dedicated to MOLLYDUONG3

this fanfic is about Lenalee and Allen. it follows right after the manga chapter 168 when the hitler dude was about to announce allen's secret. its my alternate version of what happens after and i created a moment all to lenalee and allen where she finally admitts her love.

PLEASE REVIEW!! (: i tried my very best to make it ROMANTIC AND SWEET AS POSSIBLE3

Allen walker is the 14th noah. He now has a duty to protect the people and fight against the level 4 akumas. And last but not least, he has to do this alone. This news was broadcast to every excorcist and person working within the order 2 days ago, and since then the mood has gone down to a gloomy and depressed feeling. Even Komui disapproves of it, but the pope's order is law amongst the order.

This breaking news upsetted everyone, especially Lenalee who's heart is fragile enough to break if another life was lost. To Lenalee, Allen is more than just a comrade, he became someone that she fell in love with during tragic events and dark times. The only problem is she doesnt know how to tell him how she feels, or worse. finding out if he feels the same way about her. Her love for him became so entirely strong that she would give her own life to be with him.

Lenalee walked down the halls of the black order alone in the middle of the night, pacing up and down. she was debating with herself if it was the right time to tell Allen how she felt. The door to his room was only 5 feet away. she began to wonder what he could possibly be doing in there, and then thought to herself if he ever thought of her during the quiet nights like this alone.

" I.. I want to tell Allen-kun how i feel about him before its too late.." she thought to herself with warming eyes. " ...but how do i say it ? how do i tell him my heart !" Lenalee punched the wall next to her in anger and fear all together, her eyes and fist clenched together as tears began to stream down her eyes.

"hello ? whos there?" Allen asked as he opened the door. Lenalee looked shocked and puzzled until she realized that it wasn't a wall that she punched, it was Allen's door. she must've lost track of where she was pacing when she was deep in thought.

"A-Allen-kun.. I-I'm sorry for disturbing you!" she stuttered in embarassment as she tried to hide her red face. Allen looked at her puzzled and laughed.

"It's alright Lenalee, why dont you come in ? its cold walking around in the hallways by yourself." he said as he gave her a warm smile. Lenalee looked at him with a bit of curiosity. Did he know that she was pacing back and forth by herself all this time?

"Allen, there is something i really want to tell you.." she murmured sitting down on his bed. " but, there are so many things i want to tell you that i don't know where to start." she said to him looking towards the floor.

"Lenalee..? Is there something wrong?" he looked at her in concern as he sat down next to her. " You know that you can tell me anything and i will listen." he told her with utmost sincerity.

"he will listen.. he is concerned.. heh." she thought to herself. " All the characteristics of a brother, not a lover.." she smiled sadly and looked up deep into his eyes. His eyes which are cursed and carry the burden of seeing the akuma souls. staring at him with so much love in her expression she wished that she could just take that pain and burden away from him and put it all on herself. Without knowledge of it, her hands slowly rose to carress his soft cheeks.

"Lenalee..? a-are you ok ..?" Allen's voice snapped her back to reality.

"I-I'M sorry Allen... I should go now." she shook herself back to reality and felt embarassment as she walked towards the door. suddenly she felt a hand grabbing onto hers. when she turned around, she saw Allen looking back at her. his face showed no emotion and his eyes were fixed on hers. Lenalee thought to herself that he was never more handsome than he is at this very moment.

"Lenalee, please take care of yourself alright ?" he said with all the care his voice could muster.

"of course Allen." she responded with a smile as he let her go. she realized that the reason he said that to her was because Allen was going to leave tomorrow for his endless battle against the level four akuma, which the earl sent to destroy the black order. She thought to herself that she was never going to be able to tell him her feelings.

-- NEXT MORNING--

" soo.. can you tell me why you are in my room ?" Kanda said in annoyance as he was meditating.

" i just like to meditate, is that a crime?" Lenalee giggled while trying to concentrate like Kanda.

" You know you dont like it, ever since we were kids you hated meditating, i know it's something else.."

" ahaha, you always seem to know kanda." she smiled looking towards the ever so concetrated kanda. " eversince we were little you always knew if i had something on my mind, or if i was hiding something. It never occured to me until now that we know a lot about each other."

"yeah." kanda opened his eyes and looked at Lenalee who was now rocking back and forth, with her hands holding on to her knees in a childish manner. He remembered how Lenalee mistakened him for a girl the first time they met 10 years ago and how he played along because he didnt want to have to break the news to her. They had so many memories together and he always wondered why he was never really able to talk to her about things that he himself kept bottled up.

"you know kanda, we've known each other for so long and i wonder why we never really had a good conversation." she smiled at him. " you always listen to me, but you never really talk."

"why are you here anyway ? i know that it's not because you want to meditate.." in a flash he changed the subject.

"i just want to talk to you ! i mean within our 10 years together i realize i dont know much about you." she said in a cute little voice.

"Today is bean-sprouts last day here, you know that don't you ?" he said bluntly. " shouldn't you go and spend as much time with him as you can?"he asked as he continued to meditate calmly as if there was no distraction.

"why are you trying to change the subject Kanda ! can't i just be here with you ?!" she said loudly half irritated.

"because i know you enough to know that its not me that you want to see, its that boy." he calmly said as he broke off from his meditative state. " if the reason why you are here is because you don't want to see him leave, you should think about how he feels if you arent there to see him off."

"I cant kanda.. i just can't." she sadly told him. " besides would it really matter to him if he saw me today or not ? There are going to be so many people seeing him off.." her eyes began to water while she attempted to wipe them away without kanda's knowledge.

