Disclaimer: Don't own Twilight and the original idea is from AlexisKlainer I just took it on, and changing it slightly.

Chapter 1

Bella POV

Where was he? He should have been here 30 minutes ago, to go and see a movie. I waited.

He will be here soon Bella, you know he will be.

But you are just a human, I mean HAVE YOU SEEN Tanya Denali, I mean she was more like him, he didn't have to be gentle with her.

No he will be here, he promised.

He left you once, he can leave again.

SHUT UP!

I have to stop warring with myself like that, not healthy. But the little red dude in cartoons was right, Tanya was better for him, I caused him physical pain because of the smell of my blood, he had left once, he could leave again. I sat on a bench outside the theatre, sighing. He's gone, he doesn't care, he hates you.

I started to hyperventilate. He would say good bye wouldn't he... Like last time... He lied, he came back, you're his fiancée, with his mothers ring, he would want that back, wouldn't he.

A cold hand touched my shoulder, I gasped. Breathe, Breathe, Breathe. Its only Edward. Breathe he's here he's here he's not gone.

"Bella, love what's the matter?" He asked, seeing my distress. "I'm sorry I scared you." He hugged me close and kissed the top of my head.

"No, its fine Edward... I was just thinking" I blushed, as much as it hurt to say 'I was just thinking you left me again' I thought of the effect it would have on him, the pain he inflicted on himself by leaving me, and how if I said that to him...

"Thinking what love?" I knew he wouldn't force the story out of me but curiosity dripped his voice, as he couldn't read my mind. I must not tell him.

"Why you hadn't come..."

"Oh..." He looked embarrassed and sad. "I was a held up" By what, You mean who... I looked at him.

"By what" I asked I imagined his words 'You human! I have to be so careful with you! I want to live my existence to the full'

"Business" He was cheating on me... This was bad very very bad, how would I survive this... I barely live when he left no reason, how was I going to live if I knew he was happy with someone else.

On the way home I keep my mouth shut, scared that I would say the wrong thing. Edward insisted on driving me home in his Volvo as a sorry for missing the movie, I said it was fine but he insisted. He called Alice to take my truck back.

I looked out off the window of the Volvo. Why was Edward so quiet?

Maybe, you're being paranoid, he probably wants you to break the silence, or he maybe he can see you don't want to talk

Or he could be thinking of a lie

Shut it!

"Bella?" His voice broke the silence, hoarse from the tension.

"Hmm?" Maybe if I didn't use words he wouldn't notice anything

"Bella, could you please look at me? I want to ask you a question if that's okay?"

"Mmm" He took that for a yes.

"What are you thinking?" He looked so heartbroken.

"Not right now Edward, maybe later" I replied, I had wanted to avoid that. I don't care if he hurt me but I couldn't hurt him. And if he was leaving might as well try and draw apart from him.

"Bella, there is something wrong! I can tell, please tell me! I hate seeing you like this! If this is about the movie we can go see another one if you want"

"GOD EDWARD! I said I don't want to talk about it! I mean you first miss the movie and have me sick with worry! Can't you listen to me, I'm your fiancée!" I was on an adrenaline rush! I couldn't stop. "And then you show up and almost give me a heart attack because your a vampire and move around silently! And when I ask where you have been you act all weird and just say business'!" I sucked in a breath after my little speech.

He looked at me, not the road, I mean he never did look at the road because he's a VAMPIRE! His mouth hung open at my outburst.

"I was thinking you had gotten tried of me, really tried of me" I turned my head away, I couldn't look at him. "Of course, I knew I wasn't good enough for you, I don't know why I even felt anything, I knew you wouldn't bother returning the love of a pointless little human."

Edward gasped. We were outside Charlie's house now. I opened the door.

"See you around Edward, or not good bye" I ran up the porch, when I closed the door I heard his car speed away.

"Hey Bell" Charlie said

"Hey dad, I'm really tired so can I talk to you in the morning?"

"Sure thing"Another good thing about Charlie is that he doesn't ask questions.

I ran upstairs and ripped a scrap of paper from my not book

Edward,

Hey I want sometime time to think things through. I hope you don't mind.

Bella.

I shut my window and locked it, I taped the not to the window so he would see it. I did my human things and climbed into bed.

He's a vampire, he doesn't have to stay with you every night, but he does, doesn't that show that he loves you.

Yeah, but he did leave you and you were thinking that he was cheating on you

I did some thinking... And I think he loves me very much

Are you sure

SHUT UPPPP!