Stark pokes his head around the door, "How's Capsicle doing?" He asks quietly. Stark-Tony is the only one who knows I love Steve. Because when you get drunk in Avengers Tower no secret stays safe from Tony Stark.

"No change..."

"Shit..."

Suddenly from beside me, I hear Stevie say in a croaky, hoarse, "Language..."

I turn around rapidly, "Stevie?!"

"Hey Buck..."

I suddenly realise I'm still holding his hand and I drop it quickly and if I see it right, his face falls a little.

"Morning Capsicle, sleep well?" Tony teased with a grin on his face to hide the tears that had dripped down his face.

Steve smiled, laughing a little before putting a hand on his chest, wincing a little in pain. "You gave the lot of us a right scare," Tony said, shaking his head and leaving the room, smiling a little.

I feel myself shaking, tears flooding rapidly down my face still. "Buck? What's wrong?" Steve asked, sounding panicked as I put my head in my hands, a small sob escaping my lips. "Bucky?"

"You're lay here in a fucking hospital bed and I-I wasn't there to protect you! What if-what if you'd died?" I say between sobs, "I can't lose you again, I just got you back..."

"Hey, Buck, look at me," Steve moved my hands from my face and I see him sat up a little, he wipes away my tears, "You won't lose me, I promise."

"Look at where we are Stevie, I could've lost you less than an hour ago."

"I know, Buck, but you're not going to lose me," Stevie took one of my hands and my face went red, "Look, Bucky, I love you. I don't care if you don't feel the same, I need to tell you, I've wanted to tell you forever and then Tony mentioned something to me while we were on the mission, hence why I got distracted."

Stark is so dead.

"I love you Stevie..."

"I love you too Buck and I'll be with you til the end of the line..."

"Til the end of the line."