Duvet
by Rien
Standard Disclaimers Apply
Author's Notes: This is a songfic (duh), well, taken from the Opening Song of Serial Experiments Lain
~*And you don't seem to understand
A shame you seemed an honest man*~
When I saw you for the first time, with your honey-brown eyes that sparkle with life, I thought I saw the person that would make my life worth living. I thought you can help me to overcome my coldness and express myself once again. I thought that you can cast me some of your fire to melt the barrier I've set on myself away from other people.
~*And all the fears you hold so dear
Will turn to whisper in your ear*~
Then you headbutted me for the fear that the only girl that you want to court may hate you. Fear with hate is what I felt everytime you headbutted me. I ddin't want things like that from you. your fear of rejection slowly rising as the Captain's sister screams my name and blushes with her eyes becoming hearts.
~*And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing*~
I noticed your pain when everytime the others make fun of you. the way you play, the way you shoot, the way you dribble. I would notice everything form you. I would know the facade your playing when you laughed at everything with your egoistic manner. I know the mask you put on everythime you sing your song. They would not notice. They would not understand, but I do.
~*I am falling, I am fading
I have lost it all*~
I only stand there watching your every move and say my famous one liner. I know I can get your true feelings out one way or the other. I know that I can do that with my cold stare. I might help you. The question is that, will you help me as well?
~*And you don't seem the lying kind
A shame then I can read your mind*~
I knew that I can read you like a open book becuase we are like the same. We are bothwearing masks and that we try to draw them away. I know your movements, why... Why can't you see in my eyes that I want to help you ease your burdens?
~*And all the things that I read there
Candle lit smile that we both share*~
I know that you can see in my eyes that I know what your hiding. I know that everything was a facade, that everything you do is a mask that you constantly wear. That's why I took the oppurtunity one night to ask you, to give you a piece of my mind, to give you a hope as well as myself.
"Do'aho.." I said. Your face contorted with anger then you easily repressed it.
"What do you want, Kitsune?" you asked. I stalked toward you and grabbed the front of your shirt and pressed my lips on yours. I kissed you with all the desire I've been keeping. We broke the contact and looked at those eyes.
~*and you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing*~
You pushed me roughly aside and walked away. I wanted to run towards you but you turned to face me. Your eyes speak everything about you.
"Get away from me, Rukawa..." you said then twisted to run away.
~*I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing
Help me to breathe*~
That was then I knew that you don't want my help. That was then I knew that I'm alone once again. That was I knew that you would not help me melt the barrier. Now I knew that I'm destined to be alone.
~*OWARI*~
by Rien
Standard Disclaimers Apply
Author's Notes: This is a songfic (duh), well, taken from the Opening Song of Serial Experiments Lain
~*And you don't seem to understand
A shame you seemed an honest man*~
When I saw you for the first time, with your honey-brown eyes that sparkle with life, I thought I saw the person that would make my life worth living. I thought you can help me to overcome my coldness and express myself once again. I thought that you can cast me some of your fire to melt the barrier I've set on myself away from other people.
~*And all the fears you hold so dear
Will turn to whisper in your ear*~
Then you headbutted me for the fear that the only girl that you want to court may hate you. Fear with hate is what I felt everytime you headbutted me. I ddin't want things like that from you. your fear of rejection slowly rising as the Captain's sister screams my name and blushes with her eyes becoming hearts.
~*And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing*~
I noticed your pain when everytime the others make fun of you. the way you play, the way you shoot, the way you dribble. I would notice everything form you. I would know the facade your playing when you laughed at everything with your egoistic manner. I know the mask you put on everythime you sing your song. They would not notice. They would not understand, but I do.
~*I am falling, I am fading
I have lost it all*~
I only stand there watching your every move and say my famous one liner. I know I can get your true feelings out one way or the other. I know that I can do that with my cold stare. I might help you. The question is that, will you help me as well?
~*And you don't seem the lying kind
A shame then I can read your mind*~
I knew that I can read you like a open book becuase we are like the same. We are bothwearing masks and that we try to draw them away. I know your movements, why... Why can't you see in my eyes that I want to help you ease your burdens?
~*And all the things that I read there
Candle lit smile that we both share*~
I know that you can see in my eyes that I know what your hiding. I know that everything was a facade, that everything you do is a mask that you constantly wear. That's why I took the oppurtunity one night to ask you, to give you a piece of my mind, to give you a hope as well as myself.
"Do'aho.." I said. Your face contorted with anger then you easily repressed it.
"What do you want, Kitsune?" you asked. I stalked toward you and grabbed the front of your shirt and pressed my lips on yours. I kissed you with all the desire I've been keeping. We broke the contact and looked at those eyes.
~*and you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing*~
You pushed me roughly aside and walked away. I wanted to run towards you but you turned to face me. Your eyes speak everything about you.
"Get away from me, Rukawa..." you said then twisted to run away.
~*I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing
Help me to breathe*~
That was then I knew that you don't want my help. That was then I knew that I'm alone once again. That was I knew that you would not help me melt the barrier. Now I knew that I'm destined to be alone.
~*OWARI*~