A/N: I'm excited to say that this is my first actual story to be written. I'm a tad surprised by this considering, I have at least three other stories completely thought out and have outlined this one however was a whim when thinking about what would've happened had Jasper not been part of the Cullens, I have nothing planned or thought out for this story... but for some reason this is only one I seem to be making any progress on, so if you have any thoughts as to what would liven the story up a bit feel to free to suggest, I don't promise to use it, but it couldnt hurt. I also apologize now for the numerous errors I'm sure are to be found, I have no beta, and unfortunately went to school in Florida, so grammar was not really an important factor there, since it wasn't fcat material.

Please feel free to leave any constructive critism, it'll be helpful for me. Also let me know if you think this is even worth continueing, or if I should stop embarrassing myself.

Disclaimer: I am not Stephenie Meyer. I am simply a fangirl obsessing and tweaking while waiting for Breaking Dawn and The movie to be released. I'm broke, I'll be just as broke with this posted and being read, theres nothing to sue for.

"Dad, I'm going out." I waited for a reply, when I didn't hear one I checked the window and sure enough the cruiser was gone. So I settled on leaving a note, on the off chance Charlie would get home before I did.

Dad, not wasting the sunny day, in a meadow I found. Be back later

-B

When I steped outside I stood there a moment basking in the sun, that was to rarely seen in this wonderful town of Forks. This was the first summer that I was allowed to do whatever I pleased, but I guess having lived here a year would warrent that change.

With that thought I got inside my truck and started on my way.

Renee had been disappointed when I told her I was going to stay in Forks for the summer, instead of going to visit her in Jacksonville. I used the excuse that, since this was the Prime season for Phil, that she should stay and travel with him during the summer. I might have lied and said something about summer school also.

I would never admit to anyone the real reason I decided to stay in Forks for the summer, was one Edward Cullen. I was pathetic when it came to him. I couldn't bear the thought of leaving Forks, and not having even the possibility that I might randomly run into him somewhere. Although in the last 3 weeks I hadn't seen hyde or hair from him. I was starting to wonder if maybe I had made him up.

He was what had gotten me through junior year at Forks High School. His beautiful bronze colored unrulie hair, the beautiful pale colored skin he had, his gorgeous golden eyes, but it wasn't just the delectable eye candy he was to me that gotten me through the year, it was the mystery that followed him.

Why was he that pale? why did it look like he never got any sleep? why didn't he ever eat? why did his eyes change from gold to black and then go back to gold? Although they were all adopted, why did they all resemble each other, with the extreme pale skin, the gold eyes that went to black and back to gold, they never ate either, and they all appeared to never get any sleep.

These last couple weeks outside of school had made me feel like a stalker though, I watched them. Especially Edward. I had always been aware of where he was, it wasn't a concious thing that I did, it just happened.

I was pretty sure I was in love with him. From afar anyway. Unrequited love doesn't even come close to what this was. Unrequited awknowledgement is more acurate. The Cullen and Hale kids where the only ones who didn't go apeshit about me being the new girl. Everyone else in the school had gone out of their way to try and herd me into their group of friends. They didn't even awknowledge my pressence.

When I pulled over to walk into the meadow I grabbed my copy of Wuthering Heights and walked slowly through the forest. I had bested my own personal record of only tripping twice. It was going to be a good day.

After a few hours of walking I finally came into the circular meadow, I was again momentarily stunned by its beauty, with the sun shining down inside of it, and the flowers all around, it was gorgeous. I sat down in the center. I meant to read, but the sun felt to good seaping into my skin, something I hadn't felt in so long.

I layed down thinking of all the different places I could feel the heat soaking into me.

I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I knew I bolted upright by the sound of vicious snarl, it was the most terrifying sound I'd ever heard in my life. I stood to get back to the car, incase the animal wasn't satisfied with its prey and came looking for something else. I stopped in my tracks when I turned to leave.

Crouched down, in an attack stance was... a boy? In my haze of terror I realized that he was the thing making the snarls and growls, I also realized he was glittering... he looked like he was made out of crystals or diamonds.

A realization slammed into me then. I was his PREY! He was going to attack me. I tried to run but he was fast. He was in front of me in a matter of seconds. He brought me right up to his face and I starred into his Golden eyes. Even in the midst of the complete panic, I knew who had eyes like that. Even when facing death, my thoughs couldn't be kept off of Edward. I didn't have long to dwell on that fact however, my attacker brought his face down and bit down into my neck.

I could feel the pressure of his lips sucking the blood out of the wound he had made. In my lightheaded daze the word Vampire flitted into my head. I had finally figured out the Cullen Mystery and I was going to die within minutes of that discovery. As soon as that thought crossed my mind, the attacker roughly pushed me away and to the ground. Now I was going to die alone, at least before, there was someone with me, granted it had been my attacker, but it was still someone nonetheless.

Everything went black for awhile. I kept thinking I was dead and then the quote "I think therefore I am" would pop into my head, and make me change my mind. After a few minutes thats when the pain came.

Pain doesnt even seem an acurate word for it. It was beyond pain. It was beyond Agony. It felt like I was set on fire, from the outside and on the inside. The fire was everwhere! I tried to curl into a ball to escape the pain, but the slightest movement was like adding fuel to the fire. I realized only after my throat was horse that I had been screaming.

In the midst of the pain I felt someone take my hand and hold it. I opened my eyes and saw it was the boy who attacked me. He looked more human now. Regret in his now red eyes, and pain and remourse etched into every part of his face. He started speaking and I would only hear bits of it in the haze of the excrutiating torture I was going through.

He kept saying he was sorry. That he was a horrible creature to have done this to me. I wanted to tell him I forgive him, that he was making up for it by sitting here and holding my hand, so I wouldn't die alone, but I had no energy. Finally I let unconciousness take me as everything went black and thankfully numb.