Um...hi! This is my first fanfic, well the first I'm posting.

Dedicated to nexuswarrior, as a thanks for the fanfic she dedicated to me *bows respectfully*^^

Pairing: IchigoxRukia

Anime: Bleach

Disclaimer: Sadly, I own neither Ichigo and Rukia nor Bleach (I wouldn't be here then^^ And this would have been in the mainstory then)

Just something that shot through my mind while taking a walk. It's an One-Shot featuring the 3rd Bleach Movie. Ichigos feelings after he finds out, that Rukia does not remember him.

Have fun reading!^^

Never let you go

„Who are you? How do you know my name?"

Her words were repeating themselves in his head, over and over again. Ichigo sat in front of an inhabited house, lost in thoughts and filled by despair, staring ahead without seeing. He was confused, unable to focus his thoughts, which were circling around one thing.

Why?, he asked himself. Why did they forget me? Why did YOU forget me, Rukia? He had no answer. After all that they had been through, how could this possibly happen?

He wished that someone would erase him, it just hurt to much, knowing that no one knew of his existence, not even her. He thought he could bear it, that she would surely remember him, she at least. The person, who had saved his life, not only once, but twice. The person who had become his most important treasure, his best friend, one he would trade his life for.

Rukia, he thought and a sharp pain shot through him, deepening the wound he knew would never heal.

"Who are you? How do you know my name?"

As she had said these words, he had felt like his heart had been detached from his body. It hurt so much. Even thinking her name hurt now. Yet, he could not stop himself from thinking about her, reliving every single time with her. Why does it hurt that much? He had been stabbed by swords, his other friends had told him they couldn't remember him and yet, nothing of it had hurt this much.

He let out a heavy sigh, still oblivious to his surroundings.. At this rate, I'm going to loose myself. He did not even have the strength to wonder about himself, about his indifferent way he regarded this knowledge with. It didn't matter. There was no one there anyway.

Rukia, did you really forget about me? It was over. He had given up. And yet, his mind kept torturing him, giving him hope, which was only being crushed and turning to despair each time her confused face, not betraying even a single hint of recognition came across his mind. He wanted to run, to forget, but he couldn't.

He tried to think about other things, but there were none. A memory of the first meeting crossed his mind. For a moment, he let himself drown into that memory, the memory of the day with had changed his life:

"Run!" He shouted to the little girl. Together they run from the destruction. Then the girl tripped. Stopping in his tracks, he turned around, reaching out for the girl. That was when he first saw one. A huge monster. Wearing a white mask. It was undoubtedly the cause for all the destruction. Everyone around was oblivious to this things presence, so he guessed that it was a ghost. He couldn't move. He just stared at the thing which made its way towards him, making noises which remembered distantly of someone laughing. Then he saw a butterfly. And then a girl, her, Rukia. She had unsheathed her sword and killed that thing. He clearly remembered his surprise. She had not reacted as he had asked who she was. She had just turned and left. The same day, in the evening, they met again. This time he had successfully drawn her attention to him. She had told him that she was a Shinigami, a death god who killed evil spirits called 'Hollows' and who buried souls. She had told him that the monster he had seen earlier that day was a Hollow. He had not believed her words. But her words had turned out true. A Hollow had attacked his family. Despite her warnings, he had tried to fight against it. She had jumped in between, sustaining heavy injuries which immobilized her. Just as he was about to loose hope for savior, she had spoken.

"Do you want to save your family?" "Yes, is there a way?" "Just one..." she had answered, while strengthening up and pointing her sword at him. "..you have to become a Shinigami yourself" He stared at her. "You will have to thrust this blade through your heart. I will then transfer my powers to you. I do not know if it will work, but its the only way. If we fail, both of us will die" He had been afraid at first. Then... "Okay, Shinigami. Give me your sword" "Not 'Shinigami'", she had said, smiling. "Its Kuchiki Rukia" "And my name is Kurosaki Ichigo", he had answered and together they had thrust the blade. That was his beginning as a Shinigami, a substitute Shinigami. To be correct. The following month he had helped her with her work. It had stopped when two fellows appeared and had attacked her, saying she had committed a serious crime and taking her away, to execute her.

That was his first encounter with other Shinigamis. He would have died there, if it hadn't been for her. He had followed her after regaining his powers which he had lost during that encounter. He had saved her.

He looked happily at her picture in his mind, laughing at him mockingly. Then suddenly, it shattered in a thousand pieces.

With a start, his thoughts returned to the pain of the present.

"I can't believe you, Ichigo!" he noticed Kons voice. Kon was scolding him for giving up and wanted to save Rukia himself. He didn't even realize that until now.

"That is not like you", the stuffed animal said. This stirred something in his mind...

He was in a pretty bad shape and had lost his resolve to fight. Then Rukia came and dragged him to a Hollow. When he didn't fight, she lectured him. Her lecture had ended with the words:

"You would never give up. That's the kind of man you have been in my heart, Ichigo!!!"

He remembered these words now. She was right. Giving up- that was not like him. "Kon", he said, "thank you". He had found his resolve again.

I will get you back, Rukia. I won't ever let our bond be shattered. I'll never let go of you again...

So, how was it? Maybe I should continue, after all. But thats up to you, guys^^ Is it worth continuing?

Please rate and rewiev!

Greetings, Toushi^^