No one really understands what this life is like for me. Maybe if you had just one day in my shoes, then just maybe you would understand. Who am I kidding? No one will ever care about anything that happens to me. So what's the point of standing here? What is the point of trying to make all of you understand when you don't? Well I will tell you why. I'm still standing here because I know that in the end I will over come more troubles and hardships than any of those people combined. I will be able to look ahead of what life has in store, instead of dwelling on the past. Yeah I know that life really sucks at times, but you need to over come all of those words they say, all of those things they have done, because honestly they know nothing about you. I'm here to tell you that if you're gay that's totally ok, because you will fine someone who is worthy of your love and affection. I found mine many years ago, and I still think about him till this day.
My Alec was the most bravest, stubborn and most loving person I have ever known. He knew exactly what to say and when to say it. When I was having an especially bad day, he wouldn't hesitate to come over and cheer me up no matter what her was currently doing at the time. He would make all of these sacrifices just to make sure that I was ok. Now that is a sign of true love and no force can ever take that away from me. When I mean no force, I truly mean no force. Death. Being one of the strongest forces of them all can't keep him away from me. Even though he is no longer physically standing next to me, holding my hand, or kissing me. I still know that he is here with ever fiber of my being I know.
So the next time someone thinks that they know more of you than you know, just think about someone who makes you feel important. That time when you feel that your life is spiraling out of control, think about someone who you know loves you with ever fiber of his or her being. If you think that you don't have someone that cares for you and loves you, I promise you that there is, and they are waiting for you too look up and acknowledge them. So just think before you act. Think before you do something to hurt you or anyone you love. If you're standing on that ledge and you want to jump please don't. You know why? Because you are worth more than every star in the sky, more than all the riches and treasures of this world. All of those things are replaceable, but you, your life and spirit are not. You are one of a kind and always will be. If you think you are alone in this world KNOW that you are not. There will always be someone waiting and watching, someone who would die for you.
Please I'm begging you don't leave this world without knowing that there is someone waiting to hold you, stand by you and love you will ever fiber of their being. Don't give up hope. Don't put down the book until you've reached the end. Instead of thinking of what happened in the past or what is currently happing think about what the future is like. Remember today is just today, tomorrow is unknown, and yesterday was a thing of the past. The only thing of the past you should dwell on is the ones who love you, because they will never ever truly leave you.