This is a one-shot song fiction about Tom's time in jail; takes place in Draw the Line. The song is Animal I have become by Three Days Grace. I heard this song and thought about Hanson. Hope you like it.
How did it come to this? Here I am sitting in a cell. My cell. I have become the bad guy, that I spent my whole career arresting. I have become the animal I had despised. Breaking an entry. Shooting at a cop. Running. Hiding. Getting caught. Sitting in the court. Hearing my name. "Tom Hanson…Guilty of murder." Me, a cop, guilty of murder. I see my mother crying. My Captain and my friends, shaking their heads in disbelief. What have I become? Who will save me for the nightmare?
I can't escape this hell So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
somebody help me tame this animal
Taunted. As they yell through out the prison. "Pig" and "Fish". They want nothing more then to see a cop fall to the bottom. They torment me, making my heart harden against the world. My cellmate will not be there to stop them when they come for me. This all just a big nightmare this cannot be happening. Tom Hanson, son of a respectable cop, a respectable cop myself, loyal friend, caring son, loving boyfriend (when I have someone to love)…murderer. This cannot be. I didn't kill that cop. I'm innocent. My mind is going crazy. I can't control it.
I can't escape myself So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
So many times I've lied
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
somebody help me tame this animal
I have become them. Fighting to survive. They gang up on me. One against twelve. Fair. I think not. But I fight anyway. I want to hurt them. I want them to feel the pain. Pain that they make me feel. And who the guards pull away. Not the twelve men who attacked me. But they pull me away like I was the bigger threat. Sitting alone in solitary. Not a good thing for me, as I rerun the events that lead me here. I have seen the future for the kids that I busted, the kids that I put away. This feel just like when the four of us when into youth authority. Doug was right, being here doesn't scare anyone, but there is nothing left to be afraid of.
Somebody help me through this nightmare So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this animal
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
somebody help me tame this animal
My best friend Doug and my nemesis Booker, found a way to get me. I will always be grateful to them. They should have left me there to die, because these images will never leave my mind. My heart hardens towards other. Never letting any close to me again. Doug the only one I can trust, even he doesn't know about the nightmares that come to me every night. I'm not afraid of anything anymore, not even death. I would welcome it. Just to make the nightmares end, these nightmares that I cannot tame. I don't like the person I have become. I'm dying inside, but my body remains. I have no care in the world, just like an animal.