I can't get the look in her eyes out of my head. Then sound of her voice, so angry, so much hate.
Why? Why does she hate me so much for protecting Frost and myself. I didn't mean for him to fall.
But what really gets me is since when did she care about Paddy? She always hated him, but now she acts as if he was really a father, the one who raised her and cared for her. He's just a sperm donor, I mean for god sake she even called him that!
I can't. The pain is too much, she hated me while I love her. I should have never slept with or told Dean about Paddy.
Cause then maybe none of this would have happened. It's been a month since the incident. Maura hasn't even said a word to me unless its strictly professional.
I tried to apologise, beg her to forgive me. But she just looks at me coldly before turning her back to me.
I don't know if I can keep going with this pain, hurt, anger. So this I'd the last time I'm going to try to talk to Maura.
If she turns her back to me again then its done. I can't, I just can't any more.
Jane drives up to Maura's house and just sits in her car looking at the house.
'What if she's asleep?' She thinks to herself.
Finally she turns the car off and gets out and makes her way to Maura's door.
She takes a deep breath before finally knocking on the door. Nothing happens, so she knocks again but harder.
Finally the door opens revealing a tried and confused Maura Isles. But the tiredness and confusion is quickly wiped off from her face and switched with and angry cold look on her face.
"What are you doing here Detective?" Maura ask in a monotone.
Jane flinched at the tone and formality. "Uh, I was wondering if I could come in and talk." Jane mutters quietly but loud enough for Maura to hear.
"There's nothing to talk about Detective. Now its best if you leave." Maura says coldly trying to close the door.
But Jane stook a foot out to stop the door from closing. "Maura please. Just please listen to me and let me explain. Please." She whispers pleadingly.
Then Maura laughs out a cold emotionless laugh. "Well well well, would you look at that. The mighty strong Jane Rizzoli begging, who would have thought they see the day Jane Rizzoli begs like a pathetic bitch." Maura hisses out cruelly.
Jane feels her heart burst into pieces, her eyes sting with tears. "Maura please stop and just talk to me." She begs in a shaky broken voice.
"Stop? You want me to stop? Like you did for me when I told you to not shoot Paddy." She asks sarcastically.
"I was protecting Frost and myself Maura and you damn well know it!" Jane growls out at her.
"He wouldn't have hurt you! He knows you protect me, or should I say protected me before you betrayed me yourself."
Jane clenched her fists. "Yes he would have. If even if he wouldn't have shot me, he would have shot Frost with out hesitation! And you know what pisses me off even more Maura, is that you care more then Paddy then thinking about if I had not took the shot wither me or Frost would be the one in the hospital fighting for our lives." She hiss getting into Maura's face.
Maura says quiet and glares at Jane.
"Yeah, that's what I thought. Now will you please listen to me." Jane says clearly irritated.
Maura straighten up and look at Jane with cold eyes. "I said there's nothing to explain. Now if you don't leave in the next five minutes I will place a restraining order on you." She threatens.
Jane feels her chest hurt and feels and looks finally defeated. "Ok Maura, you win. Just know that I'll always be there for you. And when your ready to listen to me I'll be here waiting." She whispers.
"Don't waste your breath detective. How about you leave me alone and go fuck Dean just like you did last time." Maura sneers at her before slamming the door shut on Jane's heartbroken face.
She couldn't hold the tears and more as she walked back to her car. She got in and shot one last glance at Maura's house before driving away back to her apartment.
Jane drops onto her couch and sips on her beer looking at the black screen of her tv.
'She hates me. She hates me,' was the chant going through her head as she replayed what had just happen at Maura's not too long ago.
She drank her deer in silence till someone knocked on her door. Thinking its her mother she gets up and walks towards the door, knowing Angela would not leave till Jane let her in.
"Ma I'm really not in the mo-" Jane was cut off when she saw Maura standing there instead of her mother.
"Maura?" She ask in a whisper not believing what she was seeing in front of her.
Maura walked into the house and started pacing. Jane closed the door and watched Maura.
Finally Maura turned to look at Jane. "Explain!" She demands with the look of determination in her eyes.
"Maura, I never meant to shoot Paddy. I just wanted to protect you. After he shot Dean I wasn't going to shoot because I saw him lower his weapon, but them when he looked like he changed his mind and raised his weapon at me and Frost I just reacted just like I was trained to do Maura. Please understand and believe me." Jane sobs.
Maura just looks at her before walking to here and grabbing the back of her head before crashing their lips together.
Jane moans and pulls Maura closer to her. Maura gasp which allows Jane entrance into her mouth.
She moans as she feels Jane's tongue touch hers and her hands move under her shirt and touch the skin on her back.
Maura finally pulls back and whispers, "bedroom."
Jane nods and wraps her arms around Maura's waist and carries her towards her room not breaking their kiss.
As she walked into the bedroom closing the door with her foot she push Maura down onto the bed, and began to remove her bra. The moment she did, she glanced up at the blonde to give her a wicked smile before she bent her head and took a nipple between her lips, just to flick her tongue over it, cupping her other bare breast. Maura cried out, a noise Jane had never heard before, but felt right down to her core.
"You're beautiful Maura," she murmured. Maura didn't reply, only to arch her back a little to get Jane to pay more attention to her breasts. She figured if the doctor was doing that, wanting more, she must be doing something right.
She took the other nipple by her teeth and tugged, eliciting another cry from Maura and she smiled against her breast. She ran her tongue around her nipple, thumb making the same motion on her other breast and Maura started to shift her hips, arching up towards Jane.
"Please Jane," Maura said.
"Yes?"
"I need more."
Jane smiled and kissed her way down Maura's pale skin, nipping at her sides to see what reaction she could get from her friend. Her left side was more sensitive, something she was sure the good doctor would be explain to her later, but Jane was much more interested in removing Maura's underwear.
She pulled them slowly down her long legs, running her hands back up letting her thumbs brush over the inside of her thighs, Maura spreading her legs at the soft pressure.
Jane looked up at Maura ask for permission through her eyes. Maura nods, and that's all it takes before Jane moves up and smile at Maura one last time before licking over her wet folds. She made another new noise, a desperate wordless plea for more that Jane responded to, eagerly, with more licks and nips, searching for Maura's clit. She sucked it between her lips, her friend's hips shooting up off the bed when she did so, making Jane chuckle. She was doing something right.
"You're so hot Maura," she muttered, before pushing tongue into her body. She should've expected it really, but the reality of it still took her by surprise a little as she felt hot flesh surrounding her tongue. It caused her to pause long enough for Maura to arch her hips up again, wanting more. Jane reached up with one hand to hold her hip down as she teased her with her tongue, tasting the sweetness that was Maura Isles. It made Jane moan too, lower than Maura's high pitched 'oh' noises, and she shifted on the bed until she could get some friction on her clit when she moved and ease some of her own desperation.
Maura was shaking, and Jane could feel her friend getting closer, getting more desperate, and she moved back to concentrate on her clit, scraping her teeth over it to make Maura cum with a scream.
When she finally came down from her high, Jane curled up next to her on the bed, stroking her abdomen, smiling at her.
"You'll stay the night won't you?" Jane asked, hating how desperate she sounded.
"Yes," Maura breathes out.
Jane puts a finger under her chin and turns her head to look at her. "I love you Maura. I've always have, I'm sorry that it took me this long to tell you. But just know that I'm in love with you." She whispers passionately before placing a soft loving kiss upon her lips.
Maura doesn't say anything and falls asleep. Jane feels her heart clench after confessing her love to Maura and not getting a reply.
'Maybe she was just so tired she didn't have the energy to say anything. Yeah that's why, we'll talk tomorrow morning.' Jane thought before falling into a deep slumber.
Okay guys this story has been in my head for the longest now and I just had to write it down and post it up before I went to sleep tonight.
Now this is my second Rizzoli and Isles story, I hope you like it. This is going to be a 2 or 3 shot story I don't know just yet.
Please review and let me know what you think. Ok thank and goodnight!