Authors Note: *sighs* okay i just got this idea but i don't know nothing is going to make since I'm just kinda doing this to keep my mind busy so this story is kinda pointless but if you like it then yeahh idk but here you go. oh it's a song fic btw. So listen to the song if you want to while you read it. It's from where you are by Lifehouse...
I took a shaky breath before I pushed the black gates open. The wind blowing my black dress in between my legs while I walked. I pushed my red hair out of my face while my black heels sank into the ground a little while I walked. I had white lilies in my left hand. And a little shoe box underneath my right arm.
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
I knew where i was going. Even though i've only been here once. It was memorized in my mind. I guess things like this stick in your mind no matter how hard you try to forget. I was standing in front of the white rock now. I sat the shoebox down and smoothed out my dress before i followed.
"Looks like I'm not the only who came to visit huh?" I whispered while looking at all the other flowers littering the tombstone. There were some letters getting held down by rocks and a couple of weeds growing.
I fumbled with the end of my jean jacket before I spoke again. "It's been a year.." the tears were threatening to fall down my face but i held them back. "I'm sorry...I haven't been to visit..Truth be told...I didn't think I could handle it..." the wind blew across my face again. "is that you? I hope..." I looked up at where the stars were shining brightly up in the sky. "I remember when we would lay in my back yard..Just looking at stars...we tried to make up our own constellations...but we could never find them again..And we knew we wouldn't but we didn't care it was just something to do..." I choked as a hot sob came out setting the tears free from the gate that was holding them back. "Come back...
So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here
I clenched the grass in between my hands while the tears kept falling down my face." I can't live without you. Please come back.." I let out another sob. I opened my eyes while i stared at the ground that held my best friend. "Why did you drive to that party?! I should have driven you like you asked me too..."
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
I shook my head as I opened up the shoebox and dumped out all of its contents. I picked up the first picture I saw. I flipped it over to face the tombstone." Do you remember this day? Me and you just got done rearranging my room after we painted it. We were covered in more paint then my walls. You grabbed my camera pulled my close an then just snapped the picture. You didn't care we both looked like crap. You said this was your favorite one of us." I threw it down to the ground and picked up another one " What about this one? It was the day that we made our pact to be friends forever no matter what happened. We were at the pool. You said "No matter what happens I'll always be there" But you aren't here anymore!!! You LIED!!!" I looked at the picture again and then tore it down the middle. Then again and again till it was nothing. "You left me here all alone...you promised you'd be here for me..." I clutched my chest.
I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
I picked up one of the notes I saw earlier. "Alec moved to Michigan...He said he couldn't handle being in a place where you once lived...I haven't seen him since the funeral..." I laid the note back underneath the rock. "Everyone moved away...It's just me in the apartment now..I haven't even touched your room...it's still the same as when you left." I let a shaky breath come out "Can you ever forgive me...I know it's my fault your gone...I should of drove you..I shouldn't of called you to see if you left yet..." I closed my eyes. "I heard you scream...and i heard the tires squeal...I heard the metal crushing you..."
I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
Yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
"I still have nightmares about that...It never leaves my mind..." I looked at the grass."Winter just passed...and every time it snowed or got to like 24 degrees..I always wondered if you got cold...or if the ground was keeping you warm...wanna know something sad..." I looked away."The drunk driver that hit you..He didn't get anything done to a single thing..He got away from the crash with a couple of bruises and scratches...and when he left the hospital...he got like a day in jail..then they put him in rehab for 5 months...but you didn't get away..."
So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
And I wish you were here
"I'm so scared...I'm scared that one day I will wake up and not remember you...or any of our memories together...That one day...This would all have been a dream of a person I never knew." I felt rain drops start falling on my head then it started down pouring. "I better get going...your mom is meeting me soon to give me something..." I grabbed all the contents and put them back into the shoebox and placed it in the front of the tombstone and stood up. " I turned to walk away " I miss you Izzy..."