Hopelessly His

Chapter 1: The Confrontation

Elena's POV

My name is Elena Gilbert and I am just your average wall flower. I have lived in the same neighborhood since I was born. I have been in the same school district my whole life. Mystic Falls is just another boring no name town but to me it's always been home. Today started out as any other school day. I got up showered got dressed did my hair and then came down for breakfast. Aunt Jenna always made breakfast for my younger brother Jeremy and me on the first day of school. Our parents died about 5 years ago and the transition was easier for me then Jeremy. He got involved in drugs and booze and starting letting his schooling suffer for it. I on the other hand just lost interest in my hobbies. I used to be a cheerleader but that's all over with now. On my walk to school I have this intense feeling of unease creep up on me. I have a feeling today is not going to go well.

I arrive at Mystic Falls High School, I walk with my head held low like always at least this way I am rarely noticed. As I am making my way through the crowd to my locker who do you suppose would ruin my day none other than the guy I have been in love with since forever Damon Salvatore, him and those gorgeous dark eyes that seem to just stare straight through me. I turn quickly in hopes that he doesn't notice me and torture me like always but fail miserably. He walks over and slaps my books right out of my hands, "Watch it Gilbert!" as my books fall to the floor. I am mortified as I see my diary hit the floor and fall open. He picks it up "What's this, your diary I see. What do we have here, the inner most thoughts dreams and wishes of Elena Gilbert. This should be fun. I'm going to borrow this for a while." Of all the people to get their grimy paws on my diary it had to be him. Wonderful!

I get to my first class and of course he's in it. As I sit down I see him and his group look at me and start laughing. "Oh god! He's read it with them what am I going to do." I bury my face as my eyes well with tears. I can't let him see me cry. As class continues I can hear the snickers and feel their eyes on me as they continue reading. The bell rings and I dart from my classroom. Only one more hour left in the day. I hope I can make it through the rest of my day without running into any of them again. Too late Damon pins me to the wall by my locker. "So you seem to write about me a lot in this notebook of yours... I seem to be the center of your desires... I bet the mere closeness of us right now is too much to bare." He plants a kiss on my collar bone. "Be careful what you wish for Elena."

I run out of school after the last bell and hop in my black SUV. I turn my radio on and race to get home. Once safely inside my home I call out for Aunt Jenna." I want to move to New York!" She looks at me wide-eyed, "What for?" "I got accepted to an amazing writing school on a scholarship out there and if I do well I can get a free ride to any New York college. You know I want to go to Columbia University and what a better way to do that. You know there's no way we can afford it so this is a good chance for me." With that she gave me the okay and said "Have fun and be safe."

Damon's POV

I felt unnervingly terrible for the way I treated Elena today. If only she knew how much I pined for her affection and here I was destroying it. I had to make it up to her somehow she is the reason I have stayed in this god forsaken town this long. We were friends growing up and then I got turned so I moved once I was more controlled I knew I could come back, so I did. But only for her. I needed to find a way to show her what she means to me and instead I crush her fantasies for my own personal gain what the fuck is wrong with me. Damon Salvatore destructor of all things good. I was the cataclysmic force wrecking havoc on her world.

I entered school that next morning in hopes of apologizing to Elena, but she was nowhere to be found. I walked into class hoping to see her and still no Elena. Where the hell was she? It's not like her to miss school since she's always vying for a top spot over Caroline Forbes. I was genuinely worried when Elena never showed up for school. So I turned in to my crow form and flew in to the tree by her bedroom. I looked in and things were missing and Elena wasn't anywhere to be heard, yet her car was in the drive. What happened to my Elena?

The weeks rolled on and still no sign of Elena. Maybe she wasn't coming back and I, the Jackass, was probably the reason why. I always had to ruin anything that makes me happy. Talk about self-destruction to the fullest. I never was any good at relationships. For me it's always about the sex. I never keep a girl around longer than a week even Miss Caroline couldn't resist the temptation. Then there's Elena always the one who gets away. I am always chasing her like some sick game of cat and mouse or lion and lamb. I am always the predator and Elena the victim.

I needed to find out what happened to Elena, but no one seems to know and her Aunt Jenna wasn't giving the secret up to anyone. So I guess that's it I have to just move on and hope for the best for Elena. She was always going to be the girl who got away and this time I had to just let her. What is it about this girl that keeps me longing for her? What makes her so damn special? I don't know but I sure as hell don't want to find out.