" Lenalee, if there's one thing i know about you from all our time together is that you are a stong young lady who never gives up." he said with a mighty voice. "but right now all i see is a weak, insecure, little girl. What happened to the Lenalee i know ?" he demanded.

" i dont know, i can't find her right now.. there are so many things going through my mind. I dont want Allen-kun to go !" she yelled with her hands covering her face.

"do you love him?" he asked bluntly. she looked up at him with wide eyes and paused.

"I do love him." Lenalee finally admitted to herself. " I love him so much and i want to tell him, no matter what the outcome is."

"Now that is the Lenalee that i have come to know" kanda smiled. " you have grown to be quite a matured lady"

"thank you kanda for helping me realize my feelings." she thanked him and leaned over to give him a hug.

BAMMMMM! "YUU, WE ARE GOING TO MISS ALLEN'S GOING AWAY-- LENALEE?! YUU?! WHAAAT!?"

--DUN DUN DUNNN AHAHAH--

"shutup you damn rabbit.." kanda said in annoyance slapping his hand to his forhead.

"lavi, its not what you think." lenaleee sweatdropped in laughter.

" i cant believe this ! This whole time right in front of me and i never knew !" lavi shouted out in shock and confusion running around like an idiot. It was actually a very funny sight.

--THAT NIGHT--

Everyone crowded around the dining hall getting ready to eat, but not to everyone's surprise Allen was already halfway into all the food that the chef made especially for him. Since it was his last night with them, everybody laughed and cheered just having a great time without worry. Lavi tried alcohol for the first time and became drunk causing Lenalee to watch over the boy. Kanda at his soba in silence. Komui was being attacked for bringing his komurin to the party. And Allen who was in the middle of eating watched everyone in their moment of fun thinking about how much he would miss everyone.

Lenalee on the otherhand, (she tied lavi up) thought about joining Allen in his Akuma battle. She didnt want Allen to have to fight alone and remembered how she told him to always fight along side his comrades. This time she wants to follow her own advice. It was the end of the party and everyone surrounded the perimeter of the great hall as Allen stood by himself in the middle. It was time for him to go and the doors were opening for his take off. Next to Allen was timcanpi, his golem that stood by his side through everything. every single person from the order was there and watched him silently with regret and sorrow in there eyes.

"ALLEN- KUN! wait" Lenalee cam running out from the crowd pushing people out of her way. Allen turned around to see her running towards him. before he could say her name she jumped on him with so much force that it nearly caused him to fall back. She held him in a tight embrace and shoved her face into his chest. For a moment it was just the two of them locked together in a never ending embrace. Allen was surprised and so was the crowd. Komui in the other hand was being restrained by reever and the other science department from lashing out at Allen.

"MY BEAUTFUL LENALEE! SOMEONE SAVE HER ! ALLEN I WILL KILL YOU!" komui hollered as more people restricted him.

"what ?! but Yuu i thought -- SHE'S CHEATING ON YOU !" lavi yelled frantically.

"well you thought wrong you stupid rabbit.." kanda sighed.

Allen, i dont want you to go.." Lenalee broke the embrace. "not without me." she said determined, looking deep into his eyes.

"Lenalee.. im sorry but you can't." he said with more concern.

"why Allen ! why cant you unerstand ? i want to help you.. i want to be with you !"

"Lenalee you just can't !" he yelled.

" I LOVE YOU ALLEN." she blurted out in one loud response. the halls were all silent watching them in amazement. Love between two excorcist was unheard of until now.

"Lenalee..."

"i want to go with you allen, i dont want to lose you ever again. i will be happy if i could stay by your side even if it means dying by your side." she cried. " don't you understand Allen ? i have fallen in love with you and if you leave me now i dont know what i would do."

Allen looked at her with a warming expression and smiled. he wrapped one of his arms around her waist and the other hand tangled in her hair as he leaned down and kissed her passionately on the lips. Her eyes were closed as she accepted it without surprise as if she knew all along it was coming. Both excorcists stood in the middle of the whole order revealing there love for one another. Their lips were locked and the only thing going through there mind at the moment were eachother. Suddenly everyone within the order began to clap for them. Everybody within the room already expected it to happen sooner or later and welcomed the moment. Even komui who detest the fact that Lenalee is in love approved of this love. All exccept Lavi who remained clueless were happy for them.

Lenalee and Allen broke away from there kiss and he began to talk.

" Lenalee, i need you to stay here dont you understand ? i would never let you go with me even if you wanted to." he smiled at her with his hand against her soft cheeks. "if you are dead who is there for me to protect? it destroys the whole purpose of me going out there and risking my life"

"Allen..." her eyes gleamed as she listened to him.

"I dont ever want your life to be in danger, please be safe so i can have a reason to protect." his eyes revealed so much love and passion. "stay here and it will give me a reason to come back home."

"I'll stay here Allen, and I'll wait for you to come back, but first you have to promise me that when you return and all is peaceful again..." she paused for a second. "you will give me a little boy that i can name Allen after his father." she said aloud and flushed.

The crowd who over heard her remark gasped in wonder. Komui fainted. Lavi whistled and did a hooray for Allen. Kanda sighed and thought about the little bean sprout running around and annoying him. Allen, who was shocked at her response turned bright red. His eyes widened and he paused for a moment before he laughed.

" That's a promise." he said with a hint of happiness in his voice. Allen began to break apart while holding onto her hand. Lenalee held onto it as it slowly slipped away as he walked on further until they finally broke apart. the doorz closed and she stood there alone once again.

Will you come back home to me..? That's a promise.

I'm thinking about making another chapter to this one. what do you think ? should i continue ? should i write a story about what happens when allen is fighting ? or when he returns? IF he returns...?! WELL LET ME KNOW THROUGH REVIEWS PLEASE ! (: