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OK A LITTLE BIT OF A SPOILER ALERT. NO MORE THAN WHAT YOU GET ON THE T.V. THOUGH.
I'm proudly (trying to stay) spoiler free! So without further ado, I present…
If I Float Away
Tonight is first time I know for certain that Booth's and my relationship has changed. Today we completed a tough a case and instead of celebrating with our usual congratulatory drinks, we both had gone home. He had Hannah now. Sitting alone in my living room I knew it was me who pushed our relationship to a change. I knew that it was my fault that instead of being mildly intoxicated with the best friend I had ever known, I was in my apartment mildly intoxicated on my own, with my lonely bottle of wine. At least it is good wine. I am used to being alone. If that's the sacrifice I have to make for Booth to be happy with Hannah then that's what I'll do. He doesn't deserve to love someone like me, he'll see that soon. Just like everyone else. They all left me, no one ever came back. I've had relationships and friendships. All failed. The conversations were just not good enough anymore, or the figurative weight of my past too heavy for the present. We all drifted apart and not one of them tried to hold on, my grip always a little tighter than theirs. After my parents left is when I learned to be the one with the looser grip. Figuratively speaking.
I almost missed the knocking through my alcohol induced state. I must have had more to drink than I thought. When I get to the door a peek at who's on the other side, I want to not be shocked, but I am. And when I open the door and he smiles at me holding Thai food and asking to come in I wonder what he's doing here.
"Where's Hannah?" The words are out before I can even think to know if I want the answer. The question would have been asked either way. He tells me she's at her place as he puts some plates on the table. I ask him why he wasn't spending time with her after such a tough case
He asks "Do you remember when you were dating Hacker and I told you what goes on between us is ours…?" He leaves it open ended and through my general obtuseness and the alcohol I understand what he's saying. Suddenly I feel his tight grip on my wrist and when I look up into his eyes, I know why he's here. To be my friend. To be the one person who will hold my hand tighter than I hold his.
A.N. So I get a lot of requests for me to continue stories. I usually only like oneshots but I'm trying to give the chapter story thing a try, so I don't know if I could continue this but it's up to you guys wheter I try or not. =) Thanks for reading